Originally posted by: Mages
never got dad's love properly thats my only regret in my life and that love i always got in my grandad(mom's dad)
when i see my friends and fellow students with their father those days my heart always cry why i am deprived with dadda's love,he loves me but i am always scared of him due to his unpredictable mind and i was so young i don't know what happens to him only mom can handle him
this one thing pricking my heart...
you guys might think i am heartless but than i am glad that my dad is no more becos i saw him suffering with that disease with no cure for it,as his daughter it was painful for me to watch him being violent sometimes he is so silent and unpredictable,he just go out of the house w/o informing he doesn't even know where he goes till my neighbours spots him and call mom,he gets angry at once and than he cries next second i can never forget that day in my entire life when i went to dad and he took a knife and threaten me if not for mom n grandpa i was dead i can never forget this incident i was in trauma mom than call the mental illness hospital to take him as he became violent than he cry not to bring him as he loves me n mom alot and he doesn't know what he did thats shocking...he cries to mom he loves her i can never forget that day i was just 13 years old
when he passed away on my 16 years old i told my grandpa its good that he is gone,he is in better place now rather than living in this hell of a life where his life is not in control thats a torture for him and mostly for mom she took care of him never left him...she was in depression the 2nd time after loosing dad...1st time when she lost her 2 days son but than she came out for me she knows she has a daughter and the symbol of their love to take care of
people make fun of a mental illness but one can never understand what the person who is suffering going through and what the family members suffers
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