SWARON OS : LET ME GO.. PLEASE

Hey guys.. i am aditi some of you may know me... and just thought of writing an os on swaron something along the guildelnes... as it is precap has left all swaron fans sad... so thought to cheer you all.. do read and comment... and i am not sending out pm's to any one... sorry for that.. its just that am too lazy.. so enjoy... here you go... 😊

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Its been 3 months since sharon has returned from delhi. Well many things have changes.. rey and taani finally have been accepted by swayam… vicky has realised his mistake and is trying to woo neha back.. dance is back..and our very own dance team too realising they cant live without dance.. but thing that has not changed is swayam and sharon but their fights have increased that too in public… earlier only rey used to witness these fights now whole college witness.. but none of them knows why the fight was happening in first place… hell swayam and sharon themselves didn't know why they were arguing in the first place.. take today for example..

Everyone was in the canteen.. swayam ordered cold coffee for himself and hot coffee for sharon…

Nil : dude swayam ne kya sahi drink order kari hai na…

Vicky : yeah dude hot coffee for sharon so that she can boil her hot headed head and can shout more on swayam and cold coffee for swayam so he can freeze his already so cool head…

Rey: but lets see the drama

Sharon: (shouting on top of her lungs) why the hell have you ordered for me…

Swayam: because you told that you had a headache..

Sharon: so who are you to decide thaw what will lessen my headache…

Swyam: (loosed control.. and shouted) your assistant… and listen why are you even shouting??

Sharon: (standing up) listen you … have no right to shout at me…

Swayam : standing up.. yeah you are absolutely right .. all the shouting rights are solely reserved by' THE SHARON RAI PRAKASH'

Sharon: you .. how dare you…

Swayam..: same as you dare me…

Both were glaring at each other .. and just without a word sharon left the canteen and directly went home… and swayam kept looking at the door hoping she would turn back and atleast have the coffee…

Slowly everyone left swayam alone realising that he needed to be alone.. rey came up to him.. and gently patted his back and said.. talk to her dude.. maybe in a more civilised manner and not here please… do you two realise you both are in college.. and left from there..

Swayam's pov

What do you want sharon?? I am losing hope. I know for sure you are hiding something from me but you are pushing me away sharon.. I know I affect you and probably you love me too but your words are hurting sharon.. I want to believe those hurtful words.. that you don't want me or you hate me.. then why the hell your eyes tell me to be with you.. hell.. its been 3 months after your return from delhi and cat and mouse game is still on… I don't know what to do anymore… I have tried everything.. to please you.. be sweet to you showed you anger showed you my love I have been rude to you…. Your eyes soften but you don't… like today.. when i ordered coffee for you your eyes lightened but your mouth spitted venom.. I know why you ran away today because tears were threatening to spill out anytime.. its like you have created a hard shell around you… and this time you are determined not to let anyone enter… not me not anyone close to me… hell you have even distanced yourself from rey… I can see it whenever I talk to him his eyes are always hoping that I know something and I'll tell him whats bothering his best friend… and I only laugh at my destiny… feeling helpless… but no more sharon.. either your eyes will say you don't want me… or you will say whats keeping you away from me… l

Sharon's pov

Wow 3 months… and swayam still is on the same point.. its as if anything I say don't matter to him anymore . why the hell swayam loves me so much . sometimes I feel he knows the reason but that doubt clears when he asks me… hell its been 3 months and I haven't danced .. I feel like I am dead.. swayam why don't you understand… when I am feeling so incomplete how can I complete you.. I know how stupidly I have tried every trick so that you can go close to that aashi although it killed me to do so… why are you so loyal swayam.. I have lost a part of me.. DANCE the thing for which I have lived till now.. everything I love gooes away from me swayam… .. you will too… I know.. you will too…

With that she fell on her bed crying…and saying.. it hurts so much… I am so sorry swayam.. but you have to let go of me…

Swayam asked her why i have to let go of you??

Realising the voice behind her.. she turned to look at him with tears flowing through her eyes.. and was shocked to see swayam there.. she was about to shout at him but something stopped her.. the look in his eyes.. tears were threatening to spill from there.. it was as if she shouted one more time he'll break completely… so turning back at him.. just said.. please leave swayam.. please..

