Arsha OS: My Heart Is Craving For Your Love
"Its still 1.30", she said annoyingly.
She was too frustrated wid my behaviour, I might have asked her a billion times by now, if she slept I peeped into her hand too.She must have thought of me to b a stupid girl for irritating her dis much, but wat can I do, I was too busy n excited about d journey, I arranged for d flight just after my final performance so had not much tym.I forgot to take my watch n upon my bad fate even d mobile battery was dead.I enquired her many times n had no more guts to ask her again, I rested my head on d window n looked into d dark sky.I cud see nothing, it was completely dark, not even moon cud b seen.I tried switching on my cell again but it dint even react now unlike before.
I dint even tell him dat d battery was low, nor did I tell him abt my flight, having got d tym I talked abt all d things except d necessary things.
Poor fellow he must be trying to make d contact, how much he loved me.I myself doubt it sometimes if I really deserved it, cudnt really tell if he cud read my mind from a distance too or not but he wud cal me at d same instant in nearby time n checks me out-wat I was doing.I wud feel glad but never did I pour my heart completely out regarding wat I really felt for him, his need.
I looked around feeling d love right around me, it really changed my point of view, it really changed me too.I wud always think about plans,works n friends.But for now I started thinking for me n him only.At times, I really feel if I was selfish indeed d very selfish acts cud satisfy my heart into luxury.
I tried to look at d tym from d watch on d hand of d lady sitting beside me.After very few trials, I saw d tym was "1.45".Only 15 mins passed though I did a lot of self talking.My gaze automatically shifted to d couple sitting on d same column.The girl was sleeping n d boy was just watching her leaning on his seat, I remembered d nights in which he did d same, when I opened my eyes after a gap of sleep, I found him still staring at me, never did I understand his looks until I came to know he loved me too.He was loving me from quite a longer tym, he never did say dat to me until I found my feelings to b d same too.I blushed slightly renowing our days of innoncent love.
I broke my thoughts wen I saw d girl wake up, she opened her eyes n found him staring at her.She smiled tremendously, moved her hand forward, beat him on his cheek playfully n lied down on his shoulder.He kissed her hair, I felt rather bad to sneek at d couple while they were busy making love, I narrowed my gaze from dem, at a last bit heard him saying "I love you".Gosh those words, why did I had to hear dem.For all d ppl who r in love, dose words seemed to b magical n pure blissful happiness but for me it brought me a sudden angriness, my face turned red fuming in anger.
Those words really effected my life a lot.I never cud stay away from him for just a min, but I maintained myself n stayed for d whole 5 months but each n everyday I kept counting.I was rather childish at d matter too.I kept my calendar beside me, he gifted my photos calendar so it was really a special one, I wud wait until 12 of d nyt n wud cut off d date happily lyk a small kid.I followed upto d last nyt too.If he had said dose words in tym, I might not have taken dis decision to stay away from him.I wud hav been wid him, making some love together jst lyk d couple around me.
Those three magical words..I whispered going back to d history..
*****
It was d day for me to leave to NY.I recognized my love for him wid d help of Mukti.I sensed him to be really close to my heart when I left d3,lack of communication might bring distance between two persons but in my case, it really became totally opposite.I realized his value only after being lil away from him, I felt it rather easy wen I decided to quit, it was not really easy, I thought about him in each n every min I was free.I adored my friendship in dat way.He was busy wid his daily schedule n we cudnt meet up dat soon.Once in a two weeks, we wud very rarely meet, n dat tym too wud b finished just in a go by d ppl around us.I missed him a lot but never dared to tell him bcoz I felt if he wud take it in another way n it may cost our friendship.I was a totally destroyed n hurted wen he had no tym to meet me, I had so many friends n so many best buddies too, y was I feeling more for him.I cried out when d realization struck dat I started loving him wen I dint know exactly how it started.I cried my heart out in my room.Within two hours, I had to leave to NY!!!Maybe he dint love me in d way I loved him, I comforted myself saying dose words.If he wud hav loved, he shud hav been missing me lyk d way I do.He cud hav called me, he cud hav asked me out but no, he never did dat.
I took it to be one-sided love n adjusted myself wid d upcoming events in my life.I packed my whole bag alongwith d calendar he gifted me, n also d d3 team photo which we took it on d last Sunday.I caressed his face feeling d itching pain inside my heart.The door opened up n he walked in.I cud feel his perfume high in d air, how stupid I was..I cud identify d person without even seeing him but identified my feelings at d last stage.I was certainly sure he wud move on wid his lyf if I leave, he was such type of person, he never did give a chance for d lyf to make him sad.He was always an easy going person n wud never take his lyf complicated, I used to carry d same lyf until I fell in love wid him.It was a heartwrenching silent surrounded in d room, how I wished d third person to enter into d room, I was exactly scared if I wud utter out all of my feelings so suddenly infront of him, my eyes started moistening, if he sees me lyk dat he wud really object d things happening, I was luckily a friend of him, he does anything to make his friend happy."Friend", dis word echoed in d innerself of mine.It felt lyk god really listened to my words, Mukti came in.
