Bollywood reality check: Mr Filmstar and
Mrs Junkie
Published: Sunday, May 22, 2011, 2:55 IST
By Soumyadipta Banerjee | Place: Mumbai | Agency:
DNA
It's well-known in filmy circles that the star wife of a Bollywood
hunk (he loves showing off his six packs) fell into severe
depression on learning that her husband was sleeping with an
actress. She — let's call her Mrs N — turned to drugs, and
started eating less and less. Despite being slim, she lost 20 kg
and now looks reed-thin.
Then there is the wife of a rotund star comedian. She copes
with the reality of a husband who doesn't care about her, and is
a schizophrenic to boot, by regularly popping barbiturates.
Similar is the tale of a yesteryear star who had risen to filmy
glory from a Mumbai chawl. His beautiful wife got hooked to
drugs after she began dating a male model who was a known
drug user.
From being a regular on the social circuit, she has withdrawn
into a shell since her addiction.
Women of substances
Cases like this are legion, but they rarely come out in the open.
Just occasionally there are incidents that indicate what's going
on.
A couple of months back, for instance, the wife of a Bollywood
superstar was caught at Berlin airport with marijuana in her
handbag. She was subsequently let off because the quantity was
less — only enough for personal consumption.
Pressure was brought to bear so that neither the police nor the
airport officials dared to reveal her name. And the incident
therefore never made it to 'news', being consigned to a mention
in the gossip columns and tweets.
But industry insiders admit that substance abuse is quite
common among Bollywood spouses. Call it the stress of living in
the superstar's shadow. Apparently, beyond the glaring limelight
of a movie star, there lies a zone of intense darkness.
More often than not, this is the zone the star wife inhabits. Of
course, from time to time, she also gets to bask in the star's
reflected glory. But it is a truism in the Hindi film industry that
being a star wife comes at a price.
Dealing with the fact that your identity will be blanked out by
your spouse's, that you'll forever be referred to as Mrs
Bollywood Superstar, takes its toll, and sometimes, the person
snaps, and seeks refuge in the embroidered reality of a drug-
induced high.
Actor Om Puri's wife Nandita Puri sets things in perspective,
stating bluntly that spouses of many superstars take to drugs
and have extra-marital affairs when they can't cope with the fact
that they no longer seem to have an identity of their own.
"You must understand that theirs is a lonely world. It's like living
in a fish bowl, and being unable to get used to it. At first, you
enjoy all the attention you get from your spouse's cronies. Soon,
you begin to lose your sense of who you are, who you used to
be. And from there, it's a downward spiral — leading to
depression, drugs and all the rest."
The experience of star wife, Mrs N, buttresses Puri's viewpoint.
"When I am invited to events and parties, it is on account of me
being N's wife. People talk as if I am responsible for his hits and
misses and his good and bad performances on screen. Even
when I visit a friend's pyjama party, the whole evening is spent
discussing him. There are times when I ask myself 'God! When
did my life become only about him? What about me?' The very
fact that I don't enjoy this anymore is a sign that I need to break
off and go somewhere and be my own self," she says candidly.
"Things were worse when he was having an affair. People began
to treat me as if I had lost my husband. My children were
coming and asking me, 'What's wrong with daddy', my brother
was calling to ask me if it was really true and if I am moving out,
and of course, there's this big, bad friend-circle of mine who
would wonder insinuatingly if he had lost interest in me
because I don't have sex the way he likes to or as often as he
wants to."
'Coke only once in a while'
Mrs N, who herself comes from a leading film family, admits
that she gets stoned just to escape the unpleasant reality of her
marital life.
"I get together with my group of friends, and we smoke a lot of
pot. We giggle and laugh when we are high, play games.
Sometimes they bring tablets, and some snort cocaine. I do
coke only once in a while. It transports you to a time and place
where you are not bothered what's happening in the here and
now, and more importantly, you are not bothered what your
husband is doing. It's a blissful escape…" she trails off.
Model and actress Monikangana Dutta, who is part of the social
circle that also includes perpetually coked up star spouses,
believes that the stress of being a star spouse hits those women
the hardest who just sit at home doing nothing.
"Not working, only looking good all the time, and ending up just
socialising every day takes a toll on your sanity. You get a
feeling that there's nothing concrete in your life. On top of that,
the husband is famous, and gets plenty of attention from
attractive female fans and aspiring starlets — all that makes
some women even more insecure, and they end up destroying
themselves."
In a way, being married to a star means you are married to
someone super-successful, and this is a constant reminder to
star wives of how unsuccessful they themselves are, avers
clinical psychologist Seema Hingorrany, who has quite a few
clients from Bollywood film families. "The best way to cope is to
develop your own identity. And in the case of a drug addiction,
they need to undergo a rehab programme followed by
counselling."
Puri sums up the predicament of star spouses in a nutshell.
"Most of them are just plain tired of pampering their husband's
egos all the time. They are tired of walking in their shadows,
and tired of forgiving every time their husbands cheat. There
are times when you simply cannot digest the fact that your
whole life centers around one person, a person who doesn't
even care about you, and there is no way out. The tragedy is
that even if you leave your star husband, you will spend the rest
of your life being known as that person's ex."
Source - http://www.dnaindia.com/lifestyle/report_bollywood-reality-check-mr-filmstar-and-mrs-junkie_1546082
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