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Search for happiness
Prologue
Aliya's pov
It's too hard to forget pain, but it's even harder to remember so called happy moments. I regret those times when I have chosen the darkside. I have wasted enough time not being happy. I suffered a lot for being selfless, not anymore. I WANT TO COUNT MY LIFE BY SMILIES, NOT BY TEARS.
Being rejected by someone is the worst, person who rejected has their own reasons for rejection, so separation doesn't hurt them much, but the one who was rejected of no fault, they crave for reasons for being rejected, which does not affect their decision, which doesn't change their situation. It makes life living hell. I don't want them to regret, their repentance might affect my present and future, which I don't want to be, I have gone through enough, even if my past comes and stands in front of me giving an victorious derogatory smile, it cannot effect me. I have earned enough courage to face it. Happiness which I found after 7years of struggle, I cannot loose it. Happiness which I got in these 6 years deserves protection from shadows of sorrow. I'm in search for happiness which can never relate to my dark past.
Zains pov
I'm counting years with those memories and smiles which I ruined with my own deeds. I'm solely responsible for my petious state. I merely wishes things were different without an act to cause difference. Love can never be selfish, it's selfless. Every one considers being selfish to be as self centered, which is dangerous, I was selfless to the people who were connected to me, which has put me in this miserable state. Sometimes u have to be selfish to be selfless. Should not be selfish in love, to protect ur love you have to be selfish.
It's hard to forget pain, I never tried to forget it, I don't want to forget it too.. bcz the pain which I'm going through is nothing in front of pain I gave her. It's more hard to remember happy moments, but I cannot dare to forget them, they are the sole reason for my survival. My heart almost breaks every time when I recollect those happy moments, feeling the pain. But I protect my heart every time for love of my life. To cure her wounds which were caused by me. I know she is all alone, still trying to heal them. I broke her heart many times. When she was in need of me and my support I ignored her. My heedlessness towards her made me unfortunate. Only I can bring her out of this living hell. Only she can fix my life back to normal. Only she can make me fortunate. I still believe she didn't move on. She is becon of light to my life. My happiness is in my past and will relate only to my past. I'm search for hapiness, my happiness is my Aliya
That's all dearu's. How was it, this is gonna be an emotional roller coaster ride,
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