Now my prob is tht most times I feel attracted toward my middle aged male teacher..pls frnd, dont tk me rong...bt rather addicted to male of my near-end aged, I alws have crushed towards middle aged male and all were teachers....
among them two case is very very severe.....it ws th innial stage of my university life....I got attracted towrd a male teacher (52 yr aged). it ws too too intense...later on goes to physical attractn...bt whnever I meet him, nobody even he wud never realized tht coz I m being veery introvert. and I didnt try to show tht....it ws many days ago...nw th crash has gone...
then I got mentally attached wid a teacher of same aged..bt here thr ws nt any romantic feeling rather I alws look upon him as a fatherly fig..I alws wanted to being pampered by him as like a daughter want by her father...again here tht man also never realized my feelings and no such pampering occured in real life.
at last nw....in present condition..at th end of my university life....I m too much involved wid my another male teacher (42 yr aged,of course married,hving children). th previous men were handsome...bt this man is no so...hieght is gud, bt his skin is very black.....bt I dont knw wh happend to me....I alws think him....imagine event wid him...I m hugging him...HE IS JUST QUITE DIFFERENT THAN ANY MAN, ANY HANDSM MAN IN TH WHOLE WORLD. whnevr I look at him, I feel why suddenly I began to like him so much..his talks, smile, style, gazing all seem so adorable to him.sm tymes it get sexual too.it happend b4 few days I went his offcie...I often go thr to ask any problem. thr suddenly my hand touches wid him. this man never let his female student talk sitting in his offcie, he seems uncom4table in tht. so whn th hands touched, he ws so shy....bt he is a very out spoken man too...I just njoyed his face at tht tum and then all my feelings started...
I knw its a deep crush ya illusion frm my side...cant sat love so early...bt as whneve amy talk of my marriage is discused at home, I alws rememebr him....th prob is when any proposal come whr is age gap is too like 8/9 yrs frm mine,I cant accept..to me atlst 5/6 yr....bt c, I alws get connected towrds quite much aged man whr as a husband I dont want th...so m I sick? wh sud I do wid my present crush? is it just th likeness? M I BAD frnds??????