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Toh kya socha aapne? Shadi karengi mujhse? - He bent down and purposed her in such a simple way
She nodded positively and looked at him lovingly.. he was not ready to get up.. She asked as she noticed something in his eyes...
Kya hua??
Hua toh kuch nahi par maza nahin aaya.. Roke pe maine gaana sunaya tha... ab aapki baari..
Gaana?
Ji...Gaana...Gaana gaaiye aur humare purposal ka jawaab dijiye..
Viren ji please...
Jeevika jiii PLEASEEE
"Dheere Dheere Pyar ko Badhaana Hai..Hadh se Guzar Jaana hai"
She picked up the same song which Viren sang on their roka ceremony with saying its his favourite song..
He stood up still holding Jeevika's hand in his hands and then put it on his heart - "Mujhe bas tujhse dil lagaana hai..Hadh se guzar jaana hai " he mumbeled the next line of the song and smiled
Ab aap jaaiye..werna beeji aa gayi toh bohat problem ho jayegi..
Acha? ..(comming closer and Jeevika moving backwards)
Viren ji Please..
Viren pinned her to the wall and Jeevika started breathing heavily
"Viren ji koi aa jayega."
"band kamre mein kaun aayega?"
"Yeh mazaak ka time nahin hai viren ji..Jaaiye na... sachi mein koi aa jaega.."
"Toh Aane do.."
Then suddenly they heard knocking on the door
"Diii...darwaza kyun band kiya wa hai..Kholooo" (banging the door)
"Viren ji..please Jayiye na..Mannu aa gayi hai"(pushing him towards the window)
"Nahin pehle..." (pointing towards his cheeks)
Jeevika got nervous and looked at him with pleading eyes.. He smiled and kissed her forhead before leaving..
Jeevika thanked god and then opened the door...
"Itniii der darwaja kholne mein di... Kya kar rahi thi?" -Manvi asked looking at Jeevika
"Woh main Bathroom mein thi..." Jeevika replied without looking at her
"Acha??"
"Haan toh aur kahan jaaungi" (trying to convince her)
"Acha chalo ab so jao..werna kal shadi pe dulhan soti reh jayegi aur bechare jiju apne dukh bhare gaane sunaane baith jayenge..."
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Aisi zindagi hogi.. har taraf khushi hogi... itna pyar dunga tujhe aye mere sanam... He mumbeled those lines again frm his fav song and hugged her tightly..
Ab na koi gham hoga na yeh pyar kam hoga..saathi mere mujhko tere sar ki hai kasam... She smiled with teary eyes and sang the next line
Ek duje ko aazmaana hai..hadh se guzar jaana hai...He slowly pulled himself back stroking Jeevika's hair and kissed her both eyes...
they hugged again and mumbled together - Dheere dheere pyar ko badhana hai..hadh se guzar jaana hai
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But now things were changing... He stopped romancing with her like usual'he stopped telling her how beautiful she looked...
Due to his hectic work schedules, the two of them hardly got time to spend with one another and whenever there was a little free time, when Viren was either on the phone or somewhere out for some work.. Jeevika was trying to keep herself calm.. but things were confusing her... its not only Viren's busy schedule which was disturbing her.. but She was feeling he was hiding something from her but she didn't know what'. though its been months they were married, but still there were many things which they found new for them everyday.. till now Jeevika saw his husband's happy, naughty and romantic side... but his another side was New to her... and she was not used to it... and it was irritating her like hell...one fine day she decided to ask him when he was at home'
Viren was lazily lying on the bed exhausted due to the hectic schedule but seemed highly disturbed and thinking about something'.
Jeevika came to him and layed down next to him and hugged him sideways'..
Viren was a little surprised but definitely felt so much better as it had been long that he and Jeevika had even hugged each other' Involuntarily, his hands went around her and his head rested on top of hers'.
Jeevika craved for his touch in the past few days and was loving every bit of this moment'.
With that feeling, she hugged him even tighter'.
