Halls of Fame-part 113 pg 23 - Page 16

Aditi smiled and insisted on Fresca staying at Maha's place, and that she'll take care of everything and if she needs any help, she'll call Fresca. Maha was very much thrilled at spending time with her future sister-in-law, who currently didn't even know what Maha was thinking of her in her head!!

Maha narrated the experience she's had last night and how Al had helped her, in getting the pictures of Candice's diary entries and how he had sent her the photos to her handphone. Maha had printed out those images and took extra copies just in case she loses them. Both Maha and Fresca realized that the diary entries were not regularly writen; it was as if Candice wrote when she felt like venting out her frustrations. Initially, Maha and Fresca thought of rearranging the diary entries in chronological order since they were jumbled up in the print-out envelope.

Both of them shut the door and began reading Candice's diary entries.It started with the year 2005.

~2005~

Today, Addy called me for the first time. He called to ask me out. I can't blv it. He's like the hottie of the college and he wanted to ask me out. I just smiled at him and just said,'Alrite pal'. Awkard,right???But I'm just confused about my feelings.Do I reallie like him or do I have a crush on him? He looks reallie hot, i mean this is the first time I'm reallie looking at a guy and acknowledging him for his his "hottiness" if there is such a word. Now all I could think of is some cute, fairytale-like moments between us. Oh god Candice just chillax. You know how you tend to exaggerate things a lil. But there's no limits to fantasies. I really wonder what's going on his head right now..Should I call him??Should i not??? What should I do.....Today, March 9th-> he called me!!! Yay Yay Yay!!!!

March 21st

Hi..my precious diary....You must be wondering why I haven't wrote to you the next day itself.....Well he just met me in the classroom. He wrote to me about the fact that he likes me and he wants to be friends with a gorgeous girl like me. And he took me to watch a movie, I think it was Date Movie. Well, it was quite romantic; he tried to touch me but i stopped him. And he kinda felt miserable, I suppose. I just don't know how to go about doing this. Now is the start of the first term papers. It's been quite hard for me as my dad is appealing of getting transferred to the US. And it's like it is almost finalized. And i reallie haf no idea what's going to happen next in my life.....I know I shouldn't hope that my dad should not get promoted to a senior post but I'm gonna miss all my friends especially my new friend, Addy. OH looks like my dad's calling me. I'll be back....

My dad told me he got promoted as well as transferred. And he's gonna bring me there as he took care of the formalities to get me into the most recommended college in US. OMG!!!What am I going through???Why do I not have any control over this???I don't want to go but this is what my dad wants..My dad who's rarely there for me but I've got to go since my mom is there...And she needs me for she's hospitalized as a result of reckless driving. Why are my parents so irresponsible and carefree???Do they even care about the fact that it's going to be way too formidable for me to adjust to a new setting just like that..But no!!!I've got to go becuase of them. I wonder if they'll ever understand me.....

1st February 2007

I have not received any letters from Addy ever since July 2006. I hope there is no particular problems of any sort. I think maybe it's because he's quite busy preparing for examz but hey...He's having his vacations now for about 2 weeks or so...So why isn't he writing or emailing me?Or even calling me???Maybe I could actually lie to my dad about something and sneak out of Los Angeles and head to London with my close friend. I guess I'm gonna call her tonight and let's see if things will work out.

I'm back after calling Mash and we've decided to do it. Sneak off to London. I lied to my dad that I'll be staying over at Mash's apartment for about 3-4 days. He's fine with it for he's out of town for an urgent meeting with the military staff members.

Yay...You must be wondering why I'm reallie looking forward to meeting Addy. I've realized that I miss Addy so much that I've begun to fall in love with Addy. Perhaps if I managed to muster my courage, I could convey my special feelings. I don't know how he feels about me, though..But I don't want to have any regrets in my life for not having said my heart-felt feelings.

I LOVE YOU ADDY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I LOVE YOU ADDY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

14th February 2007

I just wished that nothing happened today. If only I didn't even think of lying to my dad. If only I didn't sneak out and get to London to see Addy. I could only blame myself. Tonight was a special day for Addy for it was his prom night. I got late to his college, but only to realize he wasn't there. In fact he came back from somewhere and i was right in front of him but he wasn't looking at me. He was looking at another girl. I just waited till he looked at me and he had the audacity to ask me, "Who are you?I"m reallie sorry but I do know you..But who???"

