Chapter 4
Raman drove towards the police station. Anger boiled inside him and all he knew was that he had to get that man punished. He had to see Subbu behind bars to have some peace back. Ishita's face when he had found her replayed in his mind. He flinch d a bit as he remembered her scared face when he touched her. He remembered the painful scream when Ruhi had tried to hug her in the morning. Yes, she was putting on a brave face. She was acting normal since the morning incident, but, Raman knew how good she was at masking her emotions. She would never show her pain to anyone. A deceitful smile always stayed on her lips to convince everyone that she was okay
She would do that as a child too. Raman remembered how once him and Shagun had planned for an ice cream party. They were really excited about it. Ishita wasn't well, but pulled along just to make her friends happy. At the parlour, she had refused to have anything and Raman and Shagun had been really angry. They thought she was being a spoil sport. Just to satisfy them, she had eaten ice cream that evening. She smiled and said that she was only kidding. Who wouldn't want to gorge on ice cream? The friends had laughed and had fun. The next morning, Raman and Shagun waited for her to show up to go to school. That's when Appa had told them to proceed as Ishita wouldn't be able to go. She had been running a high temperature since last night. Raman and Shagun had felt really guilty that day.
Raman managed to wipe a drop of tear that formed in the corner of his eye as he parked the car at the police station. Ishita was staring ahead, lost in thoughts, her face pale and white. He knew she was thinking about the incident. But, he couldnt let her go weak. He wanted her to be strong. Yes, she would have to recall the whole incident again once they were inside, but, doing this was for her well being.
He slowly got out of the car and walked towards her side. He opened the door for her to come out. She wouldn't move. He called out to her, but, she still didn't move. Her then carefully shook her a bit to bring her out of her thoughts.
Ishita snapped out and looked around. They were at the police station already and Raman was holding the door open for her to get out. She did so and saw him open the door to the rear seat to pick up a bag. "What's that Raman?", she asked curiously. "Umm.. These are your clothes from yesterday, Ishu. The police might need it to gather evidence.", he replied.
As they sat in, waiting for their turn, Raman noticed a young boy, in his teens sitting across him with his parents. He was shivering and scared. Tears made way through his eyes and his eyes showed fear. His mother was hugging him tight and crying too. He heard the father talking to the police inspector about what was wrong. He said that his son was physically assaulted and raped in school. That his teacher was the culprit. His son had been behaving strangely. The ever so happy child had suddenly become quiet and scared. The inspector dismissed the fAther and said that his son might have had some tiff with a friend. Or that the teacher must have punished him. Moreover, men don't get raped. He asked the father to take his son to a psychiatrist. The father walked away defeated.
Raman shook his head in disbelief. What was happening ? Why were people behaving like animals? And someone getting raped in school? Isn't school supposed to be a safe place for children? Aren't schools supposed to be the temple of knowledge? And the police.. Weren't they supposed to be helping the people? Weren't they supposed to be the protectors? That's when the inspector called them For their complaint.
Ishita recounted the incident that happened last night. At the end of it, the cop just chuckled. "Kya madam.. Gharelu jhagda idhar nai laneka. You think we are that free to solve your petty issues? Solve this at home. Why involve the police." He smirked. That's when Raman lost his cool. Here, someone was telling that they had been assaulted. That they had been tortured and this man was not doing anything to help them. Rather, he sat there making fun of them. Raman got up from his seat and towered over the cop. "What do you think of yourself?huh? You think its easy, sitting there and telling how they have been troubled? You think its easy to recall the pain they went through? I have seen the pain and fear in her eyes." Raman shouted. The inspector lost his temper too. "Are tu hai kon? Iska aashiq? Ghar wale toh sathme aye nai. Tu kon bada aya." He yelled back [Oh why the hell are you? Her boyfriend? Her family hasn't come to support her, then who the hell are you?]
Raman pulled out the phone from his pocket and dialled a number. "Who am I? Wait i'll show you who I am!" he said. The commissioner picked up the phone. Raman told him the incident that had happened here. He also told him about the boy's case that the inspector refused to take. The complaint was then registered in no time and Raman drove ishita home.