They remained like that for a while just feeling each other'.they both said nothing'
Finally, Jeevika took the initiative to speak'.
"Viren ji.."
"Hmmm''"
"Yeh sab kya ho raha hai Viren ji... kya chal raha hai? Matlab, aap mujhse kuch chupa rahe ho?"
Viren knew she would ask him this for sure' In fact he was surprised why she hadn't asked him so far'But he then realized how much she trusted him and decided not to ask him about this'.But he also knew that she expected him to come and tell her himself but he couldn't'.
He decided to ignore the topic as far as he could from her but now was when she finally confronted him'..
" Aisa kuch nahin hai Jeevika.. main bas busy hun ek important case mein."
"Bas yahi baat hai ya kuch aur bhi hai.."
Aur kya baat hogi.. "
He got up frm bed and settled on sofa with his laptop...
Again something pinched her somewhere, but controlling her she got up, sitting on the bed she looked at him from distance..
"Aaapke busy hone se problem nahin hai mujhe..."
He looked at her as he heard her continuing the conversation
"Mujhe problem hai ki aap sab apne ander rakh rahe hain.. pareshan hain kitne din se... kuch share nahin kar rahe... Main aapse yeh expect nahin karti ki aap sab kuch mujhe batao... mujhe naa sahi kisi aur ko... Maa ko, bua ji ko ya kisi aur ko bol dijiye jahan aap comfortable hon, Pata nahin mujhe yeh sab kehna chahiye ya nahin par Mujhe aapko iss tarah dekhne ki aadat nahin hai Viren ji... Main jaanti hun aap mujhe bohat pyar karte hain.. iss baat ko koi nahin jhutla sakta par Pati-patni ka rishta sirf itne tak seemit nahin hota... Apne jeevan saathi ke pyar se zyada humein uske Sukh, sukoon ki zyada zaroorat hoti hai... Yeh baat main sirf aapke liye nahin apne liye bhi keh rahi hun... mujhe koi problem ho toh main yeh expect nahi karti ki aap mujhe samjhein...meri aankhein padhein aur samajh jaayen ki mere dill mein kya chal raha hai par haan main itna zaroor expect karti hun ki har problem mein hum dono saath ho...Sukh mein saath hain toh dukh mein kyun nahin?? Aur rahi pichlo kuch dino ki baat toh main yehi kahungi ki yeh sach hai ki main aapke bina nahin reh sakti par sabse badi baat yeh hai ki main aapko pareshan nahin dekh sakti...Main wait kar rahi thi ki aap kab aake mujhse share karenge...kab main aapki wahi smile aapke chehre pe dekh paaungi... kab aap kahenge ki Jeevika aaj tum bohat khoobsurat lag rahi hun..yeh color tumpe bohat suit kar raha hai.. yeh saab baatein mujhe khushi isliye nahin deti ki usmein meri tareef ho rahi hai... balki isliye ki aapka pyar hai un baaton ke peeche... woh baatein kehte huye aapki smile aur bhi badi ho jati hai... par pichle dino se yeh sab nahin dikh raha tha toh mujhe ghutan ho rahi thi... aaj bhi yeh sab na keh ke agar main aapse normally baat karti rehti toh woh dikhawa ho jaata.. fakeness hoti usmein..aur jahan dikhawa, naatak aa jaye relation mein toh rishta fake ban jaata hai aur main bilkul nahin chahti ki humare rishte mein Dikhawe naam ki koi cheez aaye.. sab kuch real ho aur yeh tabhi ho sakta hai jab hum ek duje ko leke khul ke baat karen..apni problems share karen... Dheere dheere pyar sirf pyar karne se hi nahin... apna maan-ne se badhta hai... jab aap apne jeevan-saathi ke saath sukh hi nahin dukh mein share karte hain... She said choking on her words... the last lines of herself made her own emotional..she coudnt control and tears came out frm her eyes.."
and this was it... He found Jeevika's voice getting low which made him get up frm his seat.. he came near her, bent down on his knees in front of her holding her hands. He was curing himself for not understanding Jeevika's feelings in past some days...
