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Maya & Saanjh :
'Arjun sirf mera hai'.
Forum's reaction :
Saanjh has spoken!
Thy mercy has been bestowed upon us!
Mubarak ho! Obsession hui hai!
tunak tunak tun tara tara!
Meanwhile, me.
Observed what? The following.
I ain't a facial expressions or body language expert. However, I take a keen interest in studying faces and it's expressions, the body language and the vibes. 😳 Although, my observation or theories could always be incorrect. Moving onto, the epic moment of the episode.
Confusion and scepticism. Doubt and denial. Repudiation and renunciation. False assurance and affirmation.
Command and ultimatum. Pledge and declaration. Behest and injunction. False assurance and affirmation, again.
Both Saanjh and Maya made the exact same statement, 'Arjun sirf mera hai'. How do you even differentiate which one out of the two is obsessed or more obsessed? I chuckled on watching this particular scene not because I found Saanjh contradictory to herself but because I could image the forum's state in my head. 🤣 To put it in simpler terms, Saanjh showed utter confusion and vulnerability. She wasn't telling the deity that Arjun is hers and hers alone. She was essentially trying to assure herself that he is and in retrospect, without actually putting it across as a question, she pretty much asked God if he really is?
Maya until the said statement was a happy, happy thankful kid who got she had been asking for and moments later switched to the Maya we know better, the one we know who wouldn't stop at nothing to get Arjun to herself. The way she said it, it's more of, 'Arjun is mine and mine alone and he better be'. There's a contrast between the two scenes but it's not blatantly there for us to see. I have said it before and I say it again, both these women are flawed. They both are trying to falsely assure themselves that someone is theirs when in reality he's not and in future, may or may not be theirs. Let's not expect tulsi maate's or gopi vahu's, please. If one of the principal character happens to be dark, the other one doesn't necessarily have to be white.
At this point me, let me bring in some color theory and color schemes charts to explain this further. 😆 If Saanjh initially was a pantone cool gray 2, she's probably now a cool gray 10. If Maya's a cool gray 45, Arjun's love might have made her to come down to cool gray 40. In this journey of beyhadh emotions, you're going to see all characters, particularly Maya and Saanjh travel all over the 50 shades of Grey, (The chart, not the movie/book. 😛 )
The only thing that annoyed me was I didn't exactly expect Saanjh to leave her sense of rationality behind when she shoved the newspaper in Arjun's face. I assumed she was more upset because of what's in the newspaper than how the event in the newspapers came into being. 😳 I mentally kicked her and I hope she felt the kick. Such a 'tu mera naam dubayegi, Saanjh' moment. However, I don't really blame her much there. Like FleetingWishes. dearest put it,
"The stark difference is that Saanjh chose to show Arjun. There was no hidden anger or act on her part. She let him know exactly how she was feeling at that moment whereas had it been Maya she would've pretended that she's completely fine with Arjun and Maya and done something to sabotage them at their back. Saanjh has always felt comfort that Arjun is hers. Because he always has been. In every capacity. She's been the only important person in his life. They didn't even have to name it because Saanjh has grown up hearing she's his only person all her life. Like even telling Maya infront of her how nobody will take her place. So, for the first time Saanjh is feeling panic's full whiplash. It's the first time and right after realising how helpless she was in being able to help Ayan, she's panicking and lashing out to top it Arjun's breaking all their little world's rules and doing things she never thought he could. Which is slowly breaking all that absolute confidence she had in them. She fears he's warming upto Maya and her proposal but she also fears Maya. After everything between Saanjh and Maya she's not going to feel good and hearty towards her and you feel the walls closing around her and how she's crumbling and coming apart at the seams. Her little world is crumbling. She's lashing out like any person would do. Trying to grasp at straws. I hope that her character falls so she can rise. I think Maya will rise and fall whereas Saanjh will fall and rise. At the end of the day the impact is greater when you make the mistake repent and change than just change."
Also, I think the forum gets confused between what's literal and what's not. Most of the times, things/words/actions that are to be taken literally are taken figuratively and stuff that is supposed to be taken figuratively is taken literally. Not interchangeable, you see. For example, when Maya said 'her love and her feelings are her problem', the forum was convinced she meant it straight from her heart. No sorry, she didn't. Do you really think Maya, I mean, Maya would swear by what she said? Nah. That was her speaking figuratively but it's taken in a literal sense.
Another instance where Saanjh said, 'toh marr jane diya hota' is taken literally. Lets assume, I had a freaky experience and have a bad equation with somebody. That somebody practically poses a threat to my love and in a moment when I happen to be completely out of mind, the person I love comes to me and shows concern over that somebody I like the least, I'd too give a 'meri bala se' attitude. 😳 Here, Saanjh too spoke in a non-literal sense but majority of the forum went all guns blazing on her.
Now that the matter of grave importance is covered, 😆 I'll move on to another theory that's been making rounds in my head. Maya seems entirely freaked out that Ashwin will render loveless or alone once more. Ashwin seems pretty adamant on revealing Maya's past to Arjun and the way he says it, it's as if he had little to no role to play in that secret of Maya's. I don't think Ashwin's an idiot who'd go blabbering to Arjun about how he subjected her daughter to torture and abuse. I cannot help but doubt that Maya may have loved someone else before. A previous relationship, an old flame, a love gone drastically wrong. There's more to her than meets the eye. More than the abusive past, more than Maya always having been the victim, more than just Ashwin as the ultimate villain.
The baby-like, innocent, full of happiness and bliss, unscathed and pure Maya is treat to watch. My heart goes out to her when she's her fearful and vulnerable self. Also, Jennifer Winget. ❤️ *heart eyes*
PS Rida, my beyhadh partner in crime, this one's dedicated to you again. 🤗