Hi My Lovable Readers...
I'm back with another update...
This one is straight from my heart...
It is an emotional Update... Sorry My Update may reflect you my mood...
I wrote this one... Just to get myself out of some emotional Turmoil...
Hope you find this Apt...
Though not written in best of moods...
When i read it, I liked it...
Hope you too will...
It is an emotional Update...Sorry for that...😳 Kaan Pakad ke...
Part VI
Unique Love : Ishra
Do You Hate Me??
-Shravs😳😳
"Mummaa..."
"Haan... Beta,..."
"Mummaa... Papa humse Pyaar nahi karte ab... Bas Tammana se pyaar karte hai kya..."
"Naa beta Aise nahi kehta... papa toh bohot pyaar karte hai... tum dono se... Usdin yaad hai papa ne tumhe apne hathon se khilaya... Haath mein chot lag gyi thi toh..."
"Nahi Ishima... Adi Bhaiyya tekh keh rhe hai... Papa... Tamanna se hi jyada pyaar kerte hai.."
"Naa Bittu aise koyi baat nahi hai... Ru tumhe woh story yaad hai.. Jahan Yeh moral milta hai ki bachche jitney bhi ho mumma papa ke liye sab ek saman hai..."
"Mummaa... Papa hume kyun dant the hai fir... Aaj bhi faltu chillaye... Hug hi toh kiya apko..."
"Nahi beta... Papa bas concerned ho gye the... Papa ko doctor ne us cheej ke liye danta tha.. Kyun ki maine complaint kiya papa ke tight hug ke bare mein doctor ko..."
"Hawww... Ishima... Papa ko doctor ne danta..."
Being Small Ruhi immediately drifted her attention to the other topic... Ishita was Happy about it... But Adi still wasn't convinced.. He wasn't able to digest his father's reaction... After Ruhi had slept off ... Adi had asked her again... the same...
"Beta... Papa bas over concerned hai... kyun ki... Papa ko doctor ne kaha hai ki... main aur Tamanna bohot najuk hai filhal... Sorry beta... papa ke taraf se Mumma mafi mangti hai... Papa aur main... hum dono ke liye tum teeno bachche ek hi hai beta... Koyi faraq nahi hai... Teeno humare akhon ke taren hai beta..."
"Papa fir se datenge nahi naa... Aajkal unse baat karne se bhi darr lagta hai... woh ek hi cheez bolte hen... Ishima ko tang mat karna... Unka khayal rakhna... Mummaaa... main apka hamesha dhyaan rakhta hu naa..."
"Haan... bachcha... Papa aapse isiliye kehte hai... kyun ki he doesn't trust anyone else ki, unke adi se jyada aur koyi achchese Apne mumma ka khayal nahi rakhega..."
"Parr..."
"Beta... Papa ne kabhi Ruhi aur apke beech faraq kiya hai..."
"Nahi..."
"Fir apko yeh kyun lagta hai... woh... tum teeno ke beech karenge beta..."
"hmmm,,..."
"Main Janti hoon... Aap ab tak convinced nahi ho... hain naa beta..."
"Mummaa... Apko pata hai main Ishima kyun nahi bolta... kyun ki mujhe woh kehne se alag lagte ho aap... Main Apko mere maa ka hi darja deta hoon..."
"Main jaanti hoon beta App kyakehna chahte ho... You trust your Mumma.. right...??"
"Haan mumma... Khud se jyada..."
"Fir Yeh abse kabhi mat sochna ki apke mummy papa apse kaam pyaar karte hain... Aapko sabse jyada pyaar karte hai beta... Especially Aap papa ke dil ke bohot karib ho...Papa ko pehli baar papa keheke pukarne wale tum ho beta..."
"hmmm... Sorry..."
"Nahi beta... Main Sorry bolna chahti hoon... Kabhi kabhi ghar pe jo chote hote hai naa beta unko jyada attention mil jata hai... Ab bhi dekhlo... Ruhi ko log bachche ke taur pe dekhte hai... Par ek baat kahun... mere aur Papa ke liye... tum dono... sau baras ke bhi ho jao naa... bachcha hi rahoge beta..."
Adi Hugged her Tight...
"Oopss Sorry... Tamanna Bhaiyya is sorry,... Did I hurt you...??"
"Tamanna is saying she is alright... And said to hug her also..."
Adi had slept off in her Lap... but Ishita had not felt good. After knowing what was there in his mind... Though he didn't tell her directly...
Present Day...