She looked at him as he kissed her palms and he continued -
"Waise mujhe pehle sorry bolna chahiye par main pehle kuch aur kehna chahta hun... main maanta hun ki meri galti hai... par maine agar yeh galti na ki hoti toh main shayad tumhari yeh side kabhi dekh hi na paata... tumhare pyar ki gehraayi ko shayad samajh na paata...agar tum yeh baatein mujhse na kehti toh mujhe apni galti ka realize kabhi na hota... Jeevika maine itni deeply socha hi nahin... jaise tumhare liye yeh pyar ki duniya nayi thi waise mere liye bhi thi.. aaj tak maine itne case handles kiye..itni pareshaniyan bhi hui jo maine aaj tak kisi se share nahin ki par case jeete ki khushi sab mil ke celebrate karte the... main bhool gaya tha ki ab mera har move tumhe bhi affect karega.. main samajh hi nahin paaya ki mere iss behaviour ki wajah se tumhe kis situation ko face karna padega... I am sorry Jeevika... I promise yeh dobara nahin hoga... kuch bhi ho main share karunga tumhare saath aur yeh hope karunga ki tum bhi bejhijhak har baat share karogi mujhse... I am sorry once again..."
She was still looking at him continously... he got up and settled beside her still holding her hands...
"Kya hua? abhi bhi koi pareshani hai? tumne mujhe maaf nahin kiya?"
She smiled with wet eyes.. - "Nahin viren ji... koi pareshani nahin hai.. I am sorry too... maine yeh nahin socha ki jaise yeh poori situation agar mere liye nayi hai, woh aapke liye bhi nayi hi hogi... mujhe bhi samajhna chahiye tha... par atleast ab yeh tasalli hai ki humari aaj iss topic pe baat ho gayi and thankuu mujhe samajhne ke liye..."
He smiled back and for bringing the change in atmosphere to make her mood good he put her arms around her neck and said naughtily : "thanks kehne ki zaroorat nahin hai..hum apne kiye ka zurmana bharne ke liye ready hain mohtarma..."
"zurmana toh bharna hi padega na... itne din se bina break ki gaadi chala rahe hain aur iss signal (pointing towards herself) par rukna zaroori tak nai samjha.. ab bhariye zurmana"
"Oye hoye... meri ek galti se toh aapke naye naye rang dekhne ko mil rahe hain Mrs vadhera... kya baat hai..." and saying this he hugged her tighty and she hugged him back closing her eyes which she opened in another second as she heard him singing :
Main akela kya karta aise hi aahein bharta..tere pyar ke liye tadapta umar bhar... he came out of hug, cupped her face and kissed her both eyes...
Tears again filled her eyes... She put her hand on his which were still on her cheeks and sang ahead: Jaane kya main kar jaati..yun tadap ke mar jaati..bin tere bhala kaise kat-ta yeh safar...
He smiled nd continued: tere liye mar ke bhi dikhana hai... As soon as he sang this lne she put her hand on his mouth nodding negatively...nd hugged him continuing his line Hadh se guzar jana hai...
They rolled on the bed still mumbling their fav song: dheere dheere pyar ko badhana hai.. hadh se guzar jaana hai...Soon they lost their senses and completely lost into the moment enjoying it thouroughly... and like this Their first ever fight took a positive turn..
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Though its been 4 months , but the words were still fresh to Viren... that one line of Jeevika "Viren ji aapki choti si Jeevika jaldi hi aapke paas aane vali hai.." was still echoing in his ears... He came out of his dreamland as he heard the door of the bathroom open.. His gaze fell on Jeevika's tummy.. the baby bump was visible a bit now... suddenly something hit his mind and he got up frm his seat.. He went up to Jeevika who was combing her hair in front of mirror.. She turned as she looked her husband's worried face in mirror...
"Kya hua?"
