she turned on other side.. and decided to stay quiet..
Raghu heard the sound of her bangles and looked at her..
he knew she was awake.. a smile appeared on his lips realizing that she is nervous.. may be...
even that thought filled his heart with so much warmth..
he closed his eyes... and lost in some thoughts..
he opened his eyes when he heard her voice..
Suniye?!.
he looked at her.. she was lying facing him..lowering her eyes...covering herself till her neck tight in her duvet..
hmm...? he said..
main jagi hu..
janta hu..
i mean.. tab..
tab bhi jagi thi..
janta hu... he said and turned on the table lamp but dimmed the light so that they could see each other..
he slipped under his duvet.. and looked at her..
main ghabra.. she was about to speak but her voice got stuck in her throat.. when he placed his finger on her lips..
he nodded in no... "ye bhi janta hu...!!"..
she looked into his eyes and tilt her head..
aap sab jante hai...?? she asked innocently..
and a smile appeared on his lips..and he chuckled.
she felt a warmth in her heart seeing him smiling...
aap hanste hue bahut achchhe lagte hai.. she said while his finger was still on her lips...
he didn't say anything but kept staring at her..
"aap ye bhi jante the...??" she asked and he nodded in no...
ye tumne bataya.. he nodded in no and said...
they both shared an eye lock and when came back to their trance they looked away..
why isn't he saying anything.. he asked me if i was awake..
and when i am.. why is he silent.. is he feeling nervous too..she looked at him with corner of her eyes and thought..
he never express his feeling.. should i ask him..?
but how i can start.. how can i ask...she thought and bit he lower lip
Antara was feeling uneasy now.. and Raghu was also going through same dilemma..
he was more concerned of what she will think about him..
should i ask her..?.. why didn't she ask why i was calling her..
idiot..!! because she already knows.. the way you moved towards her.. 'course she knows..
she lied..she was asleep.. so may be she is not comfortable right now..hmm...
he thought and decided to ignore...
but! she herself told me she was awake and pretended to be asleep... so is she feeling the same..
does she want the same..?
i...i,,,, should ask her..he thought and looked at her..
and then their eyes met..
they both felt goosebumps..
she clutched her sheet tight in her hands..Raghu looked at her and gulped his saliva..
he took a deep breath inside and with all his strength he again looked at her and nodded slowly..
she looked at him but couldn't response.. she always feels numb in front of him..
Raghu lowered his eyes.. he din't know how to behave at this moment..
he lifted his duvet a bit... looked at her and nodded..
her cheeks turned crimson..she slowly slid towards him.. he opened his one arm and she slipped in his duvet and removed hers..
he laid flat and encircled his arm over her.. covering herself fully in his sheet, she placed her head on his chest and clutched his vest in her small fist..
Antara..!! he called her and her heartbeat raised..
her grip got tighter on his vest and he held her hand to stop her..
she almost got scared and moved a little back..but stopped as found herself in his embrace..
she stopped and placed her head on his biceps..but had no idea what's gonna happen next..?
Am i gonna sleep like this.. ?? she thought and blushed..
but why is he doing all this.. why now..??
is everything ok with him...?? is he hurt from something i said last night...
i should talk to him.. she thought..
she was about to say something but stopped when he called her again..
Antara..! Did I hurt you...??
she looked at him and the way he spoke she felt that he was not okay...
she nodded in no and was surprised when he chuckled...
you must be thinking what a stupid question he asked... he chuckled again..
she kept looking at him.. she wanted to know what's going on with him..
From the very first day of our marriage i have given you only pain..but nothing else..
and now I am asking if i did hurt you..
it's not like that..her eyes were moist..
it is.. and i can't deny that...
but today..!! Did..?.. Did I hurt you again..? he asked with a heavy heart..
she nodded in no..
whatever i said last night please don't take that other way...
no u didn't.. he nodded in no...
he turned to her and met his eyes with her..
there was mere silence..
after a minute or so.. she broke the silence...
can i ask you something...? nd please forgive me if it hurts you..
hmm...
why did..
um!.. you...
i mean..
i thought you will never..
i know i shouldn't ask... she lowered her eyes..but he kept staring at her.
no..
actually I'm stupid..
i really...shouldn't ask.. she chuckled..
u hv all rights on me..she said hurriedly..
and he cut her in between placing a finger on her lips..
you can.. you have all rights to ask...
after whatever i did to you, you deserve to know this..he said while caressing her cheek with his thumb...
she held his hand and looked into his eyes...
last night, you asked me something...
she nodded in no... "i don't wanna know anything..."
you deserve to know..
but you don't need to give any explanation..