I could never get more hurt by those words but which unfortunately came out from Addy's mouth. When I told him, he apologized profusely and in order to cover for his mistake, he complimented me for he perceived me to have had a complete makeover as he couldn't recognize me at all. I smiled and danced with him but I knew he was looking at her. His eyes craved for her love while my eyes gazed for his.

This had just got to be the worst romantic night in the history of my life and to top it all, I entirely forgot about telling him my feelings about him. I was totally shattered that I went to tell Mash about it and I didn't even realize that we had started drinking. The next day, I woke up to see a glass with some wine remaining and two empty bottles. I couldn't wake up. My eyes were itchy and i simply couldn't focus. Mash woke me up and gave me some tomato juice to make myself feel better.Though i hateed that, i felt that the hangover was slowly slipping away from my body. Mash told me that she's gonna stay for another day or so. Hence I decided to get as much info as possible from Addy and his college.

15th February

Addy has fallen head over heels in love with Fresca, the girl whom I've met the other day and for whom Addy's eyes have been pining for. I don't know what's going on with me. I just can't stop thinking about Fresca and Addy spending time together. It just angers me a hell lot!!!!I don't know what I might possibly do.

OMG!!Addy just messaged me to meet him tonight!!I don't know what I'm gonna do. Mash told me that I've got to go and tell him how I truly feel before it gets too complicated or too late to tell him.

The Scotch bottle was too tempting for me. I mean I never felt this needy. I wanted to drink but I've got to meet Addy. I believe I've just left from my apartment around 5:15 in the evening.

I went to meet Addy at his apartment. He wasn't there but I saw him going to hail a cab. I called him out and both of us headed to Rock Cafe. Addy took me there and he actualle poured his heart out of how he really loved Fresca who did not quite reciprocate his feelings. He felt so shattered.I couldn't stop his tears neither could stop mine. He looked to me and asked me what's wrong. Couldn't he realize it???Did I have to spell everything out to him???

I wasn't quite myself. I was shaky. I felt as if I'm drunk. I can't exactly remember what happened but one thing was for sure, I must have blabbered that I really love him. That i sincerely do and I can't live without his love. He had just grabbed my elbows so tightly but I barely felt anything.And he just shoved me and left. Left me on the ground, which did hurt. I laid on the floor, my eyes had tears flowing continously.

After some time, I stood up, took a bottle and ran back home. I had no idea what happened to me. I took the bottle and hit my head hard enough. If that didn't hurt enough, I kept banging my head on the walls and had slit my wrists. Mash must have heard the noises and saw blood oozing from every possible part of my body, especially from my wrist and head. She slapped me hard and I must have blanked out. I was rushed to the hospital.

Blood of Pain....It was perfect..Nothing could have gone worse for this week than the outcomes of my confession to Addy.

I want to DIE....

OMG OMG OMG

i love her diary entries ... is maha and fresca reading them? you haven't included them too? 😕

aww thats sad for Candice, i guess she does kind of deserve it from Addy i mean he was the HOTTIE? 😳 😉 😆 too bad she blew it, he still craves for frescas love? 😭 thats sad ....

Maha and fresca make hot chocolate ... yummmm 😳

but i stil don't get it ... where did they find her diary, how and why and when? who found it first?

sorry about the questions i have alot to ask, im really eager to read part 98 😛

i like your setting, atmosphere and the way you describe the characters feelings, can i ask you one teensy weensy thing?

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when they ask questions can you not do three : ???

because it's hard to tell 😳

keep up the great work Jassie, love your story

luv yuwh lots,

Seliina

p.s: Sorry i'm late in reading nearly 5 chapters atleast, ii had skwl stuff but im back now. 😃 too nag u if u dont update soon 😉 😆

Halls of Fame part 98

I want to DIE....

Fresca:Ok Maha we've reallie got to stop!!!!Do you even realize what we are doing??

Maha:That we are still awake at 2 am and we are reading Candice's journal entries???