Swayam's heart completely went out for her.. he knew she is hiding something big from him… and now seeing her state… his heart completely broke.. but realising that she'll not speak herself… he knew what he had to do… he has to show her how much hurt he is… how her words are affecting him… he knows she was about to shout but the hurt look of his eyes has stopped her… if me opening to her is the only option then I'll let her see the scars on my heart.. but I hope you can bear them…

He went towards her.. cupping her face… making her look in his eyes.. asked slowly… why I have to go let go off you… seeing her not speaking… I know you are hiding something… I can see it in your eyes … I affect you sharon… when she was about to deny… I know sharon… I affect you.. so don't deny it.. but you affect me in the same way sharon… you think its easy to hear those hurtful words from you.. and then show nothing happened… no its not sharon… every single thing you say hurts me dammit… every single thing… and with that tears spilled out of his eyes… when sharon saw those tears in his eyes.. she felt her world is crumbling down and unconsciously cupped his face.. and wiped tears… and just hugged him trying to console him and herself too.. but when she heard him speak between please tell me sharon…. You complete me sharon…. You are the only one who can do so… please tell me… let me decide for once sharon… please… sharon hearing the plead in his voice… said I cant complete you swayam… when I myself is so incomplete… hearing that swayam cupped her face… and said.. you are so perfect sharon… you are perfect… hearing that she moved away from him… and turning away… started… " ever heard of don't judge the book by cover swayam.. everything that seems perfect is not so perfect.and for sure I am in no way even near to perfect…. you know swayam.. when I was 10 years old.. my mother passed away .. just like that… in the blink of moment my perfect family was shattered…. Although me and pa were depressed.. but we became each other's strength .. he became a perfect father… and in order to make him proud.. I became the perfect daughter… and this perfectness.. when became my ego and attitude… I didn't know.. similarly when I became the perfect diva.. THE SHARON RAI PRAKASH I don't know… for me my world seemed to my father and for the rest of the world I became too ignorant… I didn't want anyone to enter my perfect life to make it imperfect… but you came swayam… you came… broke my tough exterior… shattered my ego… and saw me through it.. and you brought back sharon out of THE SHARON RAI PRAKSH.. but seems someone out there cant see my happiness.. just when I started realising your importance in my life… came another blow… which left me incomplete…" swayam without realising came next to her.. and made her sit on bed… and said softly.. please let it out sharon.. please let go off the pain… you will feel better.. trust me… and made her look in his eyes… and softly held her hands and sat next to her half hugging giving her the strength… " when did you first saw me swayam??'" although shocked at her question.. but anyways replied… " in high school sharon… performing in a dance play .. you were wearing a white dress.. and dancing on a melody… it was love at first site for me .. seeing you flawlessly move.. I was spellbound seeing you perform…just like a princess.. a fairy… an angel.. " sharon just smiled painfully…and told him.. I also saw you that day… but I was so scared of your eyes… it was as if you'll read me.. if I'll keep looking in your eyes.. so I used to behave extra rudely with you…. Surprised at the revelation… asked unsurely .. did you?? And she just nodded… and when he was about to say something .. she just told him to listen to her… " you know swayam dance is a part of me… what I am today … whatever I wanted to be… every dream… of mine was somehow related to the dance… earlier dance kept close to my ma..my ma was one who taught me classical dance.. and was one of the way to make my father proud…then when you came… my dreams had you and me dancing… I don't know when it became a part of me… its as if sharon and dance are … swayam completed the sentence.. inseparable… and sharon just nodded.. before going silent… as if gathering the strength .. and swayam somehow didn't like the way the conversation was going… he just hoped that dance is not the reason… as he started to get flashbacks of the 3 months and she had not danced somehow or the other… sharon looked at his face… and sighed saying "you are right swayam… I cannot dance anymore swayam… I have asthama…" saying this tears rolled down her eyes.. and swayam just hugged her more tightly realising how painful must be for her to live without dance… and tears rolled down his cheek " swayam.. now when I am so incomplete.. how can I complete you.. please go away swayam… please…. Leave me alone… just let me be.. please… as it is the things I love are snatched away from me by god… I don't want you to suffer…" swayam didn't let her complete the sentence.. and kept the finger on her lips … he knew what dance meant to her… its her lifeline… he looked at sharon… who was crying like a child… … he didn't know what to do to stop her pain… he'll give away anything right now to make her stop crying… " it hurts swayam when everytime I look around to see everyone dancing… It kills me to feel so incomplete…. I want to dance swayam.. I want to dance with you… I want to feel complete… please do anything… anything.. i want to dance again…" hearing her agony… swayam just looked in her eyes… and scooped her in his arms… like a baby and let her wash all her agony to his heart…. His heart absorbing all the pain and mind thinking on how to make her believe she is perfect.. she is complete … dance or no dance… he will keep on loving her… even if she didn't love him back… thanking god… that atlast she let him enter… he would make her believe that no one is as beautiful and as perfect as her and he will be with her every moment… and she is never ever going to loose his love… even after his death… as for now her insecurities are too big to let it go in one moment…. He sighed and made her sleep in his embrace… letting his tears finally fall at the pain that his love has gone through…. He let out a chuckle admist of tears… as he heard her mumbling in sleep… " let me go… swayam..." oh how he wish he could… "but bloody hell hota hi nahi.." and bloody hell… how will I make you understand sharon that I cant.. and will not ever…" and he just embraced her further and went to sleep leaving all the other worries on time… as they say TIME IS THE BEST HEALER… but more that ever determined to be with sharon forever ..

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