La i waited roughly 3.5 years for this or something like this. There is only so much i can take.
I will see this last instance as an opportunity that Allah gave me the chance to raise my hands in supplication towards Him, bow my head in obeisance to Him and move my tongue in His worship, more than i would have ever done. But this is the extent to how much i am ready to be optimistic about this scenario. I can't handle my ever increasing pile of broken hopes any more. If He wishes to compensate for it in the Hereafter then i am all for it. But for now, I give up. Not on Him but myself.
No La. I don't wish to share.
Don't worry about me. I am heartbroken and it shows but i will survive this. I am oh so used to it
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