letter 2
My Darling Roshni,
Where are you? And why, I wonder as I sit alone in a darkened house, have we been forced
apart?
I don't know the answer to these questions, no matter how hard I try to understand. The reason is
plain, but my mind forces me to dismiss it and I am torn by anxiety in all my waking hours. I am
lost without you. I am soulless, a drifter without a home, a solitary bird in a flight to nowhere. I
am all these things, and I am nothing at all. This, my darling, is my life without you. I long for
you to show me how to live again.
I try to remember the way we once were together.
It was times like those that I understood the meaning of
true happiness. At night, we walk on beach and I watched as the moonlight reflected
your beauty. I would watch you with awe and know in my heart that we'd be together forever. Is
it always that way, I wonder, when two people are in love? I don't know, but if my life since you
were taken from me is any indication, then I think I know the answers. From now on, I know I
will be alone.
I think of you, I dream of you, I conjure you up when I need you most. This is all I can do, but to
me it isn't enough. It will never be enough, this I know, yet what else is there for me to do? If you
were here, you would tell me, but I have been cheated of even that. You always knew the proper
words to ease the pain I felt. You always knew how to make me feel good inside.
Is it possible that you know how I feel without you? When I dream, I like to think you do. Before
we came together, I moved through life without meaning, without reason. I know that somehow,
every step I took since the moment I could walk was a step toward finding you. We were destined
to be together.
But now, alone in my house, I have come to realize that destiny can hurt a person as much as it
can bless him, and I find myself wondering why"out of all the people in all the world I could
ever have loved"I had to fall in love with someone who was taken away from me.
love,
your Arjun
