Gun and Guitar-a RANTARA ff(note at pg150) - Page 49

Chapter 21

"Oh shit antara! how did it happened?!" saroj asked looking at antara's bleeding hand. "just a little accident mummy. Don't worry it will be fine." Antara said while doing bandage on her wrist. "but antara!!..." saroj was going to say something when they heard a bell on door. Saroj went and opened the door. She was surprised to find the compounder of basti's doctor. His face was a bit worried. "good evening bhabiji." The compounder said rubbing sweats from his forehead. "yeah, same to you. But what happened? U looks worried!" saroj asked. "Don't ask me bhabi ji!" compounder hurried inside the room and look towards antara standing near table. "Pardon me madam but are you antara kaul?!" he asked. "Yes, I am! What's the matter?" antara asked in confused voice. "At last I found you!! Excuse me mam, can I check your wrist?!" he asked. "my wrist?!!" she asked in confusion. "yes your wrist got hurt right?! Please let me check. Please madam, otherwise raghubhai won't leave me!!" the compounder said in a poor voice. "what?!!!" antara's eyes widened. "yes madam! Raghubhai himself came in chamber just a moment ago. Doctor sahib was not there so he caught me instead. He ordered me to check on your wrist immediately! And if I don't do that he will break my neck!! So mam..." he informed in helpless voice. "oh god!!..." antara mumbled in low voice. Was there any way to get away from that gunda?! He did reckless things always. Saroj was looking at them with silent gaze. "listen, I am absolutely fine!! I don't need any special treatment it's just a small scratch." Antara said. "May be madam, but if I won't do my job raghubhai will kill me." He said again. "ufff!! I don't understand why you are so much afraid of that raghu bhai!! Who is he?! Is he god?! Or a demon?!! Besides, how can he know if you don't do my medications?! He is not here. See?!" antara said in a bit angry voice. "Madam you are new in these area, that's why you don't know. Raghu bhai is not less than any god of this basti. If he is not here that doesn't mean he won't come to know anything. He keeps his eyes on each and every smallest activity of this basti. Please mam, I have small kids on my house. Don't make them to lose their father." The poor guy begged. Antara let out a big sigh and stretched her wrist to him. the compounder checked the wound and bandage and said, "it's not that much deep madam. It would be healed within two or three days. No need for any medication." He said. "I told you na..!!" antara said with a sigh. "okk madam I will take my leave now. And please if I did any mistake, don't make complain to raghubhai!" he said. " no way, why should I? I don't even talk to your so called raghubhai!!" antara said in irritation. "That's your matter madam. Now excuse me..." the compounder got out from the house. Antara let out a big sigh and meet saroj's hard gaze. She became worried. She forgot that mumy was also present there. "So, all that happened because of raghu?!" saroj said with a cold voice. "mumy I..." antara said with a low voice. "I told you to stay away from raghu. antara you saw in your own eyes that how much dangerous that guy can be. He is not any random street smart guy! He is the terror of all Mumbai city. Antara, why don't you understand?!" saroj said loudly. "mumy please. I didn't forget that I promised you not to make any problems before leaving this basti. I am trying hard to stay away from him. But the thing is that the situation stands me always in front of him...I am really tired mumy. I don't belong to this place. Everything is so wrong here. I feel suffocation every day. I just want to get away from this basti as soon as possible!" antara's voice chocked. She was trying hard to control her tears. Why didn't he leave her alone?! Why?! Saroj came near antara and caressed her chicks. "Everything will be fine antara. I know it's hard for you to live in this environment. But trust me, everything will be fine! This place is not so bad as you think. You just can't c them. Trust me antara, just give it a chance." She said with affectionate voice. Antara smiled sadly, "I am sorry mummy but I really can't..." she said.

