One Shot
I was rushing through the corridor when I heard his laughter. It says there are few kinds of sounds in world which increases your heartbeat. And one was sound of his laughter which always increases my heartbeat. His voice is like sweet symphony to my ears. Thinking of him my mouth automatically twitched. I turned to found him sitting in canteen laughing his heart out. This is the most beautiful scene ever, to see him happy like this. After that dreadful day I've never seen him this happy.
My thoughts ran to announcement room fiasco, when I declined to accept my love for Swayam in front of everyone. I won't justify my action because what i did was a grave mistake. I was scared and his sudden question about our relationship in front of everyone made me even more scared. In my reflex I denied about our relationship, without realising what will be consequences of this. And when realization hit me, everything was over between us. I had broken his trust. I winced at thoughts of that day.
It's been Five months to that incident still the wounds are afresh, it hurts a lot.
My chain of thoughts was by broken his voice. He was talking to someone. I wanted to see who that person was, who has brought smile on My Swayam's face. And the very next moment, I stood frozen at the spot, all colours drained from my face; my smile was all gone, when i saw a girl sitting close talking to him. They were having a friendly chat. This is the same girl whom Swayam had brought as his date on Rose Day Party, Ruhi... And suddenly there's a lump in my throat. It's not been a week also since she joined our college and they seem very comfortable together. From past few days I am hearing many rumours related to them. People were gossiping a lot about them since rose day party. I had practically avoided these rumours.
Swayam is moving on... my mind said. But my heart contradicted it. He can never. He will never. He has loved me and only me from Five years. But he looks happy with someone else. And this time my heart has no answers to it. The flashes of our break up came; I cursed myself for breaking his trust.
I felt a tinge of jealousy, seeing them like this, how I wished I was the person behind that smile. But today I am the only reason behind his pain.
I have given him nothing but misery.
I feel erratic and out of control. I'm fizzing with furious, agitated thoughts-although who I'm most furious at I'm not sure. Maybe myself.
My eyes were cloudy now seeing the sight in front of me; I am Sharon Rai Prakash, the diva... I don't cry, at least not in front of everyone. I reminded myself, keeping my chin up. I walked past them.
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-The marks human leaves are too often scars.
...The End...
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