Part 73
Bhalla House – April, Saturday morning, 9:00 am
Ishita opened the curtains of her room and sun rays flooded in. She shuffled through the room, folding disheveled clothes and tidying miscellaneous items. Footsteps came closer and she turned to see Ruhi come running into her bedroom for the third time that morning.
"Is she awake yet?" Ruhi asked.
"She'll be awake soon beta," Ishita chuckled. "Just be patient."
Ruhi stood over her sister's crib and crossed her arms, tapping her foot on the floor. Pihu was four months old now. She had started recognizing faces and voices and responding to them. She could babble and smile at her siblings. And Ruhi was excited to play with her. If only she would wake up.
"You can't play with her as soon as she wakes up though, Ru," Ishita said, changing the pillow covers.
"Why not?" Ruhi frowned.
"Because Pihu needs to have her bath first."
Ruhi sighed.
"But you can help me out, okay?" Ishita chuckled.
"Really? Yes!"
In the crib, Pihu's tiny body wiggled and stirred awake as she recognized her mother's and sister's voices. Her eyes blinked open and she yawned, kicking her legs and stretching her tiny chubby arms. Ruhi didi's grinning face materialized above her.
"Ga goo goo," she babbled.
"Good morning Pihuuu..." Ruhi drawled. "Mumma, she's awake!"
"Is she now?"
Pihu heard her mother's sweet voice and held her head up, looking all over for her. To her joy, Ishita's footsteps came closer and her face appeared above beside Ruhi's. Pihu flashed an open-mouthed smile and stuck her arms out for her mother. Ishita picked up her baby girl, smoothing over her soft hair and straightening her onesie, as Pihu burrowed into her warm mother's chest.
"Uth gaya mera baccha? Huh?" Ishita cooed.
"Goo ga..."
"Ab naay-naay karenge... Didi aur mumma ke saath ready honge, haina?" Ishita carried Pihu to the bathroom as Ruhi followed. "Ru, is cupboard mein se Pihu ka towel aur kuch naye kapde nikaal lo. Main uska bath ready karti hoon."
"Okay mumma."
Ruhi grabbed the clothes from the cupboard as Ishita readied Pihu's bath in the sink. She set up the baby bath tub and filled it with warm water before undressing her baby and gently putting her in the tub.
"Here's what I chose. Look." Ruhi came in and unfolded a onesie to reveal Mihir's gift from Rakshabandhan. Except it was the blue 'Raavan Kumar' one. "And these white pants."
Ishita chuckled at Ruhi's choice of clothing. "Okay, leave it on the counter and come here."
Ishita wrung a warm soapy washcloth and cleaned Pihu's face, as she instructed Ruhi to splash warm water over her body to keep the baby warm. She sequentially cleaned each part of Pihu's body with mild soap as Ruhi washed the soap away with warm water.
When the bath was done, Ishita patted her dry with a towel and got her dressed. She looked adorable in a blue custom onesie and white pants. She was truly her father's daughter, in the curve of her nose, the line of her eyes, and especially her clothing.
It wasn't until after ten am that Ruhi finally got her hands on her baby sister. Ishita fed her and burped her, after which Ruhi took her outside to the living room play area they had assembled for Pihu. The furniture had been moved aside to create a play space with a large baby blanket and cushions along with squeaky toys and rattles.
Ruhi lowered Pihu onto the play area and was shortly joined by Adi. After one last check on her children, Ishita joined her mother-in-law in the kitchen to help out with lunch. Raman sat at the table, drinking tea and reading the newspaper, while his father skipped through the channels on the TV.
Adi laid Pihu onto her stomach and Ruhi shook a rubber rattle in front of her. Pihu raised her head and stretched her hands to grab the rattle.
"Here Pihu... here you go..."
Ruhi brought the rattle closer and Pihu grabbed it with a cute smile. Immediately, she put it in her mouth and bit down.
"No Pihu, don't put that in your mouth," Adi groaned. "Woh dirty hota hai yaar..."
Adi tried to gently pull the rattle out of Pihu's mouth, but it wouldn't budge. He pulled again but his baby sister had a death grip on it. It was hard to believe such a tiny human could exhibit so much force.
"Oh my god Pihu, let it go!"
With one last budge, the rattle finally dropped out of her mouth. Adi sighed with relief. And then yelped in pain. For her baby sister had grabbed his finger and bit down on it. Hard.
