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She tried so hard to calm down, to stop crying but the tears wouldn't stop. She was absolutely lost and scared witless, terrified of what Varsha had asked from her. She couldn't fathom having to sacrifice something that had now become a part of her existence. Her Badi Maa was upset and her Bade Papa was in pain because of her. Nothing she told herself seemed to work. She had no one to go to and so she called the one person she needed to see, the boy she couldn't ever afford to lose, Abir.
Scared about the situation that their date had gotten Mishti into, unable to decide if it was okay to reach out, to call her, Abir continued to worry. He needed to talk to her, make sure she was okay. But the relief he felt as he saw her name flashing on the phone, didn't last a second as he got a sight of those red-rimmed eyes. The heart break that he saw there immediately reflecting in his own when she asked him "Abir mein tumhe kaise chod dun"? Before he even began to understand what was happening and the cause to Mishti's distress she heard him say "Abir, Varsha aunty chahti hain ki mein tumse break up karloo" ripping a new one on his heart.
He was always the wise one among the two wasn't he? Mishti was sure he was the only one who had the answers and so she asks "Mein kya karu?".
Completely heartbroken, incapable of coherent thoughts, desperate to take away the pain that he saw in her eyes and heard in her voice, Abir instinctively offers "Tum bolo, mein karoonga, agar tum kaho toh.."
Realizing where he was going with it and horrified of what he was suggesting Mishti interjects him immediately with a firm "Nahi, nahi Abir! Mein tumhe nahi chod sakti. Nahin reh sakti mein tumhare bina"
The declaration making him release the breath he didn't realize he was holding. The tightness that threatened to completely crush his heart, slowly subsiding. Her confusion, her helplessness over the difficult choice that she had been asked to make. Her desperate call for help, advice when she knew he had none breaking his heart further. It was completely unfair that she was on the other side of the phone crying her heart out when he couldn't hold her, comfort her or even tell her that it was gonna be okay. Why was it so hard? Why did it have to be so painful? But he had to try and so he did. Assuring her that they still had 'tonight' for themselves. What tomorrow would mean for their relationship, they didn't know but they had each other for tonight and they were going to make the most of it.
Mishti not wanting to lose the sight of him for even a second, desperate to hold on to him for however long she possibly could, cries out to him to not disconnect the call. Hearing the anguish making it really hard but the need to remain strong for her winning over his need to fall apart. He tries to lighten the mood by teasing her as he always does but her wish for a whole lifetime for themselves, finally causing the tears he was trying so hard to curb, spill over.
Happy and satisfied for the chance to stay by her, he promises her "Mein yahin hun".
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The word 'Beautiful' would fall short in describing the absolutely intense & heart-wrenching scene that was this video call sequence between Mishbir tonight. The fact that these two clearly cannot imagine a life without the other in it, yet being responsible enough to understand that they couldn't be selfish in love was so beautifully portrayed tonight that I was left completely on awe. The fact that Mishti continued to stress on what she would do if BM and BP went against their love emphasized how much her parents meant to her. Bringing home the point that there can be more than one significant love, even the non-romantic kind in a person's life. Mishti and Abir continue to set new examples on love and respect in relationships. I am so glad we have such inspiring leads on a platform that is otherwise filled with regressive, mindless, unrelatable and sometimes, plain disgusting characters that are written as leads on a show.
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Thoughts on Performances: The scene was honestly , without any prejudice, the best scene of Mishbir's for me till date. One of the most effective and beautifully executed sequence in the entire show. Congratulations YRHPK team for the collective effort. The pain, the anguish, the heartbreak and the comfort they found in each other. Beautifully written, portrayed and executed. Shaheer and Rhea broke my heart and won it over with one of the best performances I've seen of theirs so far. Especially Rhea, stealing the God damn show!
Mishti's horror as she witnessed her Bade Papa tear up and to have been the cause for it. Her desperation to explain to her Badi Maa that she did not mean to keep the truth from them. Her resolve over her love. Her certainty over the fact that their love was not wrong. Her courage to stand by Abir and their relationship. Her vulnerability when it came to her Badi Maa and Bade Papa. The absolute helplessness and horror she felt over the possibility of having to lose the one person who had come to mean the absolute world to her. All of it was so beautifully portrayed that it both made me tremendously proud of the girl that she is and heartbroken to see her completely shatter the way she did.
Rhea! God damn! Take a bow!👏 What an incredible performance that was. You keep proving time and again how you deserve to play that lead opposite one of the best performers in the industry. So proud of this girl! I was tearing up by the end of the video call between Mishbir. That doesn't happen often.
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A/N : It's 3 AM here as I finish watching the episode and putting this down. Work has been an absolute B and I am afraid I'm not really in the right state of mind. I am not even sure if the post makes sense anymore. I just can't bother to proof-read this. So please forgive me if it's a poor attempt at an analysis. I promise to edit it tomorrow if I can get to it.