"Shaks chalo..v hav to start now to reach d airport in tym"
"Ya Im cuming", I replied back incurtly.
There were just a big bag left for me to take, d others r outside in d hall.I clutched d bag n tried to lift it, only my name represented Shakti at dat tym, my strength dint.I felt his hand upon mine being brushed, I looked up into his eyes.
"I wil get it", he murmured.
I slowly took off my hand of his feeling as if it was d last touch.I walked out maintaining d calm face with d turmoil running in.The whole gang was ryt deir, my mom, sisters n everyone except him.I looked back, he was coming wid my luggage.Heart was draining lyk hell, was it wat I wanted??.The last question I asked to myself.Tears ran through my eyes on to d hollow cheeks.Noticing me d whole gang surrounded me, Mukti came front n pulled me into a tighter hug.I cried my heart out resisting d unbearable moments.
"Shaks kuch hua kya??", mukti asked caringly.
I nodded my head signifying a no.Mukti n sneha started crying along wid me.Sneha came near me, I cud feel her tears on my shoulders.I felt bad to make her cry too, but I was scared to show my face to dem, I was scared to give dem d answers, I was more scared to see his face wat if he wud read my feelings.No!!I dnt want him to do dat.I nuzzled more closer into her neck n felt d heavenly care.
"Shakti beta..", my mom called me from a distance.
I straightened myself , to my grace he wasn't deir anywhere around n nor were d boys, they might hav gone to keep d luggage I supposed.I told sneha n d girls not to cry since mom was coming.They were so reliable, they managed their tears n wore a fake smile along with me.My mom came wid up wid god's graceful things n handed dem to me.She kissed me on d forehead n wished me a happy journey.
I started walking out bearing dat heavy heart.There were 4 cars n we were 14 members(d3 gang-12 members, me n mukti).I looked back at my mom, her love for me was clearly in her eyes.I went back to her n crushed her into a hug.
"I love you mom", I mumbled softly.
"Love you too beta", she said pleasingly.
I pulled off d hug, my heart was really feeling better dis tym.I was happy for an unknown reason, I walked upto d cars.Everyone were settled in except me n Kunwar.He opened d door for me, I sat in widout a word.He sat in d driver seat.I looked at him wondering if we were d two going in d car.
"Ya, we r d two left, everyone got adjusted in d remaining", he spoke out as if I asked him.
The drive went silently, nor did I speak or he.We landed at d airport, I hopped out n so did he.It was a plain road which was backside of d airport.He came upto me.I was expecting him to show d way where d others was.
"Wait for me here..I'll come in 5 mins", he told n went off.
I stood deir leaning onto d car thinking of my miserable lyf.Those worried lines formed back on my forehead.Mayb I didn't even deserve d last few mins also, I thought.He came infront of me panting.I stood erectly startled to see him in such a condition.
"Kunwar..", I finally spoke out placing my right hand on his cheek.
He caught my hand wid his left hand n went down on his knees,he took out a bunch of red roses from behind.
"Shakti Mohan Sharma will you love me??"
She was celebrating d happiness but just few mins before she faced d turmoil.She took off her hand from his n took d flowers in it.She kept d flowers on d front of d car.With her free hands, she clutched his collar n pulled him up.She slapped him, he placed his hand on her cheek more shocked wid d reaction.It was not a tight one nor an easy one.She let her frustration out.She covered him wid her arms n hugged him pouring down d tears.
"U r always too late Kunwar..pehle nahi batha sakte"
"Shaks do u love me??"
"I love u a lot", she said pulling off d hug.
The whole gang surrounded dem alongwith Mukti started hooting dem.
"Im so happy for u shaks", mukti told giving her a slight hug.
"Tumhe patha tha ki Kunwar mujhe.."
"Come on Shakti..sab ko patha hain dat Amar loves you", Palki came out from behind d gang.He told us few weeks back.
"Toh ab bathao..wil u come back to d3??"
"I cant promise u..but I will surely try to"
They started hooting again.Shakti got surrounded by d girls n Amar by d boys.
"Muks u kno it na n u never told me..dnt talk to me!!", I spoke out pouting.
"Sorry", she said holding her ears.
"Its ok".
"Dekho Gals Amar kaise Shakti ko dekh raha hain..not all at once..one by one", Alisha said teasingly.