Ruhi gasped. "Mumma, papa! Pihu just bit bhaiya!"
"What?!"
"Are you serious?"
Ishita wiped her hands on a kitchen towel and Raman threw down his folded newspaper before rushing to the living room. Ishita took Pihu into her arms and Raman checked Adi's finger.
"You okay Adi?"
"Yeah yeah, I'm fine. I took the rattle from her mouth, so I think she got mad and bit me."
"I don't think that's why she bit you." Ishita pulled down Pihu's lower lip. "Look Raman, I think she's teething."
"What does that mean?" Ruhi asked.
Ishita showed them where Pihu's first tooth was beginning to break through her gums. "It means she's getting her first tooth."
"Ohhh... that's why it hurt so hard," Adi commented, shaking his finger.
Ishita switched arms in which she was carrying Pihu. "Kyun baby? Aap ne bhaiya ko kyun bite kiya?" she cooed with a stern face. "That's not so nice of you bacche..."
Pihu heard the change in mumma's voice and saw her smile fade away. And her open mouthed grin morphed into a pout. Her lower rosy lip came out and tears welled in her big blue eyes.
"Amma!" Adi protested. "Don't scold her."
He pried his baby sister out of his mother's arms and rocked her in his arms. Pihu rested her head in the crook of her brother's neck and sucked her thumb.
"It's okay Pihu... It's okay..." Ruhi patted her baby sister's back.
"Look at that." Ishita crossed her arms against her chest and raised her eyebrow. "Ise ek bhi baat bolne jao toh sab ke sab iske bachaav mein khade ho jaate hai. Meri choti si nautanki..."
Raman chuckled and ruffled his son's hair. Ishita shook her head with mirth, marveling at how Adi and Ruhi's sibling rivalry, jealousy, and competition had developed into such fierce affection and protectiveness.
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Bhalla House – a month later, May, 6 pm
The front door clicked open and Ishita walked in with Ruhi in her bharatanatyam gear. Adi followed behind kicking his football to the side and dropping his backpack on the couch.
"Ru, go put your anklets away and get changed. And Adi, make sure you soak your football clothes in the washing machine as soon as you change, okay? Warna sab kichad aur ghaas ke daag lag jaayenge."
"Okay mumma."
"Got it!"
The kids ran into their room as Ishita made her way into her bedroom. A radiant smile brightened her face at the sight that greeted her.
Raman bounced Pihu on his knee, cuddling her close and murmuring to her on the couch. Pihu had her tiny arms on his face, her palms touching and exploring papa's stubble, inhaling papa's scent. Ishita tossed her purse onto the bed before joining the duo.
"Kya kar rahe ho papa-beti?" she asked, sitting beside her husband.
"Hum log khel rahe hai, mumma," Raman answered on her daughter's behalf. "Aap ne kya kiya aaj?"
"Mumma Adi bhaiya ko football practice le gayi, phir Ruhi didi ko dance practice le gayi, aur phir bank mein thoda kaam kar ke aayi."
Ishita gave her baby girl a kiss on the cheek. Pihu palmed her mother's neck and pulled at some of her hair. She wanted mumma to come closer.
Ishita brushed her hair aside and hugged her husband. Raman turned his head and closed in for a kiss, but Pihu let out a wail before he could do so.
"Waaaahh! Gah-gah!"
Pihu raised her hand and pushed her mother away, screwing her face in annoyance. Papa was only allowed to kiss her. No one else.
Raman's jaw dropped. Ishita gasped in pleasant shock.
"Dekha aapne?!" she scoffed. "She just pushed me away!"
"I saw that," Raman laughed. "Pihu, are you getting jealous of mumma? Huh? I told you madrasan, my princess is daddy's girl."
Raman lifted his baby up in the air and Pihu smiled. Ishita giggled at the duo, gazing lovingly.
"What's happening?"
Adi and Ruhi had just arrived having changed their clothes. Ishita stood up and straightened her saree pallu.
"Your sister got mad that I hugged her father. Apparently, only she's allowed to do that," she chuckled.
"That's okay Ishimaa. You can hug us."
Adi threw his arms around his mom and Ruhi hugged her waist, sticking her tongue out at Pihu. Ishita gave a kiss to both her elder kids, curiously watching Pihu's reaction.
Pihu wailed again. "Gaaaahhhh!" Mumma was also only allowed to kiss her. No one else.
