Love is not enough.

Anushka:

I am heartbroken.

When someone is everything to you and you are just their somebody...How could it be?

How could I have read the signs wrong? Or this is all love is!

Love- the last few days had been so lovely . Teasing each other...Getting close to each other...Giving away to those feelings that were always dormant...

It was all so special. When I would light up the moment he entered the room... We would steal glances at each other...He would walk away in a huff, thinking I hadn't given him enough importance...And stop for me...Be content that I would seek after him...

The cow bell that was his way of confessing his love to me...The moments in the garden where darkness fanned at the embers of love...The stolen moments when I was his dulhaniya...

His dulhaniya. Had he not said it? Had he not looked at me like I was his world? Had he not promised to steal me away? Had he not caressed my cheeks tenderly, ignoring how someone had stolen his opportunity?

Opportunity...Of course, he would never miss one. Ridhi Bhabhi had always warned me. My heart had known differently. When it came to choosing, my heart told me he would choose me above everything. He had done that so many times for me in the past.

The past...All those times he has been there for me...before time changed him. So much so, Sidhanth Sinha is focused on only one thing- making it big. Everything else is secondary...Me...His family...

Is this all love is to you, Sidhanth? Is this what you have chosen to be?

Sidhanth:

My mind has gone numb. What was that?

Why did she always have to make me choose? I am this close...This close to getting to where I have always wanted to be. One more step, and I am there...

This is the heights my father would never dream of...the pinnacle where people can only look up at me.

I would be an equal. No more feeling out of place! No more being treated second to someone else...No more hesitating at falling for a temptation...To touch her, hold her, kiss her,tell her I love her...

No more wondering if she thought I was good enough...If I would always be good enough...If I was good enough...By their standards...

This is how much this means to me. She will never understand the insecurities I crush under my ambition.

My love will not be enough.

How will I let go of a complete belief system that has made me who I am?! Who am I without that...

PS: I feel a significant lacuna in their understanding each other comes from the confusion surrounding the confession- or precisely, the lack of it. Anushka feels Sidhanth has confessed- through his actions and by the gift, whereas Sidhanth didn't intend to confess to her yet. He was still trying to process his feelings, going with the flow wherever she guided him. As far as he is concerned, that is all. He has not had an opportunity to tell her how he feels about her, he would rather choose a time when he has dealt with all other complications in his life- be it the mystery around his father's death or the class differences thrown at his face every day. He can understand her feelings for him. Still, he has his doubts in the back of his mind regarding how much she can take for him. He did tell Sweetyji once before- I once thought...I want to give this time'. He fears rejection at some level, in some form. He wants this to be as perfect a match as it can be...

From Anushka's side- she has always been a follower of Sidhanth Sinha. She is not expecting a sweeping confession from Sidhanth-he has only grown more practical from their teen years, if anything- she is only expecting a validation. He has responded to her advances and made a promise about getting his dulhaniya. That is all she is expecting from him.

The gift- the cow bell- is a proposal she has accepted. In spite of that, when Sidhanth runs behind opportunities, Anu feels left behind. She feels she will always be forgotten, when Sidhanth will put his ambitions above her.

At crossroads...

"It was a kind love, a selfless love. I was a dreamer, and you were a traveler. We met at the crossroads. I saw love in your smile, and I recognized it for the first time in my life. But you had a plane to catch, and I was already home.
Lang Leav,TheUniverse of Us

Amazing view..

Amazing Chick. Der aaye durusth aaye aap. Simply speechless. The last few lines...so apt for Sidushka. You have written a beautiful piece. I am going to read again.
This show is a class of its own.

Originally posted by: Fanclub99

Amazing view..

Both love each other not able to express the way they want ...

Originally posted by: noexcuse

Amazing Chick. Der aaye durusth aaye aap. Simply speechless. The last few lines...so apt for Sidushka. You have written a beautiful piece. I am going to read again.
This show is a class of its own.

Originally posted by: chicksoup

Thanks,dear.

Wish I had the time to go back to those romantic episodes and relish them one by one...

Life is not fair.😭 Sony is not fair either...😆

I just hope they allow the show to run its course...It is a phenomenal show! Not watching anything else on TV.