It was Sunday Morning ...Ishita blinked her eyes... Standing through the window.. It was raining heavely...As if even the climate is giving her a competition... ... That was that black day of her life... Tears weren't stopping... She had lost her First conceived Child the same day... The Child which was so dear to her for some unknown reasons...The kid which gave her a feeling of Completeness... The child which was born as a Love Sign... The Child which was loved more than anything by the father... The dreams which she had for that girl child... Yes it was a girl child as Raman wished it to be... Tamanna... Tamanna even before coming into this world was connected in so many ways to their life... Ishita was guilty, what Raman had said her, has actually come true... Because of her carelessness... It has all happened because of her... She didn't take care of her own child who was totally her responsibility...
She touched her Stomach... Mouthed a Sorry... which was the only thing, she could do... Only Raman had seen that child... Lifted her up... Kissed her... hugged her... Had her to himself and had cried out loud... She was so unfortunate that she couldn't even see her first born... She couldn't even touch her own flesh... She couldn't lift her... She was not capable to be a Mom... That's what she thought...
FlashBack...
Raman hadn't come to see her even once... It was already a week... She was to be discharged that day... Romi and Mihika came to pick her up... It was a hopeless wish that Raman would turn up... Adi and Ruhi had come to meet her... They were in a bad condition so, she didn't know whom to ask about him... Mustering some confidance she asked Mihika...
"Mihika... Raman tekh hai naa??"
"haa..."
Mihika didn't know what to say more... neither did Ishita probe... She got her answer as Mihika's facial expressions changed as she asked her about him... Her Amma was angry on her too... She didn't come to see her as Raman did...
She hadn't imagined the day she will step after her delivery would be like this... She would be crying... She didn't think her hands would be empty... She didn't know the happiest day would turn upside down and it would become the saddest day... She was fragile when she stepped out of the Car... Mihika held her... She walked into her home to see that as calm as a graveyard would be... Her Mummyji wasn't there, If she would have come with a kid.. She would have been her taking her aarti... Her Papaji... whom always use to be by her side... was sitting in the sofa... Who didn't even muster courage to look at her... He didn't call her inside... he didn't say her come in... he didn't acknowledge her for the first time in her married life... Romi kept the things on the table... Simmi came to her asked her if she was okay... She wanted to see her mummy ji first so she directly went to meet her...
"Mummyji..."
"Aagayi Puttar..."
"Ji... Mummyji ... I am sorry...Main.. yeh sab ..."
"Naa Puttar Khud ko dosh naa de... Teri galti nahi hai Ishita... Bas us bachche ne sabnu inne sapne de diye ki bhula nahi paa rhe hai..."
With that Ishita started crying her heart out... Mouthing Sorry... Toshiji joined her tooShe cried her heart out... Ishita felt week... Almost fainted when Toshiji made her sleep... On her lap...
She opened her eyes... It was dark through out... She say a hand on her... It was of Adi... She brushed his hairs... Kissed him... Tried to read the clock... Putting his hands down...she tried to get up... She felt weak... But then somehow got herself on her knees... They somehow managed get her up... The passage light gave her way towards the Stairs from were she had fallen down... Her Blood was still there in the Wall adjacent to the stair... It remainded her that fateful day... She somehow briushed her thoughts only wishing to see her husband...
Raman was sitting on the cough, with the last sonography report... His eyes were closed, he had slept off... His tears strickened face showed her he is still not recovered as her... He looked so dull... She again felt guiltier... She didn't know if he was mad on her... She tried to make him sleep comfortably when he opened his eyes...
Silence was all around them... They didn't know what the other was thinking...She let go off her hands that was holding on to him... He straightened himself... Looked at her... His eyes softened... But then after looking at that sonegraphy report he had on his hands... He couldn't feel her, her loss, her medical conditions... Nothing all he could see in her was The careless Mother...She could read these from the changing expressions of his face... He didn't say her anything...Slept on Couch turning his back to her...
It was more than a week's time... He had stopped talking to her... and Her Mother had not spoken to her... She had tried explaining her... HShe started feeling guiltier than before... Her Mummyji and Papaji and all her dear ones at her house had come to encourage her... But the two people she wanted by her side the most haven't turned up to her...
She started to get back to her normal life Which irked Raman further... He made sure that Adi and Ruhi were his responsibility... He tried doing as much as things possible to them... Right from waking them up to Sending them school with papaji or dropping them by himself... He was Making it worse for her... Toshiji couldn't see this, As Ishita's health was detoriating... She tried to put some sense on her son's brain... But He shouted at her, cried his heart out to her, at his broken dream... Shattered dream...which was heard by Ishita and she Fainted...