Adi and Ruhi burst out laughing. Pihu tried wiggling free of Raman's hold and stretched her arms out to her mother. Ishita picked up her baby girl, chuckling at her antics.
"Shaitaan!" she quipped, nuzzling Pihu's downy head and dropping a kiss on her cheek.
Pihu's eyes sparkled at the attention and she gurgled a laugh. Her first laugh.
"She just laughed!" Ruhi squealed with delight.
"Did you see that?" Adi exclaimed.
Raman took his baby girl into his arms and held her up high and brought her down. Up and down, up and down, and Pihu laughed and laughed, gurgling and babbling in delight.
Ishita watched the scene and her precious brood with tears of joy and love welling in her eyes. Pihu was not only her daddy's princess; she was the apple of everyone's eyes. And she knew it.
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Bhalla House, Ishita & Raman's bedroom – a month later, June, 10 pm
"Bacche so jao na... Please go to sleep Pihu..."
Raman patted his girl, groaning in exhaustion, but Pihu kept reaching for one toy or another. She was lying on her back, wide awake on the bed beside her yawning father. Raman grabbed every toy in her vicinity and tossed them on the side table.
"Why are you being like this baby?" he asked, patting her tummy, trying to lull her to sleep.
Pihu only clapped and giggled in response.
"Aapko hasi aa rahi hai?" he chuckled. "You're laughing at papa's misery?"
More giggling.
"Wow... And here I thought you were my princess. Apparently, you've taken after your mother too, huh?"
"Whose taken after me?" Ishita walked in and clicked the door shut.
"Your daughter. I'm trying to get her to sleep but she's in the mood for playtime. She's laughing at me, look."
Ishita sat down beside her husband and smiled at her baby, rubbing her tummy lightly. Pihu was in a real playful mood today.
"She had her first solid food today, you know," Ishita said.
"Yeah? How'd she take it?"
"Pretty well. She had pea and carrot pureé."
"That explains the colorful diaper," Raman chuckled.
"How was your day today? At the office?"
"It was fine. We've hired more staff at all levels of management, so it's taking a while for the teams to gel well..."
Their conversation meandered from one point to another, even as Raman kept patting Pihu, trying to get her to fall asleep. But to no avail. For moments later, Pihu was on her tummy, pulling at Ishita's saree.
"Oh my god..."
"Raman, wasn't she just on her back?"
"Yes, yes she was!"
"Pihu, did you just roll over, my love?"
The excited parents picked up their giggling baby, pride and love swelling their chest. The consequence of that was Pihu didn't fall asleep until later. Much much later.
At a quarter to midnight, Pihu's tiny exhausted body finally gave out and Raman gently placed the sleeping baby in the crib.
"Ugghh... I am so tired..." Raman groaned, falling onto the bed. "That baby is a handful."
"Even more proof that she takes after you," Ishita teased.
"Ha ha, very funny..."
"You're really tired, huh?"
"Yup..."
"That's a shame."
Raman scrunched his eyebrows in confusion and lifted his head up to look at his wife. She raised a mischevious eyebrow at him.
"What... do you mean?" he asked cautiously.
Ishita unpinned her saree pallu and undid the buckle in her hair. "I mean... Pihu has finally started sleeping through the night. And unlike you... I'm not tired at all."
Raman immediately picked up on the alluring tone in her voice, and his body roared to life. He was up in a jiffy, climbing over his wife and kissing her all over. Ishita fell back against the headboard, fingers threading through her husband's hair, barely holding her giggles in.
Their love life had taken a serious hit after Pihu's birth, as expected. Along with the physical and hormonal recovery, Ishita had her own emotional reservations. She had been taking yoga classes and watching her diet, doing everything she could do lose the baby weight. But it was very slow to come off.
However, judging by Raman's reaction right now, it became clear that she had nothing to worry about.
"Come with me," Raman whispered. "If we're any louder, we'll wake up the baby."
"But where-"
"Shhh..."
Raman pulled his wife up by the waist and carried her into the bathroom, shutting the door behind them, for a night of ecstasy.
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Bhalla House – four months later, October, 12 pm
"Come to mumma. That's it baby, come on!"
Ishita kneeled and gestured to Pihu who crawled to her mother on the other side of the living room. She took one choppy step after another and gurgled a cute laugh as she reached her mumma.
"Yes! Great job Pihu!"
Ishita picked her up and swung her around, before rocking Pihu in her arms and holding her close, nuzzling her soft hair. Pihu grabbed her mother's finger, curiously looking at her bright nail polish. Ishita brought the tiny chubby arm forward and dropped a tender kiss on her baby's hand.
