Random Heartbreakers Timbuktoo#61!!!! - Page 105

Originally posted by: nureat01

Awww *hugs* I totally understand yaar.....honestly I toh am confused to this day about what the hell I'm doing in life....just drifting along and picking whatever seems to be a ''practical" choice even if my heart's not in it *sigh* Life feels like such a farce sometimes....like we're just going through the motions.

*sigh* So true! I mean.. Being a doctor is great - I understand the science and the complexity intrigues me.. But do I really want a huge malpractice insurance, 36 hour work days, on-call weekends, hospital politics, lack of simple morals and more money that I know I'll need? Sure it's a prestigious thing, but do I really want it? So I really want to sit there treating people who are dying or are terribly sick? And know that they either were stupid enough to inflict this on themselves or that they are too helpless to get out of it even if they want to? Medicine is a noble profession, sure. But it's just heart breaking and it's the very last straw - I mean, if you're at a point where you need to sit in a hospital then obviously you've missed all the earlier signs..

I guess what I really enjoy is teaching - I've been teaching for the past 6 years. To all age groups and I absolutely totally enjoy it. To be able to help and guide someone in living a better life instead of helping them avoid a painful death just seems like a more bright career choice.. But now I've already send the applications for this year and the grad school apps are almost closed anyways.. So I am just not sure if it's too late to rethink. I mean I know what I want to do right now - get a PhD in Organic Chemistry and then teach at a university somewhere.. But I don't know if its "practical" now to change my career path. I've been working for this think for the past 8 years but I've never really wanted it and the stark knowledge of this truth just makes me so confused about what I should do.. *sigh*

ok I didn't mean to depress you more....lol....sorry yaar....I wish I had a clear encouraging answer....but I guess it all works out....you just try to make the best decision according to whatever you can based on current conditions I guess.

Nahi yaar! You didn't depress me at all.. I am just confused.. Ulta I should apologize to you for dumping this all on you.. It's just that I'm turning in my secondary apps today and I still don't know if I want this.. I mean I know I don't want this right now, but I don't know if this is just me being all jittery before I start the free fall into med school or this is really me telling myself that I do not want this career.. 😳

Aww Fivr yaar.....seriously life comes down to tough choices, haina......you do have a passion for it but there seems to be so much nonsense attached to the profession as well like you said....the crazy work hours, malpractice insurance etc......and if you really do have a passion for teaching, then you can pursue that also....waise teaching I'm sure you can do in any capacity anytime....but if you've put all this years of work into doing med school, you wouldn't want to waste that either, haina?? I think you should just send your apps for now and baaki just the decisions come back, then you can think about it.....maybe you're just having one of those unsure spells we all have from time to time.....sometimes you just give it some time and ultimately you'll get some clarity :-)

I can't watch this...This is too depressing and....ugly.....Lord! I can't believe the way this man is treating the kid Dutta!!

@Mash: Oh you're watching that flashback epi then....haan that was really quite depressing....felt really bad for Dutta too.....maine kaha tha na if you watch all in one go, it might get to be too much....I think you should skip to the visarjan epis now when the revelation happens.

Originally posted by: incandescence

Anuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu..........I loveeeeeeeeeee youuuuu!!!!!! *hugs*

LOLL itna sara pyar suddenly?? Kyun bhai??😛😆....

@Anu: I think that sudden outburst of love was related to your suggestion of skipping episodes.. *speculative muh*.. Maybe I'll say the same thing this weekend.. 🤣

Originally posted by: nureat01

LOLL itna sara pyar suddenly?? Kyun bhai??😛😆....

Because you are the most awesome person in this CC! Anddd because you made a Malaal sig...meaning you'll make more.....meaning I'll get more awesome sigs to use....*happy muh*

I absolutely LOVEEEE the sig....You are The Best!!!!

I saw today's SGP ... I loved the last part - Posting my comment from the forum:

@Mash: LOLLL thanks yaar....it was one of my fav. moments so I really wanted to make a sig from it....bas time nahin laga toh ab jaake banaayi.....will surely be making more....I loved JZ😍

And this was such a great scene....I'm repeating myself....but looooooooove their convos...the way she asks him about how he met "Natasha" and he tells her while actually talking about ZEE all the time....lol...and I thought it was so cute the way she was like, "aise propose kiya tumne?" when he says, 'will you marry me' and the way she goes on to elaborate about HOW he should have proposed with a candlelight dinner, flowers, music etc...and then the "Do you believe in miracles....I believe in miracles...possibilities' convo.....ahh I love love love this scene....and I found good quality seperately uploaded JZ scenes on YT *happy muh*


@Fivr: Haan just give it time and baad mein you can make up your mind :-)


@LadyM: Yeah I watched today's SGP but didn't really enjoy it that much *shrugs* Ishaan's attempts to cheer her up were strictly ok to me....although yeah I too was missing the crazy shouting version of her so was glad to see that back with her ranting/raving at the manager.....but otherwise didn't find myself that impressed with the epi.....the previous three epis were better with the RB-Deepak-Suhana scenes....those really made me cry a lot....watched them back to back this morning.

Hmm Anu - don't know why, but I actually liked the last bit of today's episode as well. Of course in a totally different vein though, as the previous three episodes this week were very very nice and very intense. I too cried, although my tears were biased towards Deepak's state of mind. But I liked Ishaan's effort of trying to cheer up Suhana today. And Suhana finally snapping out of her gloom. It was nice to watch.

Edit: Heyyy Mash, Fivr! Mash - all caught up with LTL?