What is this i feel inside
A pang of pain rips through my heart
With time my silent tears subside
Giving way to more violent sobs
I don't know what this is
I don't know the reason for this.
An insecurity deep down my heart
To lose all that is left back with me
Why is it that people hurt me so much
Why is it that they break my trust
Everytime i try to move on in life
I come back to where i started
As hurt and broken
Just when someone builds me back
N i stand sporting a real smile
Yet again there is someone
Who makes me fall back
Who abandons me completely
And because of that one person
I had let go who actually cared
Why am i wrong at selecting people
And when the ones i need are gone
I hope of their return
I embrace the hope with all my strength
But it rips through my veins
Causing an unbearable hurt
And just when i start to recover
I fall into snares of delusion all over again.
Jhanak