"Woh main soch raha tha ki Tum comfortably so paogi ab.? should I shift to Guest room..?" he asked her with concern..
"Kya?? Par kyun? kya bol rahe ho aap?"
"nahi.. I mean.. tumhe problem toh nahi hogi na..? main tumhe itne zor se pakad ke sota hun na toh you'll be fine..?" he asked yet again..
this made jeevika laugh like anything... Viren was looking at her confusingly... noticing his looks Jeevika somehow contolled her laughter and placed her hand on his cheek lovingly..
"Koi problem nahin hogi Viren ji...Aap guest room mein soyenge toh mujhe kaise neend aaayegi..?" she said with her ever so sweet smile knowing it was something more to his concern.. "aap bhi na pata nai kya kya sochte rehte hain... aap akele ki patni nahin pregnant hui hai? toh sab pati kya apna room chod ke chale jaate hain.. she started laughing again..Pata nahin kya kya sochte rehte hain aap.. chaliye ab so jaayiye.."
Viren was still not convinced...settling on bed he said- "Acha thik hai..main tumhe thoda side pe hoke sounga taaki tumhe thodi space zyada mil jaaye..."
She frowned when he lied down providing her with enough space to shift, unlike other days when he would cuddle her so close that she would request him to atleast let her breathe.. pushing those thoughts aside she herself settled close to him keeping his arms around her, herself..
"Par Jeevika..."
"Viren jiii basss... Kuch nahin hoga kisi ko bhi... ab aap mujhe sulaiye..." - she said hugging him tightly..
He hugged her back carefully and sang - Tera chand sa mukhda..tu jigar ka hai tukda..tu humare sapno ke jheel ka khanwal.. He caressed her cheeks and brought his hand to her tummy caressing slightly...
She put her hand on his hand - jaan se tu hai pyara, aankho ka tu hai taara... bin tere jeeyenge ab hum na ek pal
He kissed her forhead bringing him close and continued - sab kuch tujh pe hi lutaana hai..hadh se guzar jaana hai...
She closed her eyes mumbling with him - dheere dheere pyar ko badhana hai..hadh se guzar jaana hai..
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"Thoda rest kar lo Jeevika..." He kissed her head, as she was still lost.. He wiped his own tears, pulling himself out of their recent loss.. Jeevika was all lost laying on bed, was not reacting to anything.. her life stopped with doctor's words that she had lost her child.. She hadn't expressed any emotion-no grudge, no grief, not even a single tear emerged her eyes...
"Jeevika please aise mat karo..tumhari tabiyat khraab ho jaayegi.. ab honi ko hum thodi na rok sakte hain..ismein kisi ko koi galti bhi nahin hai...jo humne khoya hai hum phir paa lenge...tum ho toh sab kuch hai...I really don't need anything".. she was all the more broken. He felt miserable, seeing her suffer... He wanted to kiss the pain away, but, he didn't know how.
Finally he took some courage..He wiped the tears forming in her eyes and started singing -Aansoo na bahayenge... hansi dhoond laayenge... Mil jul ke baant lenge zindagi ke gham... She looked at him with teary eyes... More tears formed in her eyes... he wiped them again and continued putting his head on her lap - bach ke kahan jaayegi..khushiyan laut aayengi.. haarenge na waqt ki inn aandhiyon se hum..
She turned to her side crying badly... He engulfed her into a tight, protective hug and kissed her head - dheere dheere hausala badhana hai... hadh se guzar jaana hai..
She coundnt control and turned back hugging him more tightly.. He brought her face closer to his, closing his eyes, on listening her heart-wrenching sobs..He wiped her tears, but she cried more, hiding her face into his chest.. Soon she fell into a deep slumber...
He kissed her last time, wiped her tears and covered her with blanket..He knew. with having each other beside, tomorrow morning would bring a new dawn to their lives...
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Part 1 - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vsY6zUbKiUA&feature=plcp (made by Poovy)
Part 2 - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RzcRMdh8YbY (made by me)
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