"Wow shaks..", Sneha said pushing her sidely.
I dint look up until d gals became busy, now I managed to look at him.He placed his hand on his cheek n rubbed it.My attention distracted wen girls were glaring me firmly.
"Wat??Y r u looking at me lyk dat??",I enquired.
"Kuch khaas nahi..", Mukti spoke back.
"Muks hum wahaan jaana hain na..", Sneha said.
"Kahaan??", I interrupted.
"Haan..v hav to.Shaks wait her we'll come now..", Mukti.
"Guys but kahaan??", I asked.
"Wait for us we'll come", they said leaving me, I looked around Kunwar too was busy wid d boys.I shifted my gaze to d floor, it was more lyk a dream.I felt him holding my wrist n he pulled me behind d car.He took my hand into his n placed it on his cheek were I slapped once.I removed it n kissed him on d cheek n again took him into a hug.I felt d happiness n comfort when he secured me in his arms.
"Kunwar mujhe abhi jaana hain.."
It felt more lyk a question dan a sentence.
"I want u to fulfill ur dreams shaks..I want my love to be an international dancer."
"Par tum??"
"I will be waiting for u.."
I kissed him on d other cheek too falling off in his arms which seemed to be like a heaven for me.He departed me wid a smile.There were no more tears but a new found happiness in our lives desperately waiting to be in each other's arms soon.
*****
"Only 5 mins is left", the lady beside me told wid a gentle smile on her face.
I too felt gud when she smiled at me.Unknowingly d 5 mins too passed very soon.I got out of d flight feeling d fragrance n d mother land of mine with its beautiful accent.It was midnight n very few people very there.My cell was switched off n there were no cabs too.I sat up on d bags thinking of wat to do next.The lady came to me.
"Wat happened dear??", she asked softly.
"Aunty mera cel switched off hain aur yahaan cabs bhi nahi hain", I said disappointedly.
"yelo..call fast n give me", she handed me her cell.
I took it happily n called him.He lifted it after it rang two-three times.
"Hello..", he said in a sleepy voice.
"Hello Kunwar.."
"Shaks cal kyun disconnect kiya..U kno how many times I tried'..", he spoke on continuously.
"Kunwar now listen to me", I said interrupting him.
"Ok bolo.."
"Pick me up..Im in airport", I said excitedly.
"Shaks tum toh''.."
"I wil b waiting..come fast".
She disconnected d cal n gave it back to d lady.She sat back on d luggage remembering d sweet memories she had in d spot.He came to d airport, she felt him, she jumped up n crushed him into a hug as soon as he got down off his car yelling surprise!!!People around looked at dem sheepishly.He broke d hug after a while unable to bear dose stupid looks.He took her luggage n kept it on d backseat, while she sat front beside him nudging her head into his neck .He drived her to his house.
She got down d car n went in while he came wid her luggage.She was standing their quite relaxing her legs after hours of sitting.He hugged her from behind n started kissing her along d neck.She held his hands which were surrounding her n rests her head back on his shoulders.He kisses her cheeks n den d jawline.She turned around n pushed him to d wall.She placed her hands on his either side of him.
"So Kunwar Amar aka Reyaansh Singhania..tum yehi karthi hona mere saath.."
"Chahe toh ye bhi kaarti hun..", he said pressing his lips against her soft, tender lips.He kissed her at d earnest tasting her lipgloss,dey broke off panting.He lifts her into his arms n places her on d bed n comes upon her.She helds his shirt firmly n pulls him to her.He cups her face wid his left hand n plants kisses on d neck sucking it.She arches her neck more in pleasure welcoming him.He comes more down n lifts her tee n starts planting wet kisses on her bare waist.
"Kunwar.."
"Hmm.."
She holds his shirt tightly n pushes him onto d bed.She lies down on him kissing his cheek.Her fingers were swaying on his face, she pulled his cheeks n touches his lips.He pulls her more closer n presses his lips against hers tasting dem eagerly, he makes his way across dem n tongue explores it more.She breaks off d kiss n sleeps down on d bed beside him.They both share a glare wid a smile.He pretends to hold a mike n moves his towards her.
"Kya Shakti Mohan Sharma..the renowned international dancer ka future plans mein jaan sakta hun"
"Well basically I decided coming back to d3 then after 5 to 6 months..d3 wil end n then planning kuch nahi kiya.."
He moved more closer to her.
"But I've decided..d3 ke baad shaadi n shaadi ke baad'.N Shaks shaadi ke baad.."
"Sharam nahi aati Kunwar tujhe.."
"No!!", he said wid a blurting smile.
*******
Hindi TV Shows
Kyunki Saas Bhi Kabhi Bahu Thi 2
