Aman was in the confines of his room, their room. He looked around and sighed. She was gone. He had decided to not look for her. Why would he? How could he? He had no courage to go face Roshni again. Sometimes, the guilt is so huge, it feels, sorry won't be enough. He looked around, trying to find her in the empty room. His heart couldn't accept she's not there. For the world he had thrown her out of his home, but could he actually throw her out?
Tere jaane ka gham
Aur na aane ka gham
Phir zamaane ka gham
kya karein?
"Ammi, Aman nein kuch nahi khaya hai kal se. Woh Apne room tak se Baahar nahi aaya hai. Mujhe fikr ho Rahi uski." Parveen said, worry written all over her face. "Fikr toh mujhe bhi hai Parveen par hum kuch nahi kar sakte. Usko khud nikalna padega inn sab se. Dil ke maamle aise hal nahi hote." Dadi said and left to her room. She was worried too but knew very well that Aman had to fight this battle alone.
It has already been more than 40 hours that Roshni had left the city and nothing was better. It seems she took away all the light with herself from the life of those who she loved. Aman was looking outside his window, to the moon that was shining little extra. "Roshni, pata nahi Kyun aapke chale jaane se meri zindagi mein andhera ho Gaya." Tears welled up in his eyes. He was trying to see Roshni's face in the moon. "Ab toh aapki shakl mujhe chaand mein bhi nahi dikhti. Bahut naraaz hain aap shayad."
Raah dekhe nazar
Raat bhar jaag kar
Par teri toh khabar na mile
Bahut aayi gayi yaadein
Magar iss baar tum hi aana
Iraade phir se jaane ke nahi laana
Tum hi aana!
It was after two days that the door of Aman's room was opened. Parveen rushed to check on him. "Aman, tu theek hai na?" Parveen asked. He looked at her and smiled. "Ji Ammi, main bilkul theek hoon. Mujhe kya hoga?" He said. "Main toh bilkul Darr hi gayi thi." Parveen took a sigh of relief. "Main theek hoon. Main breakfast kar leta hoon." He said and left. Dadi came. "Aman ab bhi nahi badla. Woh ab bhi apna Dard apni muskurahat mein chupana jaanta hai. Aur tum bhi nahi Badli. Tum ab bhi uska Dard nahi Pehchaan paati." Dadi said and left.
Aman was in kitchen. He could feel her around. He could see her baking her favourite Naankhatai. "Aise kya dekh rahe hain?" He heard her ask. Smile spread on his face. "Dekh Raha hoon ki kitne naankhatai aaj jalenge." He chuckled. "Haww!" She looked at him with her big eyes. "Aap bahut mean hain." She said and continued her preparation for her another round of baking. He chuckled on her antics. Sara came in and looked at him chuckling. "Bhai kya hua?" She asked. "Roshni phirse Naankhatai Bana Rahi." He said and laughed. Sara was confused and sad. "Bhai, Bhabhi nahi hain." She said. Aman stopped laughing and looked again towards the kitchen table and Roshni wasn't there.
Meri dehleez se hokar
Bahare jab guzarti hain
Yahan kya dhoop, kya saawan
Hawayein bhi barasti hain
Aman went to his room and locked it again and sat beside it. He took few deep breath. "Roshni!" He called for her softly. He couldn't see her around and it was somehow choking him. He tried taking few deep breath. His eyes turned blue. The jinn in him was taking over. He got up and smashed a flower vase on the mirror. He took up the table and trashed it.
Everyone heard it and rushed to his room. "Aman, beta darwaza khol." Dadi said. Parveen banged the door. They could hear breaking sound from inside. Aman locked himself in the chains to control the beast. His wrist was in blood already. The jinn in him was trying to break free but the human was trying to stay and soon all the energy in him was drained.
Hume poochho kya hota hai
Bina dil ke jeeye jaana
Bahut aayi gayi yaadein
Magar iss baar tum hi aana
The wind gushed in from the window and soothed him. "Roshni!" He whispered. "Aapko Maine kaha tha khyaal rakhiyega apna. Allah knows best, aap kabhi meri koi baat nahi maante." Roshni said, annoyed! She was wiping blood from his hands and face and tears were falling from her eyes and Aman was looking at her, with a smile. He could see, she was so much in pain seeing his wounds. "Aman Darwaza khol beta." Dadi said from outside. Aman looked around and Roshni was nowhere to be seen.
Koi to raah woh hogi
Jo mere ghar ko aati hai
Karo peechha sadaaon ka
Suno kya kehna chahati hai
Baazigar came in the room and transformed into Aman's magic stick. He freed himself from the chains and fixed everything in the room. He got up and looked in the mirror. He was bruised all over. His eyes fell on Roshni's bangles. He went and took them in his hands and looked it, fresh tears fell from his eyes. "Aap kidhar hain Roshni?"
Tum aaoge mujhe milne
Khabar yeh bhi tum hi laana
Bahut aayi gayi yaadein
Magar iss baar tum hi aana
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Wrote this in 10 min. Don't mind the spelling and grammatical errors! Not proofread. This song totally has my heart ever since I heard it in BG for the chall kuwan track. Couldn't help but think of this One shot. Do drop in your views. Would love to read your feedback😳
