SS:I can't live without you- thank you note on Pg 93 - Page 60

Raman lay on the couch, his eyes were wet. He looked towards the bed, Shagun was fast asleep. He had never felt soo helpless, soo suffocated in his life. Ishitaaa!!!!

That was the only thought in his mind. He couldnt live without her.He just coudnt. All their beautiful memories were squirming in his mind. He could feel her presence around him, the weight of her body on him, the touch of her skin, the softness of her lips on his own.He remembered the stickiness on his face, the soreness of his lips he felt everytime the next morning after a night long of passion with her, she would kiss him all over his body, she was so generous, she gave love to him so generously-both emotional and physical.

He couldnt forget the lovely smell of her beautiful long hair ,the feeling he had wen they touched his face, the way he wud put some flicks of her hair behind her ear as they kissed...

It was magical: Ishita's coming to his life was nothing short of magic. He never imagined that life could be so beautiful, that such a high level of happiness and satisfaction could actually be experienced.He was totally broken wen she entered in his life, but ever since she became a part of his life, everything had started mending magically.He remembered how their silly lil nok-jhok's had transformed into eternal love. Maybe he was always in love with her, ever since he realised his daughter was at peace with her coming to their life. His own life was at peace and in total control.

Now with Ishita gone, that control was suddenly gone. Why did this have to happen to him, did he not thank god enough? Shagun had lost her memory, doctors had adviced that she stay wid him until she recovered. He had no choice, he had to do all this, atleast for Adi's sake. Ishita being the mahan lady she was, had gracefully exited his life.

His head was aching. He couldnt take it anymore. He got up from his bed.He went to the balcony, maybe he could get a glimpse of Ishita.

And then he remembered, Amma and Appa were in the hospital, Vandu was in labour. Maybe Ishita was at home, he could see her car parked from the balcony. He headed straight to Iyer house and knocked.

Ishita came to the door, she was wearing her beautiful baby pink kurti, her hair were open. She looked divine.

Before she could realise it was him and cud stop him, he pushed himself in and locked the main door from inside. Raman looked at her eyes.

It was clear she had been crying too, her eyes were red. Raman could not control his feelings, his eyes too filled with tears.

He held both her arms.

"Raman you know you cant be here",Ishita said.

"I know Ishita. But I love you. I love you Ishita. I love you. I cant live without you. I just cant"

Saying this, Raman crashed his lips onto hers and started kissing her aggressively. Ishita tried to stop him, but he held her so tight, she just couldnt stop him.Maybe deep inside she did not want to stop him. He was her husband and they loved each other. She had been missing him so much for the past few days.

Once he realised she stopped resisting, he softened his kisses, he kissed her chin,cheeks, ears... Ishita started supporting him equally in the kissing, she unbuttoned his white night shirt a bit, caressed his chest, softly kissed his ears, his neck and chest.

They parted after a long long hug.

"Did you eat properly tonight?" Ishita asked Raman.

Raman had a lil smile on his face."Yes I did! Finally I hv been getting some proper Punjabi food! otherwise eating South Indian everyday had spoilt my taste buds".

Ishita got irritated. She thought in her mind "Ravan Kumar will never change. He will cry for me all d tym, but never stop taunting me!".

"Now you hv got a Punjabi wife, why would you care about the Madrasi one" Ishita said sounding annoyed and started moving straight towards the kitchen. Raman held her hand from behind and stopped her.He pulled her slowly towards him and looked into her eyes.He ran his fingers through the hair falling on her face, and put them behind her ear.

"But Shagun doesnt care if I am hungry or not. Its only you who asked. And Shugun is not my wife. I dont even want to remember if she ever was. Its you who is my soulmate for this life, and will be for all my lives. I love you Ishita" Raman said and kissed her on her lips as he finished. Ishita held him, ran her fingers through his hair as they started kissed aggressively, forcing their tongues into each others mouths, as if making up for all the days they had been away from each other.

Raman picked her up and took her to her own bedroom. Ishita could not resist. She had been yearning for his love for soo long, each and every part of her body wanted to feel the touch of his lips on them.

