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~When Love Drizzles~
The tiny droplets smeared my car windows. She used to love rains, I thought. I sighed, as her giggling form came in front of me, once again. I still remembered the time when I used to associate every single thing to her. From places to colors to clothes, nothing was left out. And she used to have a hearty time giggling at my expressions and antics. A small voice from my heart spoke just then, Could I have all that moments again? I had no answers.
"Beta, Hotel aa gaya" kaka spoke, bringing me out of the land of her memories.
"Hmm.." I leisurely responded with a small smile. Gathering my rucksack and other essentials, before the porter could, I moved towards the building. My every belonging had her touch. And that was way too precious for me to share, no matter what.
As I stepped out of the SUV, a cool breeze hit my body. The chilling breeze of Dehradun. She always had been so crazy for this place, I still wonder why. I shook my head; there is really no end to this.
I went to the reception. The hotel interiors were quite grand; especially for the scale of a place like Dehradun. Moving towards the reception, I very easily noticed how the receptionist's eyes widened. Well, I didn't knew I was that famous.
"Umm, I had a room booked here..." I initiated.
"Yes sir, I'll just, uh, look for it." The receptionist fumbled.
"Yes sir, your room is 1101, our presidential suite, it's on the 11th floor, left from the elevators." She spoke, after a few minutes of search, in a nervous manner.
"Thank you" I spoke and began leaving for the peace of my suite.
"Wait!" the receptionist again spoke.
"Huh?"
"Actually I wanted an autograph, for my younger sister, sitting there. Would you please..?"
I glanced to her right, where a small girl of about seven to eight years of age, was gazing at me intently with those slit-like eyes similar to her elder sister's.
I knelt down to her level, and she presented her small autograph book to me, timidly. I smiled, and signed that page. The joy in her eyes was so comforting, that it left me a strange kind of relaxation.
But I posed her with a peculiar question, "Why did you ask for my autograph?"
She had an astonishing reply ready. "Who wouldn't? You are Reyansh Singhania! My role model and the sole teen dancing face for India. " she spoke with a sweet smile.
I gave my usual weak smile. Who knew I wasn't the same anymore.
I staggered towards my room, and freshened up. After eating dinner, I hopped onto my bed and took out my phone. I began looking at the pictures of the time we spent together.
I kept my phone and lied down, unable to bear the torture. Why was it so difficult to get rid of her? Why?
I closed my eyes as I went into flashback, for the umpteenth time.
I had reached to stardom through a dancing reality show. And fortunately, I won the competition. I still remember the welled up eyes of my parents at the declaration; and the party by my father's dance academy staff afterwards.
It was then that my father decided that I needed to go into a better school, befitting my status. And then he found XYZ Public School, one of the most posh schools in town. My first day was quite good, but not as good as the next one was. Because the next day, she entered the class.
Kria Ghai, the future love of my life. A girl with loads of attitude in the beginning, but it began to melt away as I came to know her. The day she entered, she had left an impression so... Indefinable, to describe. I had developed a very secret crush on her. Just imagine, the boy who is the crush of almost all girls in his class, has a crush on the most perfect girl he has ever seen. Amazing combo, right?
And about her charm, I guess its famous world-wide. Despite my disliking and my glares to them, every boy literally ogled at her, even though she didn't prefer revealing clothes. She had a very enchanting aura, but somehow she didn't like talking to boys altogether, I guess.
One day we had a farewell party of a classmate. The party was going well until I was requested to dance. Already being in the mood, I agreed and danced on the floor, giving it an impression of an easily committed crime, deceiving and swift.
When I got off the dance floor and sat near on the stools kept, while everybody danced to the latest tunes, my most awaited moment finally came.
"You dance well, Umm... Rey, right?" she approached me and said with a sweet smile.
"Yes. Thanks a lot Kria."
"You seem to be quite well informed about girls!" she said with a laugh.
And that miraculous laugh, I'll even die to hear that again.
"Well, I have to. I am the dancing star, you know." I said in mock attitude.
We kept talking like this for quite a long time until it was the time to go home. I came to know that it wasn't attitude that she didn't talk to guys. It was her upbringing all together. And with this meet, our friendship kick started, with no obvious intentions to end.
As our friendship bloomed, I got to know a great deal about her. She was the daughter of a big diamond dealer, which surely meant a family rolling in money. But it was surprising that she wasn't one of those rich brats. It seemed like she had been disciplined right from the childhood. Dance was her passion, a thing common in us. And her dance was splendid but as scarce as a luxury; she didn't believe in dancing before an audience that consisted of a few people. Call it her attitude, but she was like that. Thank god, I was always an exception to this rule.
Time passed some more, and we got to know each other a lot more. We could even tell the names of our favorite singers in our sleep. And still be as frank about it to the world as anyone would be.
At that time, I didn't realize that the over-care and concern I show for her is a way more than a stupid crush. I only realized when we confessed.
I clearly remember that day. Half of our class had stayed back for the rehearsals of their respective events. I too, had stayed back, as I had a special performance with Kria and some other people. I was searching for her, as she was the only one who had not reported for the rehearsals. Well, that was only a faade. Even I knew that I was worried that she hadn't met me since dispersal.