A couple of nights Later, Raman went to Ruhi's room to check both of them. Ishita would behave normally when Ruhi was around. She played with her and also helped her with homework. She fed her and told her stories as well while putting her to sleep. But, Raman had seen how she would occasionally go into trance. She would come back on hearing Ruhi's voice. He could still see the hurt in her eyes. He had let her mix up with Ruhi because she would forget her pain and genuinely smile at that time. He could do anything to return that smile permanently on her face.
Ruhi was fast asleep, cuddling her favourite teddy. He looked around the room for her and saw her sitting in the balcony. She was sitting with her head in her hands, supported by elbows on her legs and raman knew she was in agony. He walked towards her and settled down next to her on the floor. "Ishu" he whispered. She looked up to see him.
Ishita had been suffering for the past few days. She couldn't eat, couldn't sleep. All that her mind kept replaying was Subbu and how he had tried to force her. She would constantly hear her own shouts when Subbu forced himself in. She could constantly see those hungry eyes as soon as she tried to sleep. She would see his sadistic grin and wince at the pain she felt over and over when she replayed in her mind that horrific incident.
The only thing that kept her sane in the last few days was Raman and Ruhi. They were trying their best to make her comfortable. She was depressed that her Amma and Appa were not beside her to support her. Her sisters also didn't happen to talk to her. She did get a call from Mihika once but, as soon as they started talking, she heard Amma come from behind and snatch the phone. That left Ishita broken further. She had been thinking of how drastically her life had changed. And when she heard Raman call out to her that night, she just let go. She sobbed and sobbed. Raman slowly put his arms around her ah she held his kurta tight as though her life depended on it.
"Why.. Why did he do this Raman? He.. He just showed no mercy.. As soon as he took me in the room, he tore off the dress Raman. I could see lust and hunger in his eyes. He was grinning like i was his prey. He then pushed me on the bed and.. And..." She couldn't talk further. Raman silently listened to her and caressed her head in an attempt to calm her down. "Raman, maybe I deserve it. Maybe thats what I'm worth. Is amma right, Raman? Does Subbu have the right to do this? Do husbands have the right, Raman? The inspector also behaved like it was normal. Am I at fault?" She questioned.
Raman felt a pang of hurt in his chest. Is this what that monster of a man had brought down his Ishu to? The once strong girl was nowhere to be seen. All he could see now was the broken shadow on a girl who was blaming herself for no fault of hers. "shhh Ishu. Listen to me very carefully. None of this is your fault. None of this is what you deserve. That man has wronged you and i want my Ishu to fight. What he did was wrong and i want you to fight it out. Overcome this and show him that you are not weak. She him that his dirty deeds wont stop you from living and growing. And Ishu, i'm here for you. To stand by you. Im here, Ishu, for you and i will always be here." He whispered to her. Slowly, Ishita drifted off to sleep. Raman carefully carried her to the room and lay her on the bed. Covering her with the duvet. He caressed her hair. Then kissing Ruhi on her forehead, he went back to his room.
Here are the pointers for the update..
As a victim
1. Seek medical attention - even if you do not want to take the assault to the police, you must be seen by a doctor to receive care for any injuries and to be tested (and receive treatment) for any sexually transmitted infections.
2. Do not throw away or wash the clothes you were wearing at the time of attack. Place them in a sealed plastic bag to take to the police.
As a supporter
3. Listen, listen, listen to your friend who has been raped. He or she may try to go over and over the assault, replaying it in his or her mind. Listen without judgement as often as your friend would like.
4. Assure your loved one that he or she is not to blame for the rape. Expect to do this often as your loved one tries to work out why he or she was the victim of sexual assault.
5. Reassure your friend or loved one that you will be by their side no matter what. Your door is always open and you're always just a phone call away.
6. Reassure your loved one that no one "deserves" to be sexually violated or raped.
7. Remind your friend that there is no right or wrong way to feel after a rape. Many of the emotions of a rape victim can be confusing - especially to the victim of the sexual assault.
8. If the victim is a male, do not indicate that his acquisitions are fake ot the assault didn't happen. Men can be raped too!
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