BROKEN HEART
He laughed out loud and I started at him.it was curious how on little thing that he did could make my heart skip, now matter how I was hurt . I felt a small smile tug at the corners on my lips as he glanced at me. A glimmer was hidden behind his eyes and my stomach twisted with full of butterflies...
I was waiting for him to come near to me ,If he even wanted to bother. Before I think more , I dreamed . more girls surrounded him laughing ,giggling, talking.. wait what he is doing? he flirting back with the girls...it was like some twisted my heart with knives...
Finally he came near to me and make a conversation with me, his eyes landed on her , he leaved me , he excused me and went near to her. It's hurting me...I wanted him so badly. That was the worst about every thing in this situation. How much I wanted him that everything would be all right. I wanted to be the one that he called at night to talk about his day. I wanted to be the one there for him, but he wouldn't let me.
I sat idly as he spoke with her. The corner was a comfortable place for me .I could hide myself in its darkness and no one would know unless they asked. I took a sip of my orange juice listening to her laugh and touch his arm. He didn't even notice me, did he?
I looked away for a moment take a long breath to calm down myself and again I looked back at them, they behaving like no one around them . I'm the one who heart broken and two of them happy and flirting. what they are doing? My stomach twisted and my eyes filled with tears,I looked down, not sure what I could do to escape this. I loved him, did he love me? Is he know how I respect our relationship ,No he don't know, she knew we are engaged? She was supposed to be one of his colleague. Supposedly, anyway I knew that she wasn't..
I glanced up from my eye lashes again at them. They stood closer then before, holding hands, smiling at each other, he wounded his arms around her wrist and pulled her close to him..omg what was that? what happened between them? did they kissed each other? Yes they did...
At present I had two knives in me, both twisting both cutting deeper and deeper as both people interacted and rubbed their relationship in my face.
CREDIT GOES TO VIJJU...Thank you so much vijju🤗...
I felt like I was an outcast, someone outside of the crowd, some one not worth because they didn't want to give me their time. How could I tell them how I felt when they never gave me the chance? I slid my fingers through my hair excusing myself to the bathroom to recover from the constant blows of seeing them together. Some friends they were, they knew and they had nothing to help me, they did nothing to consider my feelings..
So,I went to the bathroom and sat in the stall , trying to stop the bleeding that those two had caused as they pushed the knives deeper. All I knew was my broken heart and those stab wounds that might heal some day...
If only they would remove the knives and leave me alone...
I shut my eyes, never wanting to see them again ,wishing that these feeling would just leave .I was alone in my own pain,I was losing now, I was losing myself.
"Dreams are temporary...
Not means to be kept
But when the eyes see the light..
when I wake, I know I shall have wept"...
After some time, she opened the door and stepped out to search for him, he was gone . He leave me alone, how can he? he was quickly and subtle and you would see everything only if you were watching. I wasn't watching..so he broke my heart. He knew everything now. He wasn't ignorant about my feeling , about what had had happened and about us. He couldn't pretend that he was obvious b'coz he wasn't...
"Nothing lasts forever..
Neither truth nor life nor love
Incessant is the insight
That rains down from above"
AFTER ONE MONTH..
He tried to blame me..I was the one at fault even though he had been one to change his mind, even though he'd been the one breaking hearts from the start.If only I'd been watching. if I only I'd been looking carefully for the signs. may be I wouldn't have become involved with him if I'd actually looked...
He never called me to discuss our problem. He was avoiding the problem.. he was avoiding the confrontation ,b'coz he knew he was wrong. He refused to admit it, even though the facts were stacked up like air...
I'd thought no one understand what i was going through, I thought no one understand the pain i felt when he looked at her and smiled and they laughed and flirted, kiss.. I didn't think anyone could ever know exactly how i felt...
The stabs wound be began to heal, even if the knives weren't gone. just yet . I could breath again. I couldn't smile again and i mean it. None of that mattered anymore..
"when I go to sleep at night,I pray to the wind that you are safe and well with the hope that I will carry its a ways to you ..
And you will know that someone will love your glass heart for Eternity"..
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Edited by janani_divan - 9 years ago
Anupamaa
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