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I dunno where to begin - <sniff> <sniff>
This isn't an episode analysis, per say. I never do any such analysis as a topic, but I just had to get my thoughts out this one time.
My God, I don't think I've seen a better performance on TV before! When Priya called Ram on teh phone, I felt like she was EVERY MOTHER personified in that scene. I totally worry like this when my son goes to my sister's house for a sleep over. I call late at night to have him checked ... I stay up the night worrying, so for the sake of my sanity, my husband has cancelled all sleep overs :) ...
In this case, it was forced. The gut wrenching, blood curling, heart stopping pain a mother feels at having to accept that your child will not be sleeping with you, is NOTHING. It's NOTHING, compared to the knowledge that your child is scared, somewhere, all alone. And THAT is what Priya is feeling. That mind numbing, endless dark pit filled with panic and pain, but worse of all, the helplessness. Of not being able to do anything about it.
As children, we believe our parents are all knowing, all seeing, and all protecting. As parents, we sort feel that way about our kids too. We're territorial, we yell, we discipline, we love, we protect. But WE do it all. Now, if that equation changes, if WE are not there ... well, who's protecting our children?
I remember, once, in a B&N store, I lost my 2 yr old for all about 5 minutes. I aged 20 years in those 5 minutes. I imagined ALL SORTS of scary and ridiculous things that could happen to him in those 5 minutes. Not because he wasn't with me, but because I didn't know if he was scared, or he knew where he was, or if he was hurt, etc. And THAT is what Priya is feeling. She doesn't know if Pihu is scared, well actually she does. She KNOWS she's scared. But if she doesn't know if her fear has been addressed. She doesn't know if someone is there to watch over her when she wakes up in the middle of the night. She doesn't know if she heard her bedtime story. She doesn't know if she was tucked in. She doesn't know, she just doesn't know ...
And Pihu - she doesn't know. She doesn't know why mommy isn't there. She doesn't know why she has to stay here. She doesn't know why all this sudden change. She just doesn't know.
And it's THAT knowledge, the knowledge that Pihu doesn't know, doesn't understand, that has Priya all the more scared. Am I making sense? Am I relating to, atleast, the mommy's out there? Or am I just rambling in an emotional state?
The last scene - My Lord! I have no words. When she chokes up on her tears, saying she KNOWS Pihu hasn't slept w/o her, she KNOWS she's used to hugging her to bed, she KNOWS Pihu isn't used to life w/o her ... All I have to say is - I don't think there was any fake tears in that scene - I don't think Sakshi would've needed them. I bet she cried during and after that scene was real. I'd love to see the SBS or making of that scene.
This woman - she's magic. The flabbergasted Ram, that was another plus. Poor guy didn't know what to do, or how to do it even if he knew what to do :). Loved it. A very genuine reaction for an estranged hubby. I know many wanted to see the hug - I say ... keep it at bay for now. Builds are anticipation. It'll come, in due time. And it'll be all the more coveted and cherished due to the wait. But Ram's attempts at consolation weren't gone unnoticed. He did want to do SOMETHING to make the situation better. Just didn't know what. He's not doing this out of spite - he truly wanted his daughter. Just not at the price it came with. Which he's slowly, but surely, realizing. What's helping is Priya not acting all witchy, or fighting him. She didn't say 'I can't live w/o her', or 'I came to see if she's okay coz I couldn't sleep'. She said 'Pihu may be scared', or 'here're her friends who'll keep her company at night', or 'I'm giving you my life, take care of her'. There was no taking back, or whining, in any of her attitude or dialogue.
And THAT is the Priya I fell in love with. THAT is the Priya Ram fell in love with. And is STILL in love with, as she knows very well. He just hasn't gotten over his anger just yet.
Okay, I can go on and on some more but I"ll end this here. Just had to write this up. Let me know what you guys think. It's not much of an episode analysis, just ramblings.
Love,
-S
Udne Ki Aasha
