The Healed Heart - a KriYaansh OS ||HBD Sweetu||

"Kria..." I called out to her, my voice barely audible. I felt weak with pain. I knew that I had hurt her. She was in pain, though she didn't show it. The worst part was that, I was the reason behind her pain, and I couldn't do anything about it. I knew that I had hurt her... but it was for her good. I had to keep her away from her me. I knew that she still loved me, but it was wrong. It was wrong because I was broken... broken beyond repair. I couldn't be healed. I had loved Sara all my life, but then, she just left... just walked away. And then came Kria... like a sudden star that brought light into my dark life. She knew that I was broken, but still she wanted to be with me. She knew that my heart belonged to someone else, but still she gave her heart to me.

Despite the thousand times I had hurt her, she still stayed by my side. I smiled as she came towards me now, with a first-aid box, ready to dress my wounds. My stomach did funny things as she sat beside me on my bed.

"Rey... woh buttons... mujhe aapke dressing karni hai." she said, her voice nervous as she looked at my wounds.

"Tumhe yeh sab karne ki zaroorat nahi hai." I said, my voice coming out harsher than I expected.

She flinched at the sound of my voice. I didn't want to be harsh on her, but if didn't, then it is going to hurt her more, later.

"Lekin... aapko dressing ke zaroorat hai aur aap khud nahi kar sakte ho." she said, her voice low, yet determined.

"Kria... why don't you just leave me alone. I told you that I don't want you. Just stop bothering me." I yelled at her. It pained me to do this. It pained me to see her hurt. But, if she were closer to me, then it's only going to hurt her more. Why didn't she just understand???

"You may not want me Rey, but you need me now. So, please be quiet till I finish your dressing and I'll go away." she said, her tone was firm and determined.

"Kria... I..." before I could finish my sentence, she was there, her trembling as she unbuttoned my blood-stained shirt.

"Kria... what are you doing?" I asked her. Our closeness was driving me crazy. I looked at her tear-stained face. She looked beautiful that ever. Her eyes held nothing but love for me.

"Rey... agar maine aapke ab dressing nahi kya, your wound will become septic." she told, her eyes not meeting mine.

"Kria... some wounds keep getting bigger, no matter what." I told her, my past memories of Sara dressing my wounds after an accident coming back to me.

"It keeps getting bigger only because you want it to get bigger." she said. I looked at her, surprised. This was the first time she ever answered back to me. And I knew she was right. I was not ready to let go of my past. And I was not ready to confess it to her either.

"Why don't you just mind your own business Kria? It's my life. Just stay away from me and leave now." I yelled. I couldn't let her stay with me any longer. I didn't want to fall in love again. To me, love meant losing things and I had lost enough already.

I winced as the cotton touched my wounds. It hurt. But, the pain within me was even more. I couldn't see her hurt and at the same time, I couldn't stay without hurting her. Even when I hurt her, she cried for me... cried because I was hurt. Suddenly, I felt her hands brush against my chest and her touch felt so good... soothing. Even though, I never wanted her to fall in love with me, I felt a strange bliss when I thought of her love.

"Hogaya..." her voice suddenly brought me out of my trance. I looked down to find that monstrous wound hidden under the white bandage. I was too engrossed thinking about her that I forgot to feel the pain.

Suddenly, I realized that she was nowhere near me. Sudden fear overtook me. I didn't want her to leave... not yet. Though I told her leave me alone, I never did mean it. It felt good when she was next to me. For the first time, I felt scared of losing something precious... even more frightened than the way I had felt while losing Sara. I looked around frantically, searching for her. Just as I was about to get up from the bed to look for her, thankfully I saw her coming from the kitchen with a glass of water and tablet in her hand.

"Aapko yeh pain killer lena hai." she said as she handed over the tablet to me and stood rooted to her place looking at me. She gave me a surprised look as I kept the tablet aside.

"Mujhe nahi chahiye. I'll take it later." I said, giving her a cold look.

"I never asked for your opinion. I just want you to take it." she said, as she pointed to the tablet.

I smiled. "That's it... two can play the game." I thought.

"But when it comes to me, you need to take my opinion, whether or not you like it. Right Kria?" I asked her, making her scowl.

"Why don't to stop testing my patience and take the tablet? Because I'm not going to leave until you take it." she said, with a stubborn look on her face.

Suddenly, to her greatest surprise, I pinned her to the wall, my body plastered against hers. Our breathing grew erratic as we realized how close we were.

"I don't want you to leave..." I said as I looked into her eyes. At first, she looked shocked and then confused.

"Why Rey?" she asked me. "Why don't you want me to leave?" she asked me again

"Because I need you." I confessed and it was true. I needed her. Without her, my pain was evident and when she was with me, I ceased to feel the pain.

She brought her face closer to mine. "I love you Rey. I don't care whether you can reciprocate it back or not. But you cannot stop me from loving you." she said, her voice coming out in a whisper.

"I don't want you to stop." I said, as I inched closer to her, my lips brushing against hers.

She closed her eyes in anticipation. She looked beautiful than ever, her face looking peaceful and relaxed, her lips quivering.

Without wasting a moment, I placed my lips on hers, closing the gap between us. Her hands clutched my hair as she responded with the same intensity. We would have stayed like that forever, but, we pulled away as we fell short of breathe. Her cheeks turned crimson as her eyes met mine. Without a word, she took her bag and left, sparing a last glance at me before she left. I smiled. I knew this was not just it. Exhilarated, I went back to my bed, as the day came to an end. This was not the end. This was just the beginning and there was a lot more to come. I closed my eyes as I awaited a new tomorrow, the very new beginning for us.