Me neither. Started two other along with this one. The other two fell flat though they are wrecking the trp chart.
You are right. Life isn't fair. Hoping for the same. A complete finish they I am forever Sony's fan.

Originally posted by: chicksoup

Anushka:

I am heartbroken.

When someone is everything to you and you are just their somebody...How could it be?

How could I have read the signs wrong? Or this is all love is!

Love- the last few days had been so lovely . Teasing each other...Getting close to each other...Giving away to those feelings that were always dormant...

It was all so special. When I would light up the moment he entered the room... We would steal glances at each other...He would walk away in a huff, thinking I hadn't given him enough importance...And stop for me...Be content that I would seek after him...

The cow bell that was his way of confessing his love to me...The moments in the garden where darkness fanned at the embers of love...The stolen moments when I was his dulhaniya...

His dulhaniya. Had he not said it? Had he not looked at me like I was his world? Had he not promised to steal me away? Had he not caressed my cheeks tenderly, ignoring how someone had stolen his opportunity?

Opportunity...Of course, he would never miss one. Ridhi Bhabhi had always warned me. My heart had known differently. When it came to choosing, my heart told me he would choose me above everything. He had done that so many times for me in the past.

The past...All those times he has been there for me...before time changed him. So much so, Sidhanth Sinha is focused on only one thing- making it big. Everything else is secondary...Me...His family...

Is this all love is to you, Sidhanth? Is this what you have chosen to be?

Sidhanth:

My mind has gone numb. What was that?

Why did she always have to make me choose? I am this close...This close to getting to where I have always wanted to be. One more step, and I am there...

This is the heights my father would never dream of...the pinnacle where people can only look up at me.

I would be an equal. No more feeling out of place! No more being treated second to someone else...No more hesitating at falling for a temptation...To touch her, hold her, kiss her,tell her I love her...

No more wondering if she thought I was good enough...If I would always be good enough...If I was good enough...By their standards...

This is how much this means to me. She will never understand the insecurities I crush under my ambition.

My love will not be enough.

How will I let go of a complete belief system that has made me who I am?! Who am I without that...

PS: I feel a significant lacuna in their understanding each other comes from the confusion surrounding the confession- or precisely, the lack of it. Anushka feels Sidhanth has confessed- through his actions and by the gift, whereas Sidhanth didn't intend to confess to her yet. He was still trying to process his feelings, going with the flow wherever she guided him. As far as he is concerned, that is all. He has not had an opportunity to tell her how he feels about her, he would rather choose a time when he has dealt with all other complications in his life- be it the mystery around his father's death or the class differences thrown at his face every day. He can understand her feelings for him. Still, he has his doubts in the back of his mind regarding how much she can take for him. He did tell Sweetyji once before- I once thought...I want to give this time'. He fears rejection at some level, in some form. He wants this to be as perfect a match as it can be...

From Anushka's side- she has always been a follower of Sidhanth Sinha. She is not expecting a sweeping confession from Sidhanth-he has only grown more practical from their teen years, if anything- she is only expecting a validation. He has responded to her advances and made a promise about getting his dulhaniya. That is all she is expecting from him.

The gift- the cow bell- is a proposal she has accepted. In spite of that, when Sidhanth runs behind opportunities, Anu feels left behind. She feels she will always be forgotten, when Sidhanth will put his ambitions above her.

At crossroads...

"It was a kind love, a selfless love. I was a dreamer, and you were a traveler. We met at the crossroads. I saw love in your smile, and I recognized it for the first time in my life. But you had a plane to catch, and I was already home.
Lang Leav,TheUniverse of Us

Chicks nice to see your post...
Perfect analysis...Siddhant has still that insecurities that Anuska can leave him waiting as his social position..n Anuska is insecure abt his ambitions which make her apart from him...she doesn't loose him..He want to be wid her without any social gap...so that ppl cant taunt him abt their relationship...

Originally posted by: LIKEDMG

Chicks nice to see your post...
Perfect analysis...Siddhant has still that insecurities that Anuska can leave him waiting as his social position..n Anuska is insecure abt his ambitions which make her apart from him...she doesn't loose him..He want to be wid her without any social gap...so that ppl cant taunt him abt their relationship...