Today, it was just Ishita and Pihu, the mother-daughter duo, at home alone. Everyone was out at work or school. Even Toshi and Omprakash were out for the week visiting relatives in Punjab. And so Ishita had spent the day with her ten-month-old, playing and looking after her new crawler.
"Pihu, it's lunch time now. Bhookh lagi hai aapko? Huh?" Ishita cooed.
She walked over to the kitchen, balancing Pihu on her hip, and opened the baby food cabinet. Pihu promptly pointed at the jars and packets of organic veggie and fruit pureé.
"Baa-baa..." she cooed.
"Haan, baby food khaayenge, hmmm? Aaj subah dudh piya aapne, toh ab thoda khaana khaayenge. Kya khaana hai aapko? We have sweet potatoes, pears & kale, apples & spinach... Let's see..."
Ishita eventually settled for a mango, beet, and apple pureé. She served it into a bowl at the dining table, placing Pihu in her baby chair. Spoon by spoon, she fed the mixture and Pihu gobbled it up.
Towards the end, when the bowl had a couple bites left, Ishita's phone rang.
"Look here! Papa ka phone aaya!"
She put the call on speaker.
"Hello Raman. Lunch time, is it?"
"Yup, maine socha phone kar ke dekhu how my girls are doing."
"We're doing very well. Pihu ma'am is having her lunch."
"What's she having?"
"The phone is on speaker. Ask her yourself."
"Pihu... Kya khaa rahe ho bacche?" Raman asked, changing to a childish tone.
"Main mango aur beet aur apple kha rahi hoon, papa," Ishita cooed on her behalf.
"That's very good princess, very good," Raman chuckled.
Pihu pushed the spoon away and swiveled her head left and right. She could hear papa's voice, but she couldn't see him. Ishita gave her a tender, adoring look.
"Raman, Pihu aapko idhar udhar dhund rahi hai."
"Sorry I'm not home princess. Papa has to work a bit more nowadays."
Raman had been home more often than not for the first six months after Pihu was born, but for the last few weeks, he had to spend more time at the office. Their company had now gained a substantial foothold in the international market, including Tokyo, France, and London. Their Mumbai office was booming as well, and there was talk of opening offices in other cities.
Despite his hesitation to go back to work full-time, he had taken the leap nonetheless. Ishita was at home full-time, and Pihu had a pretty regular schedule now. He had faith that she could handle the home front while he took on the cutthroat business world. But it killed him that he couldn't spend more time with his baby girl.
"Raman, don't get lost in your head," Ishita said, bringing him out of his musings. "You have no reason to feel guilty, okay?"
"Yeah... yeah I know..." Raman replied reluctantly. "It's just-"
"Paa-paa..."
Pihu's first word put a pause on all conversation.
"Did she just-"
"Yeah, I think she did!"
"Pihu, kya kaha aapne?"
"Raman, she just said her first word! Pihu said 'papa'!"
Excitement and disbelief echoed through the parents' voices.
"Pihu, phir se bolo na, papa bolo, paa...paa..." Raman urged.
"Papa..." Pihu pointed to the phone and said, "Papa..."
"Take that madrasan!" Raman chortled. "She really is papa's princess!"
"Kuch bhi." Ishita turned to her baby and tried to steer her in a different direction. "Pihu, mumma bolo, mum-ma..."
Pihu looked up at her mother and gave an open-mouthed smile with four tiny teeth and red pureé smeared across her face. Ishita wiped her face with the bib around Pihu's neck and tried again.
"Say mumma baby." Ishita pointed to herself. "Mum. Maa."
Pihu lifted her arms towards her mother. "Ma-ma..." she babbled.
Ishita gasped. Raman laughed in surprise.
"She said it!" Ishita picked up her baby girl and kissed her all over. "Yes baby! Papa-" She pointed to the phone. "-and Mumma!" She pointed to herself.
"I can't believe I'm not at home to see this!" Raman groaned.
"Then come home soon and you'll hear it for yourself."
I spy with my little tired eye
Tiny as a firefly
A pebble that we picked up last July
As much as he wanted to come home right that second, Raman couldn't leave his office until well after sunset. In fact, it was past ten when he reached home. He creaked the front door open and walked into a dark quiet living room. Rinki, Romi, Adi, and Ruhi were all asleep. After checking on his elder kids, he tiptoed into his bedroom to greet a sight that stole his heart.