Antara.. listen to me.. please.. if i won't say it today.. i would never be able to..
she kept mum this time...
Nafrat nahi karta hu main tumse.. [pause]...
main kar hi nahi sakta...
tumse...??
kaise bhala..?
he moved her hair strands behind.. "kabhi bhi nahi..."
i have said a lots of things to you.. awful things..
i shouted on you with no reason.. because i was frustrated with myself..
i never wanted to hurt you.. but knowingly unknowingly i have hurt you...
she nodded in no..
a lot.. i know that...
but i don't hate you...i never did..
she looked at him with a smile on her lips and teary eyes..
she moved towards him.. with a lot of courage she cupped his face..
he looked at her lovingly.. as she placed a soft kiss on his cheek...
you took care of me.. never questioned a thing..
you never complaint.. even though i hurt you...
i thought wrong about you...and i am sorry for everything..
i promise i won't hurt you..
that day i asked you to leave.. but now i want you to stay...i don't want you to go..
she scoffed with tears in her eyes and hugged him tight..
i'm not going anywhere..she nodded in no..
he hugged her back.. and dozed off in eachother's arms...
- - - - - - next day - - - - - - -
once Raghu left for office.. antara called her mother-in-law..
(Raghu's parents lives in same city but due to some reasons he started living in his own place..
after marriage Antara also felt awkward about this.. but she couldn't do anything..since raghu wasn't agree to move in with his parents..
they used to meet sometimes..antara was in regular contact with them.. but raghu din't really talk them very much...)
hello mom.. its me Antara..
yes Antara.. hw r u..?
i'm fine mom.. hw r u?..n papa..?
we are good beta.. hwz Raghu.. its been a long time you came this side..
i know mom.. he has been very busy for last few weeks..
i know..
mom.. i want to meet u...will u be able to meet me somewhere outside..
sure beta.. when do u want to meet...
lunch time..?
okay..but is everything ok??..
yes mom.. everything is fine.. i just need to talk u something..
abt Raghu??..
Antara din't reply..
ok beta.. no problem.. will see u then,,
yeah!,.same place..?
yeah!...
ok.. thanks mom..
bye beta..
bye mom..
- - - - -- - - - - -- in the evening...- - -- - - --
it was 8:00 PM.. Antara was preparing dinner..
she came out hearing the door bell..and rushed outside to open the door.. it was him..
she passed a smile to him.. he looked at her.. his expressions changed a slight...
they never wished each other morning, evening or anything..
she used to pass him a smile everyday when he comes home.. and he always used to give her his bag...
today with that slight change of his expressions filled her heart with a warmth..
she held his bag like always and he came inside.. she closed the door.. and he looked at her..
h..hi...he said as she turned...
she looked at him in awe...
hi..she replied..
"how was ur day..?" she asked while keeping his belongings on their respective places..
it was fine.. he replied softly but in very low voice..and rushed towards the bedroom..
she kept looking at him leaving from there...
is he okay...he seems to be upset with something..
she came inside.. and saw him leaning over the recliner.. holding his jacket tight in his grip..
but as her heard her footsteps.. he got up and pretended to take some stuffs..
he grabbed his towel and took his night suit from the closet..
he turned and saw her.. "i'll go n get fresh n up..." before she could ask him anything..he said..
ji.. she nodded in yes.. i'll arrange the dinner.. u must be hungry..
he nodded
jacket..? she asked..
its ok.. he said..and left..
she came back in the kitchen..
what happened to him..? he was all ok in the morning.. did something happen in office today.. should i ask him.. she thought..
but he doesn't look interested in talkting about it..
he seems to be worried...will ask him once he is calm down..won't be good idea to ask anything now... she thought and prepared dinner...
he came back after 15 minutes.. and saw her arranging dinner on table..
he came there and sat on his chair..she served dinner for both and joined him..
he looks a bit relaxed now.. she looked at him and thought..
howz u feelin' now..? she asked..
i'm good.. thanks.. he replied while eating his food..
yesterday u had slight fever.. so i was worried..
when u came back from office.. u looked tired..
yeah!.. i'm fine now..
