Congrats, on FC #32, Everyone!!!
Ab kya kahoun? As always I will start off saying I'm overwhelmed (when am I not?)...and as always, this time too, I will write a katha...
Daisy, I know we said no tears this time...I myself said it...but, after reading those messages from the fans on page 1...what can I say? Am in tears...
Please don't get mad...khushi ke aansoon hai - am just too overwhelmed to see the love and support for HC...
And I am surprised to see you actually used those lines...I was merely suggesting, and didn't think you would...
Where do I even begin? The past three FCs have indeed been trying. We have been through such an emotional roller coaster for the past two weeks. Each and every single one of us broke down at various times, and lost our faith in goodness...
It was heartbreaking to see. Painful, to see all of you in such shambles...
We were all hurting, we all felt lost, we all felt let down and disappointed.
But the incredible thing was that through our respective tears, each and every one of us stood by and supported each other. The togetherness of the FCs for the past two weeks has left me in awe. I feel like we've all just survived a hurricane. Truly, it was emotionally taxing and tough to deal with, but we stood by each other, clung to each other (like fevicol, as Siddy would say) for support. The support worked wonders. It was incredible to see that every time one of us was down, the rest of us, inspite of our own tears, would smile in an attempt to make the other smile.
Honestly, I don't know where I would have been without all of you.
Daisy, you were probably the most shattered of us all, knowing HC personally, I can't imagine how this must have hurt you....but despite that, you were our strong point. Despite your own pain, you held us together and supported us through it all. I still remember after the Lalwani article, after our immediate initial anger, you automatically were using smiley emoticons again. I couldn't help but wonder how you could just take it in your stride...little did I know then, that you were simply trying to make us smile. When you finally shattered yesterday, it shattered me...I could sense the hurt in your heart for HC and knew that it was far graver than mine, because then, it was about your friend...I am thankful that you got to speak to HC...nothing else could have pulled you out of your state yesterday...Thank God he was there for you then...I know the rest of us would have been completely powerless to help you. Words cannot express my gratitude to you, Daisy...for being the incredible person that you are...for all that you do for us. Just know that you are the heart and soul of this FC and we all love you very much.
Vandu, you deserve a special mention here. Your love and support for Daisy and thereby, for us FCers, was astounding. I don't even have words. The way you have stood by Daisy and HC through this...the way you have supported all of us, and tried to lift our spirits...Its incredible. Your messages left most of us in tears...you are a true example of what it means to be a friend. I was floored by your support. You made us see that there is a light at the end of the tunnel. You reminded us that HC is a fighter...that he's strong and can't be kept down for long. You revived our faith when we needed it the most. A mere "thank you" seems inept...but know that we appreciate you, and are very thankful to have you as part of this family.
Rakshu, where would I have been without you? You sat with me for hours the day after Lalwani's article came out, and you made me realize that HC is strong enough to pull through this. You really were my savior that day. And how can I forget how you tried to protect me from the news all together because you knew I had exams. You knew that if I found out before my exam, it would indeed effect me. You concern then, was overwhelming. I can't thank you enough.
Yasmin, what can I say? You're like a mother-figure to me. The smallest thing happens and I run to you. Your constant reassurance was like a daily vitamin. I know mujhe kehna nahi chahiye, but thank you, for always being there, through it all...for always listening to complain about everything under the sun. Thank you for your guidance.
Nans, you hid your pain and tears and made us laugh. You remained positive through it all and held on to your hope til the end...infact, you're still not giving up. I can't tell you how much this means to me. I'm sorry I wasn't able to help you laugh when you finally broke, they way you had helped me...now I'm thinking I should have used one of your emoticons for you...You're something else, Nans...your unwavering optimism - the positivity pill, as we call it, is so very important to our wellbeing. Thank you, for always being strong for us.
Siddy, you are another in the group of optimism...you can make me smile no matter what...
You really did help pull me out of my sorrow on numerous occasions these past few days...and when you finally hit rock bottom, what did I do? I lectured you. I'm sorry dear. I was only trying to help, but perhaps that wasn't the best way to go about doing it.
Misty, you're under the weather right now, but despite that, you came here to check on your friends. I was touched. And when it came time to stand up for something...someone, we all believed in, you stepped up to the plate and supported us through it. Thank you.
Priya, you and your guns...I always smile when I see you pull out the guns because they symbolize the support within you - the support you have for HC, and all of us. Thank you for always being ready to fight the monsters and fears we all face.
Atop, bacha, I'm always speechless when I read your messages...you are so young, yet write with the maturity of an adult. Not to mention you are humble beyond words. Just love you for your support. Despite not being able to be here much, you always come and leave the best messages that have a lasting impact on us all. Thank you for your words...
Zainu, you were there too, with Raksha last Monday when the article that started the domino affect hit...you listened to me complain and watched me kick myself for being angry. What moved me the most is that when I wrote that letter to Lalwani, you actually came out and told me that yes, it did sound a bit too harsh. Thank you for your honesty then. I can't tell you how much it means to me. I don't know what had come over me...HC has indeed turned me into a defensive confrontational monster, and I hate feeling this kind of anger. I am never this angry, but I dunno what happened this time. I'm sorry if i hurt you in any way. I think through all of this, you have been the only one thats remained just as sweet as ever. Despite your pain and hurt, never once did you convey any type of spite towards anyone. You truly are as pure and pious as HC...sometimes its hard to believe that you are for real.