She opened her eyes once again to see herself comfortably laid down on the bed... She turned his side to check if he is there...He wasn't there... She turned to the Couch to see if he was there... She couldn't find him... She found the door open... She stood up to talk it out to him...
She searched him all possible places at the house... when she couldn't find him... She searched only one place she thought her Ravan Kumar could be at...
He was there again with her last report...Rested his head back... eyes closed ... tears tricking down... He was sitting there...
"Raman"
After 2 weeks she had called him... He flung open his eyes...
"..."
He just saw her with void expressions...
"Main..."
"Tamanna puri tumhare hi jaise dikh rhi thi... Uski akhen, uske haath , uske pair chote chote... Uske kaan , naak... sab kuch tumhare jaise tha Ishita... Ittu sit hi... mere haath mein achese fit hogayi thi ...uske chote chote baal the Ishita ...Bohot sundar thi...Maine jab utaya tab aise laga hi nahi ki woh..."
"Raman Please..."
"Kyun Sun nahi Paa rhi ho... Ishita... Uske saath maine teen ghante bitaye hain... Meri Tamanna...kyun Ishita..."
She didn't know what he was asking...She didn't want to know what he was asking... All her reply was...
"Sorry Raman...Meri..."
"Tumhari Galti... TUmhari Galti hai... Ishita... kitne baar tumse maine kaha hai... upar ke kamre mein mat jaya karo... Neeche romi ke kamre main shift ho jate hen... warna main romi ko those dino ke liye updar bhej deta hoon... Kyun meri ek baat nahi suni tumne..."
"Raman usdin main jab neeche aa rhi thi carefully aa rhi thi... Ud.."
"You are Most Careless woman in the world... Careless Mother... Khud ke bachche ka khayal nahi rakh payi... aur kiska khayal rakhegi..."
He shouted at top his voice... Ishita couldn't say anything... Started Crying...All she could say was...
"Wohh meri bhi beti thi Raman... Maine usse 8 mahine apne andar mehsoos kiya hai... Main uski maa hu Raman...Aap aise kaise keh sakte hai ... Jo kuch bhi hua ek hadsa tha..."
Ishita said between her sobs...
"Itna hi tha toh mujhe bhi mrne dete ... Kya jarurat thi Raman... Mujhe Bachane ki..."
She sobbed... Saying why you saved me she fainted again...He took her to the clinic, to get her tested as she was frequently fainting...Toshiji also had told him that she is bleeding a lot...He had bought her back to home.. She didn't know what doctor had told him...But he cared for her health...he asked her for the first time if she was feeling better and she had just Nodded surprisingly...
Two days had just been normal...He hadn't been her same old Ravan Kumar but he was neither the one he was some days back... He was trying to be normal...He had not stopped her from doing anything to Adi and Ruhi as well...
It was three days after, it was her Birthday... Adi and Ruhi made him organize a party... Though Ishita wasn't happy but put up a smiling face Through out the party...Raman had requested Amma to talk to her...She had just wished for her birthday... but then refused to talk to her as before.. As she couldn't see what her Son was going through because of her carelessness...After the party was over After putting Ruhi and Adi to sleep , she had headed to her room to see her husband sitting on the bed...
After that incident he hadn't shared that bed with her...She thought may be he was giving her a hint to sleep in the couch, she took the pillow and duvet from cupboard to proceed to Couch, when he called her..
"Kahan Jaa rhi ho... Sona nahi hai...??"
"Mujhe laga Aap bistar pe sona chahte hai.. toh main couch pe..."
"Kyun mere saath ab bistar bhi share nahi karna..."
"Mujhe laga App.. mere saath..."
"Happy birthday Ishita...Main Amma ko jab samjha rha tha tab hi main samjh paya...Koyi bhi Maa apne bachche ke saath yeh nahi kar skti...main galat tha... pagal tha...Khud se gussa tha sau tumpe utaar diya...Mujhe tumhare hisse ka dard nazar nahi aaya Ishita...Ek baap ne beti khoyi hai toh ek maa ne bhi apni beti khoyi hai... Main Pagal Tha Ishita...Wohh.. Main us situation pe react nahi kar paya... main tumhare aur mere beti ke beech kho gya kahin...Bhul gya ki tumne mere liye is ghar ke liye Adi Ruhi ke liye... sab ke liye kya kya kiya hai...Tum Toh Ishima ho...Aur tumhe hi Main..."
"Raman...Main kuch bolnaa chahti hoon..."
"Hmmm.."
