Ishra Memories 1 - FF Updated Chp 35 Page 124 24/05/2015 - Page 39

Chapter: 27

Adi asked them to stop fighting as they were constantly taunting each other Ruhi told them bhai don't worry that is how they show love to each other. IshRa got embarrassed by Ruhi declaration and sent their kids out of their room. Once they settled their kids giving them homework to finish they left to meet Sarika.

Sarika hugged Ishita when they entered her house Ishita asked how come aunty is not coming out of the room. Sarika told them her mom has passed away last month due to heart attack. Ishita got worried and asked her how was she managing? Why didn't she call them? Can they do anything for her now? Sarika told her relax take a breath. I am okay now. I have a job so I can manage my needs. I do need advice from you guys as I don't have elders at my home that is why I called you.

Raman says to her do tell your problem if we can help you with we will. Then Sarika tells them the whole flashback of how Romi approached her and asked to marry her. Finally she says to them she is not sure what to do now.

IshRa were listening to her silently once she finished Raman tells to her in this we cannot give you any advice as we are directly related in this matter but I can give you some clarification of how your life will be if you decide to accept Romi. I am not sure whether once your marriage happens to Romi will he fall in love with you but I can tell you with certainty he won't cheat on you. We both will love you just like now as a family. My papa, Rinki and Simmi will accept you with you respect but I am not sure whether they will love you. I am not sure about mummyji how will she react but the whole family will love your child. The child will get both the parents and loving family so think about your decision weighing pros and cons no matter what you decide we will stick by you.

Ishita tells her that I will call you every day to check on you if you need anything no matter how late in the day do give me a call so saying they leave her house.

Raman takes her to the Murgan temple where he prayed for his madrasan to be with him for all his seven lives. Raman parks the car they go inside the temple instead of going to do the puja Raman takes her to a secluded corner Ishita is wondering why Raman bought her here.

Raman doesn't speak to her instead he closes his eyes praying to Mata Rani and Murgan to give him strength to talk with her.

Ishita - Raman what happened why are we here?

Raman - I am really sorry for what I did Ishita will you ever forgive me?

I - Raman I don't understand what you are saying

R - (Takes a deep breath) I am sorry for misbehaving with you.

I - You always do and I do the same to you it is always tit for tat between us so why are you asking forgiveness all of a sudden

R - (Glad that she doesn't remember what incident he is talking about exhales deeply) I am talking about the night when I was appointed as the new head of Asia business council.

I - (becomes very quiet suddenly remembering that day) what do you want me to say to you Raman?

R - Ishita please can you tell me the truth are you afraid of me?

I - I am not afraid of you. What gave you the idea?

R - The nightmares you had when you had your fever and how you were recalling everything Param did to you at that point I realized me and him are no different we behaved rashly towards you and how it must have affected you. Ishita I promise you I will never force on you ever again. I won't touch you casually also if you don't like it. (He is waiting with anguished and guilt ridden eyes looking at her)

I - (entwines her hand with his) Raman you and Param are not same. You would have stopped if I had forcefully asked you to stop but not him so please don't compare him with you.

R - How can you be so sure if you have not gone out from the room or if I was not fully drunk and lost conscious I don't know what would have happened that day?

I - Raman I have complete trust in you even if I hadn't gone from the room you would not have completed what you started because after few minutes you would have realized what you were going to do?

R - (Marvelous at the trust she has on him and self-promises himself that he will not to break her trust here afterwards) Thank you for trusting me.

I - Raman I would like to know one thing that has been bothering me from that time? Will you answer to me?

R - Ask anything you wish I will try to answer

I - I know you acted that way because you were jealous of Mani and you wanted to keep your family intact but did you not have any faith or trust in me?

R - Ishita it is not about trusting you but it was my own insecurity that acted up. Shagun used to meet Ashok behind my back hiding things from me. She changed Ashok name to Anu on the phone. He was richer than me at that time there were lot of similarities with the situation you were in that time. I thought history was repeating itself in mind even when my heart said it is foolish to entertain these sorts of ideas you are not Shagun and you would never leave me but when I came to your office you went out with Mani telling lies to everyone that you are going to work. You changed the name of the phone to Manisha from Mani. Shagun added fuel to my insecurities by stating that nobody will stay with me as everyone looks for a better future. When finally I had the courage to come outright to ask you I heard you telling to Mani that he was your hero and you will go with him leaving your husband and kids that is when I broke down literally. I was afraid to let you go because you became an important person in life so I thought if I could make you mine by force you will still stay with me. I was so confused, jealous and insecure at that time I don't even remember half of what I did that day.

I - I am sorry too Raman for putting you through so much insecurity but I wanted to give you a surprise so that you don't have any tension on your big day. If you had just stayed for few more minutes you would have heard Mani telling me stop Joking Ishu I know you never would leave them. I also did not think my friendship with Mani would affect you so much as you were okay with my relationship with my Jiju as it is always more than that and you were okay with that relationship.

R - I know from before to that you shared a different bond with Bala which I understood. On some level I understood your relationship with Mani that time as well but my jealousy got the better of me at that time.

I - I am sorry I purposely ignited the jealousy at that time as well as I wanted to see whether you cared for me as a person or just Ruhi Ishima

R - Why would you do that?

I - You also became an important person in my life. I wanted to know whether I mattered to you.

R - (Laughs) we both have been the biggest fools we could have avoided all this if we have left our egos long back and talked to each other.

I - (Laughs) Yeah but I do have one grievance from that day.

R - Tell me what is it?

I - I was dreaming that you will fill my forehead with sindoor after you came to know the whole truth and accept me as your wife instead of Ruhi Ishima but instead I got the shock of my life that day.

R - I am truly sorry Ishita but do tell me whether my touch repulses you?

I - No Raman it does not bother me why are you asking this again?

R - Then why do you always run away from me when I try to be close to you?

I - (Blushes) Raman have you heard of shyness I have never been intimate with anyone before so I always feel shy

R - (Smiling happily) so when I touch you it doesn't remind you of your nightmares with Param

I - I don't know Raman why you keep bringing that name or what I told you in my fever but whenever you are near me I can never think about anyone else.

R - I am sorry Ishita I could not protect you from that man or from myself on that horrible day but I promise to make everything better for you hear onwards.

Raman gives her his hand they go inside the temple to do the puja when the priest brings in the prasad he takes it and in front of the idol he says to her no matter what happened in the past we will leave the past behind and from today we will start a new future.

Raman says to her I will fulfill one of your wish today he applies the sindoor on her forehead saying I am doing this with my right as you husband and you have every right with me as my wife from this point onwards we are not anymore Ruhi parents only but we are partners in life. Ishita is happy hearing Raman words. They entwine their hands and move towards a new beginning in their life.

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