Hello š¤ This is gonna be my first HC attempt. Hope I do some justice to it!
"You are blushing", he said as he leaned towards her and slowly took the water spray bottle from the dresser. He sprayed the water on her face and gently wiped all the marks coz that's how she likes to look - blemish free.
"Wish I can wipe away our past just as easy as this one", he said holding her arms. He gently held her hand and walked her through to the bed. It was all decorated just like you'd expect for a first night. But both of them knew this was not what they wanted. All they wanted was to have a heart to heart conversation without anyone disturbing them. They sat down while Kunal still held on to her hand.
"Kuhu, I want to apologize for everything. Remember our first first night?"
She had tears swell up in her eyes whenever she thought about that night. The way all her dreams were shattered, her fairytale crushed and the revelation that it was all a sham made her so fragile. She just nodded her head.
"There is that day and now today. Many things have changed, I have changed. I can't imagine what you might have gone through when I said all those rude things to you. It must've broken you down. I could see the pain I gave you, I felt you didn't deserve it. You deserve a much better life with a much better person. That's the reason I pushed you away from me. The day when you asked me to give our marriage a second chance made me feel weak. I wanted to give us a second chance but my emotions were masked by hatred towards one person and extreme love for my brother. I won't say it's completely my mom's fault. I'm an adult, I have brains too. I should've told you everything before the wedding. I shouldn't have lied to love you. I'm sorry Kuhu. I'm really really sorry!", he said with tears at the corner of his eyes.
Kuhu couldn't hold back her tears. She wanted to say something to him but she let him speak. While still holding her hand he slipped and sat down and rested his hands on hers on her lap. He held her hand with both his hands. "Kuhu will you forgive me for the past? Will you ever be able to trust me completely? I know I've done a lot of damage and it's difficult for you to trust me again but can you please give me a chance? I want to rebuild our future with trust and love."
"Kunal.." she said as she held his hand in hers. Her voice broken as she remembered all those moments from their initial wedding night to her leaving the Rajvansh house with her bags yesterday. She could feel all the pain she endured and putting up the act of being the happiest person in front of everyone. And here he is promising to revive himself for her. This was all that she ever wanted! Care and attention solely for herslef from a person she loves. But something was stopping her. She never got a chance to be content in her life. Whenever she did something bad happened and she lost whatever was hers. Is this moving too fast? Does Kunal like her or love her? One thing is for sure that he wants her in his life and so does she. But does he love her the same way she does? She was hesitant to say anything at the moment. She might not be able to trust him completely. She did once and ended up being emotionally hurt.
"Kuhu.. Say something", he snapped her out of her thoughts.
She stood up and faced away from him. "Kunal. I don't know what to say. I'm happy to be with you right now but about trusting you completely.. " she paused to guage his reaction. She could see the slight twitch in his eyebrows and guilt. She continued.
"It was really tough for me to cope up with the situation back then. I cried.. Cried every night. Hoped all that was just a bad dream. I hoped that you would give us another chance. But you never prioritized me. I was your last priority. You wanted to get rid of me. I felt so embarrased, depressed and also felt like giving away my life."
Kunal was taken aback at the last statement. He knew she went through a lot but he didn't imagine he pushed her to this extreme. He shook a "no" with his head as a lone tear trickled down his face.
"But then I started being rude to you. I gave it back to you whenever you tried to push me away. This made me feel better." she smiled cutely.
"Just when I thought things were getting better you handed the divorce papers."
Kunal recollected the moment when he handed over the papers and the aftermath. "I deserved the slap that day. It was so stupid of me to do something like that and amidst everyone. I deserted you that day. Now when I think of it I feel like slapping myself a million times. I'm sorry Kuhu" he said looking down. She now looked at him and came closer. She held his hand "I'm not playing flashbacks to make you feel guilty. I wanted to share all this with someone but I didn't have anyone to talk to except Mishti. And you know our equation. Nothing has changed. Now that I have you here I can hold your hand, lean on you and talk about everything. Please don't feel guilty anymore. I've overcome everything and I'm proud of myself for handling the situation without hurting our families."
Kunal couldn't stop admiring her and immediately pulled her into a tight embrace. He gently rubbed her head with her curls intertwining his fingers while his other hand held her close to himself. She felt safe. She felt secure. She felt a big burden fall off her chest. All the emotions that she bottled up for the past few months are finally out. She could feel the feeling of being important in someone's life and she was happy. "I'm sorry Kuhu. I really am.".
They pulled out from the hug. Kunal took her hands in his. "I promise, I promise I will always be there for you. I know it will be difficult but I will ask Uma Patel to schedule time" he said with a wink. "What?!", she laughed and hit him on his chest as he pulled her back in a hug.
He smiled and thought to himself. "I know Kuhu you've been through a lot. But from now on you will never be sad. I'll be there for you just as you have always been there for me."
The Beginning
Kabhi Neem Neem Kabhi Shahad Shahad