"Usdin ready hoke jab main aa rhi thi toh mere slippers mein bohot uncomfortable thi.. toh jab main room se bahar nikli toh.. maine apne slippers nikal diye... par mujhe pata nahi tha ki mere kismet mein niche girna hi.. likha tha... Stairs mein main fisal gyi... Uske baad mujhe kuch bhi yaad nahi hai Raman... Maine jab Aakhen kholi toh main khud ko hospital main dekhi...Haath phera pet main toh...Udhar kuch nahi tha.. Mujhe laga Bachcha apke saath hoga... Aas paas koyi bhi nahi the Raman... Shaam ke saath baje tak mujhse milne bhi aap mein se koyi nahi aaya... I felt terrible... Phir Mujhe nurse se pata chala ki meri beti huyi hai... Unhone mujhe yeh nai bataya ki wohh kahaan hai... chale gyi isse pehle ki main puchti... Raat ko mujhe Chaathi main bohot dard hua... Nurse ne mujhe mere bachche ko feed karne je liye kaha... Maine kaha main apne bachche se mili hi nhai abhi tak... Tab doctor mujhe injection dene aayi.. toh unhone bataya mujhe ji meri beti... .. I felt terrible Raman... Kisi bhi ek insaan ko is ghar se aise nahi laga ki mere saath hona chahiye..."
"Ishitaaa..."
"Nahi Raman...Amma bhi...Agar Raman Mummyji nahi hoti naa shayad main khud ko Khatam kar deti..."
Raman couldn't take that from her... Hugged her tight... She hugged him even more tightly...
"I felt as an unwanted creature Raman..."
"Chup...Mere hote huye aise kabhi mat kehna...You are the Most wanted person in this house...
Ek din tum kaam naa karo toh pura ghar tais tais ho jata hai... pagal aurat... Ab aur tamasha karna hai yaa... mujhse birthday gift bhi lena hai..."
He said to lighten up the situation...
"Haan Mujhe Gift Chahiye... Par wohh nahi jo Aap dena chahte ho... wohh jo main apse chahti hoon.."
"KYaa chahiye... batao..."
"Simmi aur abhi ki jo shaadi rukh gyi hai... usse karwa dijiye please..."
His expression showed her how surprised he was at her...he showed a exclaimed face...but nodded...
Soon Simmi's Marriage took place...They had booked an Resort Honeymoon Suite for the couple...Where Toshiji had insisted Raman also to take Ishita to the same...For a Change he had Obeyed his Mother... As he was also missing their Romance...
Soon they got to the resot... Both the couple had their respective dinners and Simmi and Abhi Made their way up... and Ishra made their way to their room...
"KYaa ghusur pusur kar rhi thi Simmi se..."
"Wohh..."
Ishita chuckled...
"Kya wohhh??"
"Wohh Tips Mang rhi thi.."
"KYa Tips..."
"Itch... Raman..."
"Kya..."
"Arey samjhona..."
"Kya samjhun..."
"Aap naa samajh ban rhe ho... jao... mujhe nahi samjhana... samjhne wale ko ishara kafi hota hai..."
"Achcha...Toh Tu sabse badi Naa samjh hai..."
"Kyun..."
"Tabse koshish kar rha tha, ki un dodno ko akela chod den... par nahi madam ko toh chipakna tha unse..."
"Mujhe laga aap mujhe..."
"kya..."
"wohhh kuch nahi..."
She gulped her words down...He wasn't romancing her anymore...She had to accept that fact but from the time they had come here, he had tried to close their difference as she couldn't keep herself from the urges, she had been the kabab mein haddi in Mani and Simmi's romance...
Soon They reached Their Room... He shut the door close... And she straight went to the balcony.. where the cool breeze was having an havoc sense on her...She took heavy breaths...Raman had come behind her by the time she acknowledged his presence... He hugged her tight from behind..
"Kyun Madrasan...Mujhse bhaag rhu hai kya..???"
"hmmm..."
She couldn't utter a word at his proximity...He started whispering near her earlobe making her weaker on her knees...
"Kya hua Madrasan Bolti band hogayi...kyun??"
She tried to gain her voice... which was lost somewhere...
"Raaman..."
"Kyaaa,,,..."
"I love you..."
"Pagal Madrasan... Pati ko aise nahi kehte I Love You... Aise kehte hai..."
Saying so he kissed her...that which started as a mere peck from his side deepened into a soul searing kiss...As they started to shed their Inhebitions , Hurts , sorrows and distance...They Become one again...Not to apart... Though the destiny had written something entirely different...Raman had slept in peace after many days having his madrasan for himself and support...and Ishita with the thought that everything has become normal once again... Little did both of them know...what the fate had written on their destiny for coming years...
To be Continued...😳😳
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