Ishita was lying on the bed in a black kurti and white leggings snuggling with their tiny Pihu, who slept peacefully tucked into her mother's side. Pihu's lips parted and she stirred, causing Ishita to pat her gently, attuned to their daughter's responses even in sleep. Raman's face softened with love and adoration.
Down deep inside your pocket
We almost forgot it
Does it ever miss Wicklow sometimes?
He gently placed his sleeping baby into her crib, careful not to wake her up. But the movement was enough to wake up his wife.
"Raman? Is that you?" she whispered groggily, lifting her head up.
"Yeah, it's me. I was just putting Pihu in her crib. Sorry, I didn't mean to wake you up."
"No that's fine. I was actually waiting for you. Pata nahi kaise Pihu ko sulaate sulaate meri aankh lag gayi." Ishita yawned and stood up from the bed. "Aapne khaana khaaya?"
"No, not yet."
"Thik hai, aap fresh ho jaayiye. Main aapke liye khaana lagaati hoon."
They said the end is coming
Everyone's up to something
I find myself running home to your sweet nothings
Before Ishita could leave however, Raman grabbed her elbow and stopped her. "Go back to sleep. You don't have to do this. I'll eat on my own."
"I know I don't have to do it. I want to. Now just go freshen up. I'll warm up your dinner." Ishita gave her husband a quick kiss on the lips before heading out.
Raman smiled despite himself. He took a quick shower and changed into comfortable night clothes before heading outside to find his wife humming in the kitchen. She gestured him to sit down, as she brought him a plateful of rice, dal makhni, and yogurt.
Outside, they're push and shoving
You're in the kitchen humming
All that you ever wanted from me was sweet nothing
Halfway into his dinner, he struck up a conversation.
"Are you still jealous that Pihu's first word was 'papa'?" Raman teased.
Ishita barely suppressed a laugh. "She said 'mumma' like a minute later. You didn't really win a lottery here."
"Oh, I won more than a lottery. Every time we have an argument about Pihu in the future now, I'm going to bring his up."
"Oh dear lord..."
Raman wiped his plate clean and washed his hands, while Ishita put away the leftovers and rinsed the dishes.
On the way home
I wrote a poem
You say, "What a mind"
This happens all the time
"Waise ek baat puchu?" Ishita said.
"Sure, go ahead."
"Why are you so worked up about 'papa' being Pihu's first word?"
"I'm not worked up," Raman lied.
Ishita set down the dishes and wiped her hands before making her husband face her. "Tell me Raman. What's going on?"
"It just... It felt nice knowing Pihu's first word was 'papa.' Even though I've been working so much, she hasn't forgotten me."
'Cause they said the end is coming
Everyone's up to something
I find myself running home to your sweet nothings
Frown lines appeared on Ishita's face at the drop in Raman's eyes. She palmed his cheek and gave him a tender look.
"Why would she forget you? You're her father."
"I was Ruhi's and Adi's father too. And both of them..."
Ishita didn't need Raman to finish that sentence to understand him. He had been absent from his other kids' lives for years on end. Even if it was involuntary, the impact of that couldn't just be undone with the snap of a finger.
Outside, they're push and shoving
You're in the kitchen humming
All that you ever wanted from me was nothing
Ishita brought her hands up and stroked her husband's cheeks, boring into his guilt-ridden eyes with her warm, caring ones.
"You are a great father to all three of your kids. And I'd like to think I'm a good enough mother too. And as a team, we'll always be there for them. Yeah?"
"Yeah." Raman's eyes softened. "You're right. Except for one thing."
"What?"
"You're not just a good mother. You're an amazing mother." He lowered his voice and whispered in her ear. "And an even better wife."
Industry disruptors and soul deconstructors
And smooth-talking hucksters out glad-handing each other
And the voices that implore, "You should be doing more"
To you, I can admit that I'm just too soft for all of it
Raman brought his arms around his woman and nuzzled her hair, as Ishita snaked her hands up his back and rubbed his shoulders in comfort.
In all the noise of the world, all the conflict clawing at him, this woman was his home, his peace, his calm in the storm, his guiding light, his safe haven. This woman was his everything.
They said the end is coming
Everyone's up to something
I find myself running home to your sweet nothings
Outside, they're push and shoving
You're in the kitchen humming
All that you ever wanted from me was sweet nothing
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