Fresca:No, you're not getting it, hunni!!!We are reading someone's private thoughts. Just imagine I got to discover your diary and am reading your most conidential thoughts and feelings. How would you feel???

Maha:Well I don't know as I have no habit of logging down my emotions. I'd rather express it out..

Fresca:Well this is another means of expressing, to themselves. Well Maha this is it!!No more reading!!!

Maha:But....

Fresca:No way Maha..Only both of us kow this and before anyone else do get to know about this, we'd better stop before it's too late!!!I want you to promise me.

Maha:Fres, Fres...Alright. Ok, I won't touch these anymore!!!

As Maha and Fresca laid on the bed to sleep, Maha told her that she reallie enjoyed the time with Fresca and although it's the least that she could do right now, she's truly glad that she did and she never knew that a special bond could develop between them with their first meeting at Merck Hospital with a whacky misunderstanding.Fresca pressed

Maha's palm gently and made her promise to keep Aditi and Jay together and be there for them at all times. Maha did promise to Fresca about that and she silently prayed that Fresca could live longer than expected for she couldn't think of a day without Fresca's presence.Maha wiped her tears and slept.

Fresca had already woken up to take a bath while Maha just woke up. She was really tempted by those entries to read on further what was going on in Candice's life. She had started writing in 2005 and her last journal entry was just a few months back in 2014. Nine years worth the frustration and troubles in irregurlar months and times of the years.

Maha realized that it could get much more complicated but she didn't like to let things hanging in the air. Since she've read this far, there shouldn't be much harm in reading further. However, she can't tell Fresca about anything associated with this since she had already promised Fresca. She silently said sorry to Fresca and decided to read on after Fresca has left. Meanwhile she saved the images on her thumb drive before Fresca came out, and shut down the computer.

Meanwhile, Maha freshened up and realized that her phone comprised of several phone calls from Jay. He must have been worried to hell and she realized that she hadn't spoken to him since the meet-up with Jay. She can't possibly tell him about the diary. She'll have to keep her plan in her head and no one should be able to figure out anything that she's planning to do. It seemed like a really risky job for she can't keep everything to herself but she's gotta do it. For the good of all!!!

Maha dropped Fresca at the Halls of Fame institute while she rushed to Merck Hospital to see Jay. Unfortunately, he was busy with an operation and hence attended to other patients and along the way, she had bumped into Sameer.

Sameer:Helloo!!!Where are you going so quickly???

Maha:OH hi Sameer. Gosh i was going to give the earlier patient her receipt. She forgot it on my table. What's up??

Sameer:How was Fres yesterday??Heard that she stayed with ya last night??

Maha:Yeah we had lots of fun, the least of which I could do to bring a smile on her face!!

Sameer:Thanks Maha for your help. By the way I wanted to ask you something. Did you notice any physical difference in her??Like the loss of hair or weight gain or any such effects???

Msha:Well I'm pretty sure that she is facing a great deal of hair loss and losing weight. And she keeps getting nauseous, vomitting out. Is it due to the new drug which have been clinically effective for some pancreatic patients??

Sameer:Yeah Jay and I had been working on that and decided to try it on Fresca. That's why I was asking about the effects. Hhmm..it seems like I'll really need her to stop stressing herself so much and I might need to conduct a check up on her soon. Please inform her to meet me as soon as possible,alright??I'm quite busy at the moment. I'll catch up with you later.

It was lunch time. Maha went into her cabin and locked the door and the blinds and cancelled all appointments for the next two to three hours.

15th February 2007

I WANT TO DIE!!!!!

I went on to take the blade nearby to slit my wrist but Mash stopped me. She slapped me hard across my face and tried to knock some sense into me. Perhaps I wasn't even listening to her. I was stoning. I couldn't take the pain. I threw away the plates of food served to me. No one wanted to be near me after seeing my behaviour.

The doctors brought me to a psychiatrist,Dr Brail who took me inside while the rest stood outside. He hypnotized me. He hypnotized me. I couldn't remember what happened next but I was sleeping soundly. When I woke up, I saw Mash beside me and realized that I was no longer in front of the psychiatrist. I was back in the ward where I had been admitted. What happened to me???What did the psychiatrist do to me??Did I say anything???Why can't I remember anything??Anything at all???

