She cried her heart out when she couldn't adopt a kid before getting married. It was clear in the beginning that her heart always longed for that one kid and after Ruhi came in to her life things changed for good. People continued calling her bhaanj but none of this really affected her as she had Ruhi with her. Then came in her relationship with Adi which was more than bitter to take in but then that relation just grew better with time in to a beautiful one. She felt more than complete yet another time.
Even I was wondering the other day, how come a person who cried so much on the day of Romi's wedding did not shed a tear after her miscarriage but then it was alone within 4 walls. This child was never for her. It was always for Raman Ruhi and family. The loss of her child did leave an impact in their hearts which can never be erased and I still feel there will be an outburst one day. I am not going to speculate anything cos there are too many going on already but Raman's constant pressing for surrogacy would definitely make her spill that loss in the form of tears.
Raman has always been an emotional man who lets out things way too much. He loves Ishitha a little more than what he loves his kids which is pretty transparent. Hence this child mattered to him a little bit more. Had it been any other loss, he would have appeared stronger. It was their miracle child. A child that would wipe away all the names that society had for Ishitha. A child that would make Ishitha truly experience motherhood right from Day 1. A child formed out of true love. A child which would erase all the past that he had with his kids with his Ex. To see the child die from his point of view made it worse. Hearing the name Bhaanj from the person's mouth whom you love to bits is never going to be soothing. Raman wants to take that extra step and make sure no one in their world address Ishitha, his love as bhaanj. Hearing them all over again from the person who was responsible for the mishap made him hysterical and guilt ridden. A guilt that he couldn't protect his wife and unborn child from the cruelties of the world.
Today's episode brought out all of it. His anger when he once again heard someone referring to his wife as bhaanj. Raman and Ishitha's love for one another can never be questioned but it was always felt that Ishitha never really expressed what she felt for him. This episode answered that question. Many thought her life was Ruhi and there was no place for Raman. Even now her life is Ruhi but to see her tell him that it was he who gave her everything is something special. Children, family, himself and love. All she wanted was his love to overcome everything. With his love she is ready to take anything that comes her way even if it is the loss of her child or her ability to not conceive. Such a meaningful confession. An outburst of a different kind. It's his love care and affection that is helping her get over the loss. Feelings related to loss need not be depicted only in the form of tears. There are 1000 other ways and she chose one among them like every other time.
All of this does not mean I am satisfied or happy with the track. An IshRa centered track but dumb lame ridiculous and lousy from all angles. Not one of this is going to justify surrogacy. If Raman really wants her to feel motherhood then surrogacy is not the option. With surrogacy, Ishitha is not going to experience Mood swings, cravings, baby kicks, delivery pain none of it. It is always no for surrogacy.
Also it is always IshRa for me and will always be. There is never Ishitha or Raman. Not sure if I made sense as the episode had too much intensity passion and feels to take in.
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