(EPISODE 74 on Pg 146)Do Dil Ek Jaan ..ek baar phir - Page 59

-Episode 41-

Antara was hell angry with raghu, not because he had teased her or that he tricked her into taking him with her to Kashmir, but for the thing that he couldn't understand...He couldn't understand the fear and agitation she had inside her heart only because of him !!.

She didn't want Raghu to fall in danger 'again' for her...Though she knew that Raghu was not a simple guy and he was tough and brave, still she didn't have the guts to take him with her.

Antara: Kyun Bagwaan ji?..Kyun?...Mushkil meri hi peechay kym bhagti hai?...Kyu Raghu nahi samajh pata ki main usse kyun apne saath nahi le jaa sakti...Kyun nahi samajhta wh?..

Antara thought for a moment. Should she tell Raghu about her insecurity and why she didn't want him to go with her.

" Nahin bilkul nahin..tab toh woh aise fool ke balloon ho jayega...Itna bhav khayega ki!!!.." Thought Antara Angrily

But he was right in some way...Kashmir's condition was really getting worse day-by-day...It will be far worse than before and it was not safe to go there all alone for a girl like her. But one thing got clear to her that she couldn't take Raghu with her.

She would never let anyone's life fall in danger for her. She was determined to go to shrinagar all alone...

"Main tumhe apne sath nahin le jaa sakti raghu.. I am sorry!!... main kissi aur ko ab mere liye musibat jhelne nahin de sakti...tumhe toh bilkul nahin!! Chahein tum ye meri zid hi kyun na samjho!! Ya phir tum mujhe bura samjho.. mujhe koi farak nahin parta!! Ab main kissi ko musibat mein nahin phasne de sakti!!" she thought with a determined face.

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Meanwhile in Dayamanti Bhavan the entire Kaul family was sitting on a dining table along Raghu's men...Noor Apa was serving dinner...Pakiya, Chotu, MM, Charger and Battery all were busy praising Noor Apa's Kashmiri Pulav.

"waah kya banaya hain noorie aunty maza aa gaya... muahhh!!!" pakiya threw a flying kiss towards noor.

"Chup!!... apna khana khao..." noor said blushing.

"wohi too kha rahein hain...par itna acha khana ho aur khana banane wale ki tareef naa ho,, ye sarasar na insaafi hain... noori aunty aap ka hath kahan hain?.." chotu grabed noor apa's hand and tried to kiss it. noor apa quickly take back her hand

"chup...badmash!!" noori aunty faked anger and rolled her eyes. A huge sound of laughter reflected in all over the house.

Raghu came down to the dinner table and was pleased with the chirpy environment. After his mother's death there was no one left in his family...He lived in that huge mansion just with his men Pakiya, Chotu some of his others men and some of his servants.

But after long he was felling good seeing the warm Kaul family in his house. As everyone saw Raghu coming down, Pakiya, Chotu and the other's became silent. Raghu glanced at the table but he couldn't find the desired face he was searching for.

Raghu: Wo erm...Uncle..Wo Miss Kaul kaha hai?

Noor Apa: Antara!! woh toh kamre mein hain beta ..use sar mein bahut dard tha..Isiliye woh khanae ke liye bhi nahi aayi! Humnay use bahut samjhaya lekin woh neechay hi nahi aana chahati

Raghu heard that and left the table angrily.

" arey khana kha ke toh jao" Noor apa called him but he just ignored her. "pakiya.. bhaai fir se garam ho gaye..." Battery said from side in low voice as all of them followed him going up angrily.

Antara was in her room lying on the bed and looking towards ceiling with thoughtful eyes. She was thinking about her up-coming Kashmir trip. She was thinking of how to short out everything!!. She had thought of several plans but everything seemed flopped. She knew that he would surely try to stop her.

"koi phayda nahin... aise kuch nahin hoga... woh har waqt mujhpe nazar rakhta hain...main ticket lene kaise jaungi station?! Woo bhi ussse bachke..." thought antara.

Suddenly she heard heavy footstep and recognized who was coming. She immediately tossed on the bed shutting her eyes tight. Raghu entered her room and he saw her lying on her bed.

He smirked

Raghu: Hey..Yedi..Mujhey pata hai ki tu soi nahi hai..Uth

Antara moved towards him and opened her eyes.

Antara: Kyu aaye ho tum yaha?!

Raghu: Tum Khane Kay liye neeche kyu nahi gayi thi?!

Antara: Noor Apa Ne nahi bataya ki meri tabyat theek nahi hai

Raghu: Bataya tha ..Aur sab samaj agaya hai mujhey..Tu yeh isiliye kar rahiy hai..Kyunki tu meray samnay nahi aani chatiy!!!

Antara: MERI TABIYAT SACH MEH THEEK NAHI HAI..., (her voice rose a bit.)

Raghu: ee chal nakhra mat kar.. mere pee gussa hain too khane pee kyun utar rahi hain?!!

Antara(angrilly): TUMHE EK BAAR MEIN BAAT SAMAJH NAHIN AATI KYA?!! MAINE KAHAN NAA MERI TABIYAT THIK NAHIN HAIN.. ISKE SATH TUMHARA KOI REALATION NAHIN HAIN...MERE ZINDAGI KE HAR PAL KE SATH APNE AAP KO JODNA BANDH KARO RAGHU.. AGAR TUMHE LAGTA HAIN KI MERE HAR PAL KE HASI, GUSSA AUR AANSOON KE SATH SIRF TUMHARA NAAM JURA HUYA HAIN TOH WOH TUM GALAT SOCHTE HO...

Raghu's eyes froze as she uttered those words.

Antara realized what she just said..She looked towards Raghu and looked into his eyes...She could tell he was hurt..

Raghu: Miss Kaul..Tere life ke sath na... apun apne aap ko jodne ki koshish bhi nahi karega ..kyunki..Apun terese pehlay hi juda hua hain...

Antara froze by his intense words, she clearly indicated from his expression that how much hurt he was.

Raghu: Miss kaul apun ne pehle hi keh diya hain... tere zindigi ke har pal mein tere saath doonga...Teri parchayi banke ...Teri protection ke liye...Tujhey musibat se bachanay kay liye...Tu chahein ya naa chahein...Apun hamesha tumharae saath hi hoga..Apun ne wadha kiya tha miss kaul aur raghunath naik apna wadha nahin bhoolta... chahein koi aur bhool jayein..

Antara looked towards him shocked..His eyes said it all...She could tell how hurt he was...Raghu looked towards Hurt and Angry at the same time and left the room...Before leaving he looked back at her...

Raghu: Main tumharay liyay khana bej raha hu..kha leh nah...Mere liye...Bole toh please.."And he left...

Antara thought to herself...I said so much to him...and he was hurt..Yet he still cares about me so much..WHY??

Written by IFZA and minor edits by editting team