Search for happiness
Chapter 1
Hello all, here is my first update on search for happiness, as u all know it's not my cup of tea, but I tried writing, let me know whether it was emotional or not😛😆, bcz I tried it differently, I'm telling even now u guys can tell me whether to continue it or not,😛 warning, read it on ur own risk buddies😆
I am zain osman abdhullah, son of Osman abdhullah and Suraiya.Abdhullah. I'm taking care of my father's business. My father is very caring... if I have to explain abt his care to me. he cares me that much that he.doesn't trust my mom even. He doesn't trust my choice. Forget abt trusting.. he doesn't even try to know abt what I want. He use to think that I don't know what I want. He never gave me chance in choosing anything. He use to think I'm not capable enough to take any decisions. His opinions and conclusions abt me made my life mess. I.cannot say he is completely responsible for it, even I was responsible for my present condition. Infact I'm solely blamable. I was never courageous to argue with my dad abt my love. My self -Reproach was too late... result was I'm searching for my love from 6years. 6 long years..., yes it's hard but I can search for her any no. of years. Searching for her gives hope to live... the moment I stop searching for her... im lifeless.. I can search for her till last breath of my life... she deserves this much. she left every one, she might be staying some where hiding her identity, but I know still she ll be waiting for me to turn up... one day. I know her irrevocable mad lave for me... she loved me unconditionally with all my faults.. only she can bring back happiness in my life. I ll never stop searching for her.
Today I'm going to Italy on a business trip. Opening a joint venture over there, diversifying my business.. want to prove I'm capable enough to make decisions. Not that I didn't prove before, I have proved many times after aliya's departure from my life..
My father changed his.assumptions abt me. He regrets for me. But that doesn't matter.
My flight departs in another hour. I am sitting in lobby alone. Two small kids were playing. They were cure.. damm cute... I like small kids a lot..i was watching them that one hour. when ever I see kids, I think of my imaginary family with aliya. Jus visualising my imaginary family makes me beyond happy. I use to tell her, that I want a baby girl just like her with curly hair and a baby boy jus like me. These thoughts make me happy as well as sad. I was lucky to have her.. but her departure made me unfortunate. I deserve this..
I am waiting in conference hall for board members to arrive. I am not nervous, after all I have got enough experience. I was going through my presentation quickly once again without paying attention to my surroundings. Every one started greeting each other. They introduced me to the CEO of their firm. "SHOCk" is the small word I can tell. I'm beyond shock and happiness. " My SEARCH CAME INFRONT OF ME, IT IS SITTING INFRONT OF ME". No words to describe my happiness and agony. I'm speechless. Tears pooled in my eyes, yes tears of happiness. Suddenly my heart started feeling life and my eyes started seeing light after many years. My heart did summersault's with joy. It took few min's to regain conscious. I was in mere disbelief. I some how composed myself as I'm sitting in the middle of conference room. I couldn't stop tears falling down my cheeks. She just introduced herself to me. She is not affected with my presence, she is calm turning files casually. She started giving presentation... I couldn't here anything, she has changed a lot, .. she learnt resisting my affect on her. she is behaving as if we met for the first time just now. Which is squeezing my heart. My eyes started exploring changes in her, she is not my old Aliya, I use to see sparks of happiness in her eyes and now I couldn't see anything they are just blank, her lips use to make cheerfull smiles but now they are talking lifeless words mechanically. She was a fashion bug but now she is wearing simple cotton saree with decent embroidary. She use to leave hair freely... now she made it a bun with one or two strands of hair falling down.
My eyes started seeking attention, my gaze was constantly fixed on her. I'm not hearing anything of what she is talking. I'm just enjoying her voice, it's like music to my ears. My naughty girl turned into a beautiful woman. She is jus simple and elegant. Every one is hearing to her interestingly. She has that grace to make others to hear her.
Presentation got over and every one started applauding aliya. She just smiled. Aww her smile... im seeing it after many days, but it was charmless which she use to have.. every one asked me, my opinion... I didn't know what to say... I just replied I need little time... I dont want to prove my dad was correct. they agreed for it. I saw Aliya packing her stuff and files. I just went and stood in front of her. My heart is just 2 feet away from me. I couldn't control myself, I just want to cry out hugging her. God I missed her so much.. but I cannot do that right now. She just looked at me casually. My heart ached when I couldn't feel her intense Gaze on me. She is neither avoiding me nor paying attention. She is jus neutral. My presence didn't affect her, she is neither happy nor hurt. My Aliya was so expressive, chirpy and warm and the woman standing infront of me is completely different. She became cold. God what have I done to her. I tried talking to her, but she formally introduced herself to me again and asked me to go through some files to get better idea abt project. She just bid an official bye and left walking casually.. I was standing there in confusion, am I hallucinating?, didn't she recognise me? That thought made me scared to hell. I came out of chain of thoughts after few seconds. I took my briefcase and started running to chase my happiness.. I ll not let her go again.. I ll no..
I started feeling happy again after many years.
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Edited by madhufx9... - 11 years ago
