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Originally posted by: indiantvlove
Hey, thanks for the detailed reply. It's great to read the insight of a writer, makes the story and background more enjoyable.This Aditya is so harsh, sometimes it's hard to imagine he does love her in his twisted way. Maybe it's all lust and rage in his part, maybe the love is dead. There was a line when he made Zoya stay in company - better to be seen as s**t than being jobless. Does he really not care what people think of her? In the update when he confronted her about being missing for 8 years he said he's done running after her, she needs to win him back. Why he thinks she's even trying to win him back? Maybe just like him she's also into the lust and desire thing. Did he ever think maybe she's over him, or the sex makes him think she cares about him? It's like he wants her to stay to torture her. Is he over the blaming and anger, and if not then when he will be?Wasn't expecting a sudden flood of emotional outburst from him to be honest. Maybe a bit tender. Or maybe it's just that show Adi even in his lowest point is so caring and has a bit humanity- like when he resented Zoya he did save her life during riots and told her he will stay with her. This Adi doesn't seem to have. That Ramona update was so twisted- I kept hoping maybe there will be a moment he will pause and think but he was so cold . In Aditya's word, Zoya really did a number on himYou are doing amazing. You made the readers think, which is probably what a writer wants, to make the readers think. And I apologise, didn't read the three shot you are talking about. Can you post a link?
I have been in a relationship for four years which included two years of long distance. There is one thing I have learned from my personal experience - you love the person you can't live without not the one you want to live with. There is a subtle difference. There were times I used to be so pissed off at my boyfriend that I wanted to murder him, chop him into a million pieces and feed them to the crows. We almost broke up THRICE. But, even when we used to pull apart we couldn't live without each other. I wanted to fight with him but also be with him. Like, I couldn't imagine fighting with anyone else. He was the only one I invested all my emotions into. I remember once he was super mad at me and we had a fight one evening but then I called him for an assignment at 3 in the night (Yes, I disturbed his beauty sleep), he picked up the phone and helped me. He submitted the assignment on my behalf as my fantastic internet connection was not working. After he submitted the assignment, he yelled at me for 15 minutes and kept the phone. It all worked out because we are getting engaged in 6 months.
What I mean to say is that relationships are not all lovey dovey all the time. Love is not tender all the time. It includes rage. It includes desire. It includes nasty stuff. Shit happens. You lash out. You say things you don't mean to. But, even after that if you can't imagine your life without that person then my dear friend you are hopelessly in love. I hope I make sense and it's not all gibberish. 😆
Regarding the Aditya in Bepannah and the one in Toxic, they are two completely different characters. Bepannah Aditya suffered only one personal betrayal. But, Aditya in Toxic handled way more shitstorm in life. Bepannah Aditya never ventured into the muddy waters of defense criminal cases (which I tell you are brutal), he never had the burden of being the heir of his father's company, he wasn't left guessing for eight years that why the heck did the love of his life - who was pregnant with his child - dump him and disappear from the face of earth.
Regarding why he feels that Zoya will chase after him - he doesn't. He says that - 'If you want me in your life, put me there. I won't fight for a spot ' . As I have mentioned time and again Aditya Hooda is an expert at reading body language which is a necessary tool to climb the corporate ladder. He suspects that Zoya is afraid of something so that's why he just PRETENDS to give her some space. He basically doesn't want to scare the living hell out of her so he temporarily backs off. For two weeks. In that time he calls in a favour from Pramod Mehta.
Aditya Hooda may pretend to OWN Zoya but he knows that she is not his. That's the reason he was insanely jealous of Arjun. Because he knew Arjun had the potential to rip away Zoya from his life.
I have copy pasted some parts from the previous Chapters to reinforce my points.
From Chapter 15 :
She sat stiffly - not exactly angry looking but anxious - like a cornered animal waiting to bolt. ( He knew that she was uncomfortable and he he pressed more then .. boom, she might explode and go very far away from his grasp so he pretends to give her space and doesn't interact with her for two weeks)
My skin rippled with chemistry, need and heavy frustration that I'd been with this woman. That she'd let me into her body and her heart, and now, I had no claim over her. She wasn't mine standing in this room, in my arms. She was free to be looked at, flirted with, and seduced.
I buried the true me beneath a man so cold and perfect - even I believed him - most of the time.
From Chapter 16 :
It's been two weeks. Two excruciating Zoya free weeks. And I mean physically - I haven't seen her after our lovely conversation in the office. But, the witch never left my mind. Not for a second. Maybe I should consider exorcism, seems like a completely practical solution for me at this time.
"If you want me in your life, put me there. I won't fight for the spot"
I bet you thought that I would be a gentleman and back off. It's a fair assumption because you have no freaking idea about how I function. Let me enlighten you.
One of the hardest things about improving your life is remembering to practice what you've learned in a moment of temptation, frustration, or hardship. Anyone can follow a psychological strategy when they read about it, but remembering to stick with it in real situations is tough. And, my recent dealing with Zoya was a textbook case of having PERFECT understanding of female psychology.
You see women this strange concept of space - men don't. When a guy is really into a woman, he feels the same way about her as he does about cricket matches - the more the better. By pretending to back off I was just letting her feel comfortable. Secure. Not for a second did I actually consider letting her off the hook. And no, I am not psychotic, just persistent. Our love is messy and it's okay. Love doesn't have to be perfect. Just worth it.
Regarding the Ramona update - I know it was very cold and distant. It was the first time I was writing from Aditya's POV and he was not what readers expected him to be. I lost a ton of readers after that update. 😆
One of my lovely readers has posted the link to the Three Shot above. Thank you girl 😊.
It's light and fun. I was taking a break from the heavy duty stuff that is Toxic 😆
I am loving your train of thought. Lemme know if there are any other questions nagging you. I would love to give my POV on them. 😊
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