Raghu was seating on his cot making an angry and irritated face. his hands were rubbing the wooden edge of cot impatiently. "janwar ho tum... rakhsas ho... Sirf chot pahuchana jaan ye ho..." her voice hit the wall of his mind and his anger was rising time by time. She hated him that much?! Why?! just one year difference and her all point of view regarding to him got changed. He remembered, how both of them used to spend fun time in kashmir's garden. Her childish chirpy smile, his beautiful voice and mostly her casual and hearty behavior to a stranger like him, made a deep impression in his heart. And that night when his real identity was revealed to her, everything got changed. Her admire changed into hatred on that very spot and her hatred had become despise! He felt a sharp pain in his heart. Why did she hate him that much?! Just because he belongs to the forbidden society of underworld?! Was it his sin that being a people of that dark world he dared to like a simple and lively girl like her and for the first time he let anyone to enter in his lone heart?! It just happened, he couldn't help that. He didn't know when he developed that kind of madness for that girl named antara that even a long one tears gap didn't let him forget her. His cell rang breaking the chord of his thoughts. "haan machmach bol..." Raghu said picking up the mobile. "haan rbhai... wo compounder ka pilla abhi abhi govind ji ke ghar se nikale hain... tu tension mat le... apun khirki se sab dekh liya... sara mamla fit hain.. antara ji ka kalayi bhi ekdam fit hain..." machmach informed from other side. "thik hain... abhi tu adde pe ja ke baki khabar le aur uss rangnathan swami ne abhitak paise nahi diye... pata laga kahi wo foot na gaya ho..." Raghu said. "okk bhai!!" mach mach said and raghu dropped the phone with a relived sigh. He looked at his palm with hard eyes. Just a moment ago his blood was spotted in his hand. He hurt her!! the thought screamed in his mind and his face got twitched in immense irritation, pain and hatred. He kicked on the bed with huge urge to break that hand but suddenly he heard a tender footstep behind him. he got startled. Who was there at that time?! Raghu turned back and was hell shocked to see the person approaching to him with a silent hard gaze fixing to him. Her silky hairs were as usual floating slowly in tender push of wind. With her each and every approaching footstep, raghu felt his heartbeat rissing. Antara! what was she doing there?! no one dared to get inside naik sadan without permission but as usual, she always had the guts to do such things which other one couldn't do. How could he forget that. Those rare qualities of her character attracted him to her. With her all persona and gravity she came there standing in front of him. raghu just continued to gaze to him, silently, noticing her every movement. When she stop just a few steps away from him, he at last opened his mouth. "tu idhar?!!..." he asked in dazed voice. "I am sorry... main itni raat ko tumhe disturb kar rahi hoon... par mujhe anna para... Infact tumhari harkaton ne mujhe majboor kiya yahan a neke liyee.." she said in a bit loud voice. Raghu sensed her anger. Without wasting a moment she showed him her wrist on which the white bandage was wrapped. Raghu was again hurt looking at her bandage, and as well as confused by her words. "dekh liya tumne?! Sahi salamat hoon main. Kuch nahi huya!! Serial ki heroine nahi hoon main jo itni se kharoch se rone lagoon ya behosh ho jaun... do u understand?!" she said a bit loudly. "par tu ye apun ko kyun kahe rahi hain?!" he was still confused. "kyun ki mujhe tumse ye kehena hain ki please mujhe akela chor do... mujhe nahi chahiye tumhari koi bhi madad. Samjhey?!... main bardast nahi kar sakti kit um jaise log mujhe kisi bhi tarah se help karo..." her loud words hit him badly. "eee apun ke jaise log matlab?! Kya kahena chati hain tu haan?! Tere hath mein chot lagi thi iss liye uss compounder ke bache ko tere ghar bheja tha... aur tu hain ki.." but his words were stopped in midway. "haan unhe dara ke dhamka ke tumne mere ghar mein bheja.. and u know what tumahari aisi hi harkat se mujhe problem hain... main yahan jyada der tak nahi rahe sakti... bas eek hi baat kahungi... please ye acha ban ne ki natak bandh karo... kyun kit um job hi karo tum kabhi mere nazar mein upar nahi uth sakte... tum gundey ho aur humesha gundey hi rahoge..." she said loudly. raghu didn't know how he managed to control himself, but he also remembered that she was hurt. Gripping his hand in a feast he controlled his rage. Suddenly antara became silent and looked at him with a sad face. he became confused by the sudden change of her mode. "aur waisey bhi..." she said, "ye jakham to bhar jayengey... par tumne mujhse jhoot bolke, apni pahechan chupake jo chot di hain wo kabhi nahi bhar sakti... iss liye ab humdardi dikhake aur dawa laga ke koi farak nahi parne wala..." antara said with firm eyes. Raghu felt like someone stabbed directly in his heart. She didn't wait to c his reactions and turned around. She got out of the Terrence with heavy footsteps. His eyes followed her all over, till she entered safely inside her house. His eyes were angry, and more than that hurt! He stood there frozen for a while then kicked his feet in anger. He rushed to the corner of his Terrence and pushed the knob of shower heavily. The cold water spread over him. He punched the wall heavily and closed his eyes. He felt like his whole feature was burning in some unknown fire.