I looked at Mash. Mash was tired but she was much more drained out. She seemed to be engrossed in something else but I had no clue on that. When I asked her about it, she said nothing. The only thing she told me is that I am going a lot further from her and she'll be waiting for me right there. I couldn't understand a word about what she's saying. The only thing I understood is that she wanted me to forget Addy. The love of my life. How could she even think of that???He is my life. MY LIFE.

But where is he???Doesn't he know where I am???I've been suffering for quite some time and he dosn't even bother to come??He left me at the Rock Cafe and that's it????Has he forgotten me after all...Was Mash right about him...Did he not love me anymore????

I still pine for him but I don't know what I'm going to do. With myself. With my life. I have a gut feeling that I can possibly never make him mine. Never in my life.Ever again.

Wow this is my 100th episode..I'm extremely happie..thanks all for reading and pls continue to read...to all my fans and silent readers...I lurve you all....

20th April 2007

Dr Brail had to have an intern, who is none other than Jhanvi. Jhanvi, Addy's friend who don't like me talking to him. Of course I couldn't ask her about Addy. But argghh...if i don't I can't possibly get a clue to get out of this hell....

I slowly unplugged the red lead that has been attached to my wrist and went for a walk in the direction of Jhanvi. Dr Brail had actually brought Jhanvi inside while I walked briskly towards them and was trying to eavesdrop but then I saw Addy. Addy!!!!OMG, i had pinched myself and it was Addy.

Addy saw me and came to me but Jhanvi called him in and all my energy had just drained out in an instant. I went to the park within the Wonderland Centre in Los Angeles. That's right. Dr Brail brought me here to treat me. My depression which is perceived by him to be abnormally violent and practically unsafe for people to be around me. I've been under his treatment for a month and according to him, I've only shown some sort of an improvement in my behaviour a few days back.

The glimpse of Addy was ecstacy for me. No medicine could give me that. For the first time in the days spent here, I've smiled and went to help the adjacent patients.

Jhanvi had meanwhile come to talk to me and give me my medication. She had made it so professional and didn't even smile at me. So much for the anger that she's had for me. For once, I had accidentally injected an intravenous solution of heroin into Addy as a result of losing Mash's bet. I know both of us went a little too far but I didn't know it was of a higher dosage which even led to almost attacking Jhanvi for Addy got a little addictive. I had asked for forgiveness from both of them profusely but only Addy managed to forgive me.

I took the medication and then after Jhanvi had left, Addy came in. He couldn't talk much as he knew Jhanvi was looking at him and he just slipped a letter to me and left. He told me about the fact that he broke all ties of his friendship with Fresca. It was their graduation day and that's why he couldn't contact me. He felt bad of leaving me at Rock Cafe but he came back to see if I was ok but he didn't find me that day and he searched for me a lot but couldn't trace me. Jhanvi told him that I was here and that's how he got to know that I was here. He wanted to start all over and be friends with me.

I don't know when my smile returned and when I turned to the mirror where my glass of water was, I saw Addy looking at me from outside the ward and he smiled at me and winked at me. I winked at him back, giving him the assurance that I'm cool with him.

At that moment, I just jumped in joy and shouted to all that I'm very happy and did a little jig which turned out to amuse all and called me crazy. But I didn't care. I got a little piece of hope that I'll get my Addy. From then on, I've decided to live for Addy. And only for him.

aww dah isz shoo shweet mahn, i liked all three chaps now 😃 ii read more clearly, who is this Mash? full name? how are they friends? I wanna no more about this Mash girl/guy, can you bring her in soem other update?

wow, congratz yaar on ur 100th chap 👏 😲 😃 😭 jassie has improved much more then her begging chaps 👏 ⭐️ <<< ur a starhhhhhh ⭐️ <<< 😲

jeez, so im guessing Candice is dah gud guyy? Addy mahn, hes really confusing.

Oh yeah, Jhanvi, ow is she? doing ok? 😕 😆

oh yeh she doesnt like candice, dont blame her neither do ii, who Dr.Brail? nice name 😳 Ohh kay', i get it now.

Your really confusing Jasslin! 😡

iii wannnaaaa noooo moreeeee! 😉

update soon or like candice i wil riite I WANNA DIE! 😆