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"Aapki coffee..'' She put the cup on the table without looking at him and turned to leave.
"Ruko.." He noticed her not so happy face.
She turned around hearing his voice,''Hmmm..?''
"Hmm kya.. " He asked grabbing her hand and pulling her towards him to make her sit, "Abhi bhi naraaz ho? Sorry bola toh maine yaar... baat toh karo" He said with a gesture of disappointment.
"Raman baat sorry ki nahi hai..", She sighed and settled herself on bed facing him,'' main gussa nahin hoon aapse, pehle bhi nahin thi.. ho bhi nahin sakti.. bas concern hoon.. Fikar hoti hai mujhe.. "
"Fikar?" He asked
"Raman aap mujh pe chillaye, apna gussa dikhaya, koi dikkat nahin.. Insaan jab gussa hota hai toh woh sabse pehle apne sabse kareebi pe hi nikalta hai.. kyun ki use pata hota hai ki saamne wala agar uska pyar samjh sakta hai toh uska anger, uski frustation bhi face kar sakta hai.. Gussa dikhaate ho, chillate ho, jo mann aaye keh dete ho, toh problems share kyun nahin karte? Sirf gussa karoge aur kuch bataoge nahin toh problems badhengi na, rishte bigad jaate hain Raman..
Raman aapka chehra dekh ke main yeh pata kar sakti hun ki aapka mood kharab hai.. par Kyun kharaab hai yeh toh aap hi bata sakte ho na..Bas itna sa expect karti hoon aapse aapke gusse ke saath... Agar iss baat ki surity dila do na aap mujhe ki har problem aap share karoge mere sath toh Aapka yeh gussa sar aankhon pe rakhungi main..
Aur Raman ek baat aur... Aapke anger issues, sirf yeh ishu tak seemit rehne do please.. use humare bachon pe ya kisi aur tak na jaane do... Raman dekha na subah, kitni buri tarah se aap Ruhi pe chillaye.. Kitna dar gayi thi woh... Aapka gussa main samajh sakti hoon Raman, woh choti si jaan nahin.. woh yeh sab tolerate nahin kar sakti... Aap usse kitna pyar karte ho ismein koi do raaye nahin, par aise chillaoge jahan usne koi galti jaan boojh ke nahin ki toh woh doori bana legi aapse Raman.. Woh daregi ki aapse kuch kehte, ya aapse kuch share karte.. Aur jiss rishte mein hum khul ke apni baat na keh paayen woh naatak ban jata hai.. kuch real nahin lagta phir..aur main yeh kabhi nahin chahungi ki Ruhi ko ya Adi ko aapse kuch kehte jhijhak ho...Raman bache hain woh, woh hum jitna deep nahin soch sakte.. Mai bas yahi chahti hun ki future mein koi bhi problem ho toh thoda apne gusse pe kaaboo karna.. na ho sake toh call me from wherever u r.. or just come to me, cheekho, chiallao, daanto, ya jo mann aaye karo, par end of the day aapki problem mujhe pata honi chahiye.. Problems jitni apne ander rakhoge utna woh aapkko ander se khaali karti jayengi ,Share karo mere sath, chahe solution na de paun par atleast aapka mann halka hua hai iss baat ki tasalli toh hogi mujhe.. Thats all i want..mujhe aur kuch nahin kehna.."
''Ishita...'' He felt like something huge was stuck in his throat.
"Kuch kehne ki zaroorat nahin hai Raman.. har baat ka jawaab dena zaroori nahin hota.. Itna toh aapko jaan hi gayi hoon ki yeh jaan sakun ki aap meri baat samajh gaye hain.." She smiled and moved herself closer to him.
Leaning over and layed her head on his shoulder,'' Main hoon apke paas, aapke sath Hamesha.."
"Thank you!!'' He murmmered taking her into his arms.
''Thanks to YOU, mera lecture sunne ke liye" She said in sweetest tone looking upon him making him chuckle.
Putting all the weight of her on him, she just tighten the hug closing her eyes. Enjoying the serene silence, he also closed his eyes making themselves more comfortable in each other's arms.
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Felt like putting my thoughts into words, so i penned down this after watching todays episode. Feeling good now LOL!!
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