Antara went inside her room and closed the door hardly. She didn't want mama mumy to c her at that moment. She didn't tell them that she was going to naik sadan. She crushed on the floor and burst into crying. She didn't know why, she felt like hear heart was aching like hell. She should be happy and proud that she replied back to that animal but rather than that she was feeling so low and exhausted. The words which she told him, seemed like scratching her own heart even more. Why?!! what was happening with her?! Whenever she was trying to hurt him it felt like she was hurting herself more than that! After some huge moment of outburst, antara stood up rubbing her eyes. Her eyes had become red due to tears. She was feeling tired. She looked at the open door of balcony. She remembered the incident of last night. She gasped and rushed to close the door and when the scene got into her view. As the distance between two house was only some inch so everything could be scene clearly. She saw raghu standing under the shower. He seemed frustrated. Even from the far distance she could feel his restlessness, his vibes. The water droplets were caressing over his face, his bear forearms and well build muscles, his toned feature which was clearly visible through the wet red vest which was hugging his perfectly build up chest and abs and truly he looked really irresistible. Antara's heart thudded loudly. she couldn't control her gasp. She felt a shiver all over her nerves. She continued to look at him dry mouthed. She didn't know when unconsciously she came in the balcony and stood there holding the railings. Her eyes were gauging over his wet irresistible feature and each and every moment her heartbeat increased. On the other hand ragu also felt some intense gaze on him. he opened his eyes and moved his face towards the balcony at front. There she stood, looking straightly towards him with that big wide hazels and her lips were bit parted. Slow air was ruffling through her hairs but she was standing there like a statue, fixing her amused gaze to him. What an innocent, pure and yet fiery beauty! People would rather die for just a glance of her. She always hid herself under the shade of simplicity and modesty but didn't she know that her mere glance was enough to capture anyone's heart. Her tender lips, her delicate but perfectly created feature and her smell everything about her was fascinating. Couldn't see observe that what effect she was creating on him?! he was drowning in her everything just like a helpless lad and he couldn't stop that. Both of them stared to each other for a long period. Seemed like they forgot everything, their surroundings, their time, even their own self! They just knew each other. Suddenly antara's mind screamed, antara get up!! What are you doing?!' she got out of the trance with a jerk and shifted her gaze with so much difficulty. Raghu's eyes were pulling her like magnet. She rushed inside and closed the door harshly. Raghu felt the sound of door broke his heart into several pieces. Still in trance, he slowly pulled off the knob of shower and moved to his bed in daze.

Antara, crushed on the bed and cried out her heart. Her whole feature was jerking in the flow. She sank her face into pillow. She really needed a place, where she could hide and let those tears out. antara what are you thinking just a moment ago?! How??!!! How could u even think that?!! You are doing a sin antara!! A VERY BIG SIN!!! You couldn't have that feeling for him. did you forget who is he actually?! Raghunath naik!! a killer and antara kaul you are falling for a killer!!!' her inner voice screamed those words and her heart pained like hell. just forget him antara. forget that you met him someday. Forget his name, his everything!! You have to do it antara... otherwise no one could stop the disaster!!' her inner voice spoke. "I won't... I won't let that happen!!" antara said slowly in sobbing voice, "I will forget him!! Yes I will!! Anyhow!! I have to do it for everyone's sake..." she sobbed more vigorously. Who knows what fate is playing with that poor helpless girl.

Precap: "tujhe kya lagta hain?! mere ko kuch samajh mein nahi ataa?!" he said leaning more closely. Antara steped back and looked away with hard face, "tera jo ye akar, ye gussa, sab banawati hain... jooth hain... teri juban kuch keheti hain aur teri ankhein kuch aur..." He uttered slowly making her shiver badly.

lol don't know what i have written down actually... waiting for chappal as usual..🤣