..
..
..
and then there was silence...
..
..
she had nothing else to ask him.. nothing else to discuss...he always provided her everything in this house..
even before she asked or needed..they never had a topic to discuss during breakfast or dinner or any other time..
she was having her food.. and when her spoon was left in her mouth.. as she heard him..
how was your day..?. he asked..though without any expressions..
she immediately held her spoon and looked at him..
good.. !! it was good... she replied and gulped some water...
so did he...hmm..
..
..
..
..
wh..what...! he bit his upper lip.. and tried to sit calmly..
what did u do...? he asked...
..
.. did mom tell him.. that i met her...? she thought...
no.. ! i don't think she would..
she knows it will only make him upset..
but when he came home.. he was upset..
so did she.??..
..
..
no.. whenever we met..she never told him..
i'm sure.. she didn't..
she was lost in her thoughts.. and Raghu felt aawkward as she din't reply..and hurt too...
he got up to grab water jug.. and when she came back from her trance..
I didn't do anything...i never do anything..i'm so stupid... she replied and laughed meekly..
hmm.. he replied and sat back on his chair..
she realized what she said...
no i mean.. i watch tv.. she said and nodded...
ok.. good.. he asked in barely audible voice and continued eating..
no.. today i din't do much stuffs...
but daily.. i clean house.. prepare breakfast, lunch, dinner..
i wash clothes..she left her food and started counting on her fingers..
then i iron clothes washed on previous day..i arrange your closet and then mine..
i..she looked at him having his food.. a..r..r..a..nge our bedroom.. and kept staring at him...
so... once ...you... will... be... back.. from ...office..you ...might... be... tired.. she din't move her eyes from him..
he stopped eating feeling her gaze on him..
so.. you... can... take... some.. rest... there.. she completed.. and then he looked at her with so many emotions in his eyes...
i'm done.. he said..
she looked at him... yeah! me too...
he got up.. and she also collected all dishes..
Antara! he called her when she was about to leave for kitchen..
you surely do a lot of stuff.. you should take some rest too...he said..
a big smile appeared on her lips.. and she saw him leaving towards living room..
suniye.. !
i'll watch tv for some time..he said while leaving...
she nodded.. and smiled...
..
..
..
after 10-15 minutes.. she came out finishing kitchen work..
Raghu was watching some movie.. so Antara went directly in the bedroom..
she opened her closet and was about to pick her salwar suit.. when she looked at a few dress kept in a corner..
those were her night gowns.. she used to wear in first few days of her marriage..
When Raghu denied her on their very first night.. she never wanted to wear those gowns, nighties again..
she caressed her hand on those dresses and was about to pick one..
what would he think.?!.. she thought and kept them again in the corner..
she grabbed her suit and went in the bathroom for shower..
she came out after 10-15 minutes.. brushed her hairs and came in the kitchen again..
she filled a jar of water and went in the room...
and then a smile appeared on her lips and a lone tear escaped from her eyes...
there was a red rose in a glass..bottom filled with very small amount of water..kept the table on her side of bed..
she kept the jar on table and picked that rose.. it was so fresh.. she smelled its fragrance and again tears rolled down from her eyes..
she placed it back in the glass and ran outside..but stopped a few inches away from his couch... he was still busy on watching that movie..
she looked at him.. and smiled..
wiped her tears.. which again rolled down on her cheeks.. she wiped them again.. and walked towards him..
she didn't know how she got so much stregth...she wounded her arms on his neck from behind..
he was about to turn to look at her..but she held him tight from behind..
she placed her chin on his shoulder and joined her head with his from side..
he kept sitting as he was..her shuddering fingers roamed on his chest and hugged him crossing her arms over his shoulders...
thank you... she could utter..
hmm.. he replied.. she chuckled seeing him behaving so insensitive..
..
..
why are you crying??.. he asked..
i'm not.. she nodded in no.. and hugged him more..
he din't say anything.. neither he hugged her.. nor he asked her to move back..
she could see and realize whatever mrs naik told her today..
precap: i have no idea...🤣
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