Sarah, your optimism when it came to Prem was endearing...I know you took a blow during all of this, but then you bounced back with optimism. I hope that you were not just hiding your emotions to save us from more pain...I know you have a tendency to do that. You know that I respect you for your strength and courage. I hope one day I can learn by your example.
Sara, despite being busy, you were here to show your support. Can't thank you enough. We miss you...come back soon.
Vaishu, ms. 30 minute daily appearance, inspite of everything I think you were the one that were really best able to keep it together. Your messages were always practical and sensible. Not to mention when you were around, we were able to forget the hurt for a bit. Thanks for everything.
Amy, our newest member...you've come and taken the FC by storm. Thank you for your optimism and for trying to make us stay positive.
Neha, Bhavna, Alina, Choti Priya: It was crazy to watch you guys go through ups and downs the way you did....one minute someone would say something and you'd be down, and the next you'd make yourselves laugh again. Your concern was endearing...and the strength with which you handled yourselves the past two weeks was incredible.
To the Original Four: Over the past two weeks, we got to see what you guys went through this time last year. I am amazed at your strength and courage. I can't begin to fathom what you went through then, though I got a glimpse of it in these days. If we felt the way we did through this, I can imagine what you went through was probably much worse. This time, we had so many shoulders to lean on, but last year, it was not even a handful of you. As I've said before, it is not easy to be a small force battling the world, but you guys did just that. HC was lucky to have you then...you guys single handedly kept him from falling...I'm overwhelmed at the thought. I can only imagine what that must have meant for him then. I can't express my gratitude...
Yoj, Swati, I know you guys couldn't be here during these trying times, but still, I know your thoughts and prayers were with HC and this FC. Thank you for your silent support. We miss you, and hope to see you both back here soon.
Harshad,
You have been through a lot so very early in your career. You've faced the worst of the worst, and endured the hardest of times. Through it all, you've remained strong, and you've fought back with quiet dignity.
I know that you're going through a tough phase right now. You want to chase, full speed after your dreams, but feel like the doors are closing in your face. You're asking yourself "why me" - every time.
Times like this can make us feel inadequate, they can make us question our own ability and aptitude. Somewhere you know that you can achieve great things if you're just given a chance, but then the dejection makes you doubt yourself.
At times like these, the only way to get through it is to hold on to your faith in yourself, and your faith in the Almighty. I know that you have incredible faith in God, but sometimes, when things like this happen, we begin to question Him as well, its natural to do so at times. Just remember though, that you will face obstacles only because He wants to challenge you, to make you stronger. He will make you face the bad so that you can appreciate the good. And though it may seem as if you're walking through a dark tunnel by yourself, it is He who is holding the torch at the other end, lighting your way.
The road ahead will be tough, but when you finally reach your destination, you will be able to look back and be proud of all that you've overcome...Just as we are proud of you.
Remember that each ending is a new beginning, and where one door closes, another one always opens.
Also, remember that you are not in this alone. We are with you, every step of the way.
This is about YOU, Harshad...more-so than it is about Prem. Undoubtedly, we will all miss Prem, and we were hurt to hear the news of his demise. We were more hurt however, when we began to contemplate the state that you would be in after knowing that you will not be assaying this beautiful character anymore. We know how much Prem means to you - perhaps only slightly more than he means to us. We will all carry Prem with us in our hearts forever. But after Prem, we know that you still have much to achieve, a long road to travel, greater heights to conquer. Undoubtedly you will do all this and much more.
You have always risen to newer heights every time you were knocked down. With each blow, your strength has been increased twofold. With each harsh comment towards you, you've only climbed higher with your integrity and virtue doubled. With every obstacle, you've always been more determined to achieve the highest altitudes.
We have faith in you. We know that you will rise far above this. They say that for each action there is an equal and opposite reaction. This small trial will only help you bounce back stronger.
Always remain confident in yourself. You have advised us not to be disheartened, but we can only refrain from it if we know that you yourself are not disheartened. Stay strong, fight back in the only way you know how - through your work. When you're ready to fight, we'll be right there behind you. For now, take things one step at a time. You'll find your way soon, and realize then, that all of this only happened so that you could find your way to a better tomorrow.
Looking forward to you next avatar. Can't wait to see you take the world by storm again.
Until then, Please, take care of yourself, and smile, knowing that we are always with you, to love, support, and pray for you, every step of the way.
Again, can't thank you enough for your message today...It was more than enough to pull us out of our slum. I am still in awe that you were able to push your own pain aside and help us through our pain. Yasmin described you ever so aptly today: "Farishta"....you are truly our farishta...
God Bless You, Today and Always...
Love,
~Payal~
Again, my beoloved family, thank you for all the love and support you have showered on HC during these trying times. Thank you, for being my strength and support. Now no more tears, no more negativity. As HC said, we have to be strong for him now.
Keep Rocking!
Love,
~Payal~
Edited by IndianPari - 17 years ago
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