SS: || Karun ya na Karun?|| Pt9 Pg54 27/09 - Page 19

Ishita sat near the window sill lost in thoughts. She thought was having the thoughts of seeking revenge from Raman somewhere her heart refused to pay heed to her.

Ishita's conscience: Ishita tune aaj bada hi kamal ka kaam kiya yaar. RKB ka chehera dekhne mein kya maza aaya. (Ishita, today you have done an awesome job. RKB's face was worth watching)

Ishita's heart: Ishu tu uski baat mat sun use bas jale hue zakam par namak dalne mein hi khushi hai. Tu meri baat sun band karde yeh natak. Jaa aur Raman se kah ki tu ab gussa nahi hai. Usse batade ki ab tujhe apni purani yaadein bulake nayi zindagi jeena hai. Bolde use jaake ki u actually meant those three words u uttered in the class. (Ishu you don't listen to her. She only knows to rub salt on your wound. You listen to me, stop all this drama, go and say to Raman that you are not angry, that you want to forget the past and live a new life go and tell him that you actually meant those three words you uttered in the class.)

Ishita C: Nahi ishita he has hurt you way too much. So what if you both were kids you deserve to be apologized. If he is still stuck in his ego let it be. Show him that you are no more sulking over that matter. Don't let him make you a scapegoat this time. By the way I don't think he even knows who I am. Else by now there would be different story taking place.

Ishita's heart: But Ishu don't you think even you were at fault that time. He was not the only one who has hurt you. You have equally hurt him. Go and tell him who you are and forgive him.

Ishita tired of having a split personality disorder's talk in her brain bit them off her mind.

"Will you both shut up and let me sulk instead of listening to you guys. I really want peace now. The first day of college itself I have pulled the Satan behind my back. At least you guys spare me for now!" Saying she goes to her bed.

Opening her diary she pens down something, which she is scared to voice out loudly.

"Aaj jab saare log mujhe dekh rahe the meri aankhe usi ko dekh rahi thi. (When everyone's eyes was on me, my eyes were looking at him) I know what happened in the past I cannot change then why am I acting as if everything is over. Mera pyaar kya itna kamzoor hai ki mein itna gir gayi us se badla is tarah lun. (Is my love so weak that I fell down to seek revenge) But what can I do when he is the only one whose attention I want. He adores everyone but me. When he came to me proposing I actually thought he recognized me. I thought maybe he forgave me and proposed to me but looks like I was wrong. Maybe I shouldn't have forgiven him because this time his proposal was a mere act. He did it to prove his friends that he can make me go on my knees and he would have won also if I did not see the smirks being passed behind him. Alas, poor my RKB he got slapped. Ouch! Anyway, I really wish I get my RKB back and hope he forgets those bitter memories of our childhood.

I still love u and adore RKB but I will wait. I wont give into your ego this time.

Yours

Boo"

Closing her diary ishita slips into deep slumber after the whole hula-hupla of the day.

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Raman's Adda

Raman knew he had lost today. First time someone had actually made Raman lose. Uff that was something which deserves a noble price. Anyway Raman was really in no mood of leaving his sweet neighbor (sarcasm intended) free. He knew how to get back to her and was ready with a plan already because he was Raman. However, there was something, which stopped him from executing it, it was his favorite cute friend Boo. Actually it was Ishita but sweetly called as Boo by him. Her smile could take away all his pain and she would calm him even though physically not being present.

"I wish you were here Boo. I miss you. I so want to say sorry to you for what I did. Please come back into my life. By the way do you know there is a girl next to my house her name is also Ishita. When I first saw her I really thought it was you. I thought I had found you at last. She looks just like you but in a bigger version. That was the reason I went to propose her. But I don't know why in the end moment messed up the words so badly that I ended up getting a slap. Anyhow, I got to know that moment its not you because you would have recognised me. How can you forget your RKB. Please come back! Im sorry! "

Two souls known to each other slept thinking about their pasts. A past filled with dark secrets, something unknown to everyone except the two.

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Over to Gaya di! Karo jo karna hai