After a rigorous search, I found her in the now-isolated library. She was sitting in the lap of a guy. I repeat, a guy. This was quite enough to get me enraged. I just stormed to the place they were sitting and pulled her out of his lap.
"Kria, get out of the library." I said, in a very angry mode.
"But..." she tried to counter.
"I said, GET THE HELL OUT OF THE LIBRARY!" I shouted at her.
She was visibly shocked. Tears had welled up in her eyes. After that incident I never ever talked to her that way. Never ever.
I closed my eyes in frustration. Why do all things always have to go against me? Sighing, I was about to go towards her when I went towards that guy who was very blindly cradling her.
"Just get one thing, you touch her even once and you'll get all your teeth knocked off, or maybe worse than that."
After giving a final warning to that guy, I left not able to fathom the situation that lies before my eyes.
I saw her sitting at the edge of the terrace, and went towards her. I silently sat down. No words were exchanged between us. We just sat quiet and saw the sun dive down between the buildings.
"I am sorry..." I said.
She didn't speak a word. She started fidgeting with her fingers and closed her eyes, only to let her tears trickle down.
"Hey! Please just..." I tried to console her.
She began sobbing. I just took her in a bear hug. I don't know what I did that moment. We never had any touches of skin like normal friends. Whenever we touched each other a little but, we used to wither away, like almost been experiencing an electric shock.
"I don't know...whether to cry... (Sob)... or be happy... that my plan worked... (Sob)... but you shouted... It just... (Sob)" she spoke between weeping.
But wait, what did she say? Her plan worked? Was all this...
"What plan?" I brought her out of my embrace and asked.
"Ummm, so finally it's the time to confess. Actually...I know it is sort of... I had a crush on you." She spoke between rounds of hesitation and blushes.
I completely didn't know what to say. I don't know what I was feeling; it was a different thing to experience all together. That few seconds I took to have my senses, were way much of a wait for her; but for me it was like a thirst being quenched after years, and that too when you had no absolute hope of it being quenched. It was an enthralling feeling, not to be described in words.
I looked at her face, and guessed that, perhaps, I had shock written all over my face. I just hugged her tight once again, giving her another shock.
As we were in the middle of the embrace, I whispered into her ear, "I had a crush on you too..."
She just came out of my arms to see that slight blush and an idiotic smile pasted over my face. We just smiled, and almost laughed at our confession, perhaps the strangest ever. Without any I love you or I love you too.
"By the way, who was that guy? He was in your plan', right?" I questioned.
"Yes, he was my cousin." She said with a chuckle.
Since then we have been the most lovable relationship one could ever see. We were so inseparable that she used to tag along in all the concerts that I had in the city or around. And many times, I used to secretly visit her at her house, although it was very difficult due to her conservative family, but still I used to meet her.
All was fine until that day.
With all these thoughts wandering in her head, I wafted off in a sound sleep.
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I was suddenly woken up by something I don't know. Rubbing my eyes, I went towards the fridge to get some water. I started feeling very uneasy. As if someone was calling me.
My eyes went towards the window, I was bewildered. I saw Kria.
I frantically ran towards the empty ground which was situated next to a cliff. The park had some swings, and she was swinging one of them. Her face going up and down, with a very sweet smile on it.
"I am hallucinating. I know that, I surely am hallucinating." I began chanting.
"If you know that you are, then what is the problem?" She said with a laugh.
"I just...I..."
"You never know, maybe I am real?"
"YOU CANNOT BE REAL, DAMMIT! YOU DIED IN A CAR ACCIDENT 2 MONTHS AGO!" I shouted. Finally I let it out. I confessed the truth to my inner self.
She had a sad smile hovering over her face. As she watched tears trickle through my eyes. I had been a lot. I frequently saw her hallucinations, at school, at concerts, at home at the rehearsal hall, just everywhere.
I stopped dancing because of her. I just used to stay in my room, and come out only for meals. This happened for a week or so. And due to my Dad's requests I started my normal life, without that smile on my face.
I just wanted her. I wanted to be free of this feeling of longing. It was just too much!
I broke down. I couldn't live like this without her. It's captivating my senses. I am feeling like I have suddenly been made blind. I don't know where my life is going; I don't know where I am going. It's a complete plethora of emotions, and my heart is just to worn out to make it further.
I looked towards her only to see that she disappeared. I could almost laugh. Didn't I know that already?
A sudden thought came in my mind. Now no more. What does she think of herself? She couldn't just leave like that? I thought stubbornly like a child, as I began wandering here and there.
I went on to the road and peered downside. Wow, it was pretty steep.
I could almost imagine the headlines, They would be perhaps something like-
"Teen Dancing Sensation Reyaansh Singhania found dead in the valleys of Dehradun."
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Okay! So another OS! I know I have a whole FF and SS pending, but my hands were itching to write yaar 😆
And abhi jab KR kami mehsoos ho rahi hogi sabko, Toh... *Full Shahrukh Khan ishtyle* Mai hu naa 😆
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