This was after Jeet broke her guitar. This is only feeling through which Anamika going through for her broken guitar.
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Anamika sitting in hall resting her back on long chair and her face was on ceiling. Her eyes were restless as the broken guitar was still in her lap. The Air was making its way through white curtains just to touch Anamika's died desire. She was more broken than the guitar, she was filled with sadness and her body was shivering with pain- that pain which can be felt only by her. Her innocent dreams, her innocent life guitar was broken in her lap. She was heartbroken. She knew that her pain is much bigger than this broken guitar. This guitar was only her way to feel pain more that is beneath inside and to leave with her painful peacefully at same time. She looked down from ceiling to guitar and touches her guitar with her burnt ruined hand. More than guitar she can feel the roughness of her hand to her guitar. Each day she lived thousand lives and each day she dies thousand lives. She wants to cry full in desire but she was hurt very badly somewhere and she was left with no tears to drop. Her tears were dried but still her dead heart was shivering. She wants run from self but she was kidnapped by herself. She has no life and no death for her. Her biggest punishment was her life. She can live but cannot feel it, she can cry but cannot say her pain and she was not alone but yet alone. She looked at guitar with full love as her love is lying died in her lap. She wants to hug this lifeless object which stands a lot of meaning in her life. Each time she sees the broken guitar each time her pain increases to new level pushing her dead heart to beat but heart is not responding the pain. Her eyes turn to dark path of pain all scattered with rough sharp thorns. She was leaving with these thorns in each passing days. Her road to desire was all filled with thorns and it was empty like her life. She has something and still has nothing. She touched the strings of her guitar and placed her rough and still painful fingers between those strings. Her fingers want to touch each part of guitar and feel some warmness that was passing with this lifeless object. This warmness was the desire of life and love. She can feel the love of her life with each touch and at same time her painful eyes was shivering and shrinking feeling as her love lying died in her lap. Her finger stuck in stings and she removed it with lot of effort. But with each separation she can feel the separation from her love. Her eyes was shrinking more and finally with freed fingers somewhere passing from her died soul tears made a way out from eyes. The tears were saying the story of her painful journey she had now - she lift her soft hand and dried that tears with disappointment. She got up from chair and with disappointment she took guitar to a lonely room. With each step to room she was disheartened. Something separating from her and she cannot bare this pain. Her lifeless life started feeling like they want a long breathe and her tears also do not want to come out of her eyes to see the painfull separation. She reached a destination- down was long rectangle box may be where she will keep this guitar. She looked at guitar last time with full pain and desire like she is saying sorry to it as it is now broken for not to be repaired again. She said- "Dard ke is naam ko humne humesha paas rakha par aj iss dard se humara vasta chut gaya. Pata nahin ke humara dard bad gaya ya kam ho gaya par kuch jo bhi tha woh humshe humesha ke liye juda ho gaya. Ho sake toh mujhe maaf kardena."
She placed the guitar in box and closed the door of box.
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The End
Some pain can never be soothed. You still leave, still smile, still talk, still feel but beneath inside some pain our there to stay as long as we stay in this world. Some pains have no end even if we move from that phase it holds big part in your life and effect you and your life forever.
