Ok so math is my favourite subject and i always do good in it and if i dont then its cuz i dont understand it. But since this session started things hav been going wrong and i just dont kno wat has been going wrong and y i cant seem to do good. I understand everything but yet im one of the last ones to finish i hav to ask the teacher sth in every sum. I have this friend and she and i were the best ones in class we always finished before everyone else but she left the school but when she was here i was more enthusiastic during math class there was always sth to look forward to but i dont think me not being able to concentrate or not having enough confidece has anything to do with her going away since i met her in class 6. OK today i marginally passed a very easy math test and even the student who failed the exam last term got waay btter marks then me. And evryone was shocked when they heard about my marks the teacher was like i didnt expect this form u, u were supposed to get the highest. and before i was the one who helped evryone now i am the one who needs help. But the thing is i understand evrything there is nothing that i dont understand but yet i just cant do it. I feel like crying but tears wont fall i feel terrible and even though i manage to stay the same cheery self from the outside sth is just killing me from the inside. and i dont kno how to fix it.
And i just feel like killing myself(not that im going to). Ok i kno math is a really stupid reason but sometimes some things can really mean a lot to someone.
and without maths things just seem worthless.