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Ishita opened her eyes and looked at d clock on her table. It was 6:00 am in the morning. She felt someone's arms strongly wrapped around her stomach. She immediately recognised the touch, the smell.. Raman's intoxicating smell. It had been almost a month since they had made love. She turned around slowly and looked at her husband who was sleeping.

He looked like a greek god wen naked! At times she felt so lucky to have gotten married to such a handsome man! How come she never noticed him before marriage?

She kissed him on the lips softly, his arms still wrapped around her. She held him tightly now, and kissed him harder this time. Raman suddenly grabbed her even tighter, and started kissing her back. Ishita suddenly broke the kiss. "So you were just acting to sleep!" Ishita said.

"Its very rare that my Biwi takes so much interest in me, i need to take full advantage of the opportunity" Raman said "I think i will need to stay away from you, only then will you love me so..." and suddenly Ishita put her hand on his mouth to stop him."Its too tough for me to bear this separation from you Raman" Ishita removed her hand and rammed her lips onto his. They started kissing very passionately, and soon Ishita felt his thing hardening on her thigh. She made space for him to enter her, and wrapped her legs around him. Raman got on top of her and started making love to her. He unloaded himself into her after some time, and then fell on the side on his back. They both lay side by side holding hands.

Ishita took his hand into hers."Have you ever noticed u hv such milky white beautiful hands?" Ishita told Raman. Raman teased her "Obviously they will look white white next to a Madrasan's hands". Ishita frowned, but raman smiled and took both her hands and kissed them. Suddenly they heard someone shouting outside "Ramaaann"

It was Shagun's voice. Suddenly both Ishita and Raman got back to reality and Raman quickly got up and started dressing up.

Shagun saw Raman getting out of Iyer house.

Shagun: "Raman what are you doing at the Iyer's place so early in the morning?"

Raman: "I.. was..abaaa..wo I had gone for a walk in the morning...I met Ishita there. She told me that her bathroom tap wasnt working, I had gone just to check that.."

Shagun shouted:"Now u hv started working as a Plumber too??"

Both Mr. Bhalla and Toshiji were laughing from behind as they heard their conversation. Ruhi had also got up now. Suddenly the phone rang, it was Mrs Iyer.

She had called to inform that Vandu had delivered a baby girl. Ruhi got very excited to hear the news.

Shagun: " Ruhi why are you so happy?"

Ruhi: "Wo mamma my brother, I mean my friend Shravu, he just got a baby sister"

Raman turned around and saw even Ishita was heading to Bhalla house to share the news with everyone, but stopped as she realised her mom had already informed everyone. Raman

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The lil baby lay next to Vandu as Ishita entered the room. "Congratulations Akka!!!" Ishita bent down to hug her. Ruhi entered with Raman and Mrs Bhalla.

Shravu to Ruhi: " You see my sister is so Pretty! She is prettier than you Ruhi"

Ruhi: " Yes shravu, see she is so tiny, her fingers r so tiny"

Ishita bent down to take the little one in her arms. Raman was constantly looking at Ishita. She ran her fingers on the lil face and then blew kisses to the lil one. She felt an amazing sense of happiness holding her, she marvelled at the beautiful process of creating life crafted by god. She pushed her finger into the lil ones fists, and the lil one grabbed it tight. She had tears in her eyes. Raman knew what Ishita was thinking now. Only if he could give her a baby! They had met some doctors, Ishita had even undergone some treatments, so there was some chance, though not very high for her becoming a mother. Ishita closed her eyes. Even though there was lil chance of her becoming a mom, with Shagun coming back to Raman's life, would she ever be able to fulfill her wish? She looked at Ruhi, she could no longer spend time with her now too, since Shagun was with her. Raman cudnt see his wife pain. He somehow took Ishita out into a secluded area.

Raman: " I know what you were feeling Ishita. You are a wonderful human being, and I am sure you will be a mother soon. God will have to be kind to us"

He held her in his arms, consoling her as she cried profusely.

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