Suraj came home to a dark house.He knew Sandhya was home though.He could sense her presence in the crowd of a hundred people.His Sandy.Yeah tht's wht they used to call her in college,Sandy and him Sunny.Sandy and Sunny,best couple in the world,everyone used to say.He smiled at the fond memory.😳
When he entered their room,Sandhya was sitting on her fav couch,knees folded under her.And she was crying.😭
Sandy Baby…..what happened?He sat beside her and pulled her to his side,hugging her.She borrowed closer to him,but didn't say anything.Suraj understood her need to be just held and didn't ask anything.He knew she would tell sooner or later,so he sat their holding her ,soothing herwith gentle strokes on her back,kissing her forehead.
Sandy knew she should talk to him now,he must be getting worried. He wasn't asking her coz he knew she was upset and didn't want to press her.What a lucky girl she was, to have such a caring and loving husband like him,and what was she doing to him?She couldn't make his one dream come true,she was failing him,the thought brought fresh tear in her eyes.😭
Suraj?... I ….but rather than saying anything, she handed him her reports which she got today from the hospital.It said,due to her last miscarriage ,there were some complications and she couldn't get pregnant as her body can't take this much burden.😔
I am sorry Suraj….mai tumhara sapna pura nahi kar payi,tumhari pyari si gudiya…nahi de payi tumhe,ek baar phir ummeed tut gayi hamari,aur is baar hamesha ke liye shayad..… sorry suraj ...i am so sorry….she said tearfully.😭
Suraj held her face in his hand gently and looked into her eyes….Shhh pagli….isme tumhari kya galti hai?he said wiping her tears.He kissed her nose…dekho kya haal bana rakha hai ro ro kar …aur maine kaha than a ki mujhe bata dena jab reports aa jayein,hum sath me jaate,why did you go alone,he knew how it must have been for her to see the reports alone there.But he was here now,and he wouldn't let her face this alone..he said..Sandy..chalo utho…thoda fresh ho jao…phir aaram se baat karenge….aur aaj mai apni sandy ke liye dinner banaunga….Suraj's especial mutter pulav….😳
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They were sitting on the dining table to eat,but Sandhya wasn't eating,she was just playing around wid her food.Suraj frowned seeing that…..Aaj tumne mera dil tod diya Sandy..She luked up suddenly,and something flashed in her eyes,she tried to hide it quickly,but Suraj noticed it,…😕
Instead of asking anything he said…Maine itni mehnat se tumhare liye khana banaya..aur tum kha hi nahi rahi ho….Mera man nahi hai suraj…she said slowly..
Are aise kaise man nahi hai…khaoge nahi kuch to weekness ajayegi na…chalo aaj mai tumhe apne hantho se khilaunga…she looked at him lovingly,thinking…he always cared for her,and pampered her like this and when she was upset even more so.
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It was midnight but Sandhya couldn't sleep,she went out of bed and stood near the window.Today's events playing in her mind.
Neend nahi aa rahi?Suraj came and hugged her from behind.He kissed her neck lovingly.😳She turned in his arms,Suraj could see on her face that something was bothering her.Kya hua hai Sandy ? I know tumne mujhe puri baat nahi batayi hai…ab apne Suraj se bhi baat chupaogi tum…tell me ….and she knew she couldn't hide anything from him …'Aaj buaji aayi thi'..she said reluctantly….just listening her name brought a frown on Suraj's face,he knew too well about his bua's insensitivity and big mouth..
She said something to you,didn't she Sandy?How many times I have told you not to bother over her thoughtless comments?Anyway,what did she say today?And why did you even told her anything?
I didn't want to Suraj,but I met her on the way back from hospital,she said she would like to come home and chat..
Yeah right chat….said Suraj sarcastically..
Suraj….I know she is harsh,but she is our elder,she wants your happiness ,and she is your only living relative..Suraj snorted at that…
When she asked I told her about the reports,I couldn't lie…Sandy continued.
And what evil thing did my dear mighty bua said in return?He asked…
She said,she(Sandy hesitated)….and he tightened his arms around her…what did she say Sandy..?
She said,that u should never have married me,I don't deserve you,and if I could not even give u a baby,it would totally break your heart,I should …..i should leave you…that if I wanted your happiness,I should leave you alone.Coz one day sooner or later you will realize what a mistake I have been in your life and will leave me.
Whattt?How dare she? Suraj asked enraged😡….and you are letting her rubbish cloud your mind…I didn't pegged you so stupid Sandy.
I … I know suraj….but..all my life I had lost my loved ones,my mom dad in that car accident,then my only family left after them dadaji…wo bhi mujhe chodkar chale gaye after sometime….tum nahi aate meri zindagi me..toh..i wouldn't have survived Suraj..and i know you love me,but sach to ye bhi hai na… I am failing you,You wanted a baby so badly ,and I….i..mai nahi de payi tumhe….she hiccupped….agar tum mujhe chodkar chale gaye……mai mar jaungi….Suraj….i can't live without you….I cannot exist without you.😭
Shhh…He tightened his hold on her..chup bilkul chup,mai kahin nahi jaa raha apni Sandy ko chodkar.Don't you believe me? In my love Sandy?Accha ek baat batao…agar situation reverse hoti,to kya tum mujhe chod deti..mujhse dur chali jati Sandy?😒
Nooo…kabhi nahi.Suraj…and clutched him more tightly in a death grip.U are my life..she said tearfully.He let her hold him tighly and soothed her with his own embrace…and said..
phir? Mai kaise tumhare bina reh sakta hun…We are partners na…for always,aur jo kuch bhi ho raha hai isme na tumhari galti hai na meri…rahi meri icckha ki.. ya phir yun kahun ki hamare sapne ki..hamare bacche ki…toh we will go for adoption.But listen to me Sandy…don't ever think that I am ever going to leave your side,you are stuck wid me baby,he said playfully to lighten her mood,but the seriousness of his love and promise shining evidently in his eyes.We are together forever sweetheart. Then he kissed her neck,ears,her face,letting his kisses say things which couldn't be said in words.He kissed her eyes,sipping her tears…😳
He knew she wasn't doubting his love,she was just upset in fear of losing him and their dream,she just needed reassurance of his presence.He picked her up in his arms,and laid her gently on the bed,what he couldn't express in words,he let his lips and hands express it, and in the sea of loving caresses,playfull nips,and passionate kisses,of her lover,her husband,her soulmate,Sandy felt cherished and loved.She again found her home.There was no place for any doubt and fear between them,just the magic which two of them found in each other's arms.😳❤️
Whatever life brings next,they were together in it,for now and forever.❤️
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