Originally posted by: sunshines
I have submitted my name to priya for disabling my account. just want to say my story before I leave.
I am born in a rich house with a very nice family. My mom died when I was 6. My step mom stepped in to our lives and My life changed for ever with her. She used to be very nice to me and I used to do everything she used to tell me. Gradually I grew very close to her. She had a daughter and son. At that age I was so overwhelmed with all that. I never had any idea what she has in her head. gradually A rift was built between my father and me. Lots of miscommunication. I never understood she was all behind it. i used to cry a lot as I always thought my father loved me less. i wasn't able to understand him. as i entered into 12. My step mom created a feeling in me that my dad dosen't love and he don't want anyone in the house to talk to me. I used to get frustrated and break things in home which ended up being beaten by my father and that further build distances.
You people will never believe how close my life is to tapasya. I am all like her. thought my father never loved me and feel depressed all the time. Drugs became my best friends for a while. My step mom introduced them to me saying they will lessen my anger and all. I am so attracted to them. because they did made me feel good. Meanwhile my step mom was hell bent on making me look like a witch. All my relatives thought I am a very bad person. Everyone stopped talking to me. Everyone exploited me for my weaknesses. i used to do all the work in house for a pinch of drug. Life was always miserable, i never went out , had friends because everyone thought I am inhuman. Then my moms younger brother joined me in a drug camp for youngsters. to my bad luck he died soon after. The drugs went out of my life but the imagine i got never went away.Even in college everyone used to avoid me. they eyes used to dig into my skin and make fun of me. half of the days i used to hide in home crying
Then karan came to my life. He was our distant relative and he came to stay in our house until he found accommodation. My sister swapna never left a chance to degrade me. Though i am older than her I am scared of her. for the first time in my life Karan , used to help me so much. As he lived in the house , he got to know how people treated me. he helped me a lot. got books from library, give me hope and my days got better. He moved out of the house but still I used to go and see him and he used to help me in my studies. I never thought of love at all. For me he is ray of hope. 3 years passed by and life was the same but i had a relief when he is around. He proposed me one day and i felt like i was the luckiest person in this world.
But for bad luck, swapna proposed him a few months later and he denied. She felt rejected and she used to be cruel to me when ever i am caught meeting him. She came to know that we love each other and she went bizzare. Karan is from a very rich family and only son so my step mom made plans to marry Swapna to karan. They told each and everyone that I do drugs, play dirty tricks, They are bearing me a lot and all that stuff. Karan parents were against me because of my background but Karan tried to convince them. they refused an dfixed his marriage with swapna. I ate sleeping pills coz I had no hope. I was saved by my brother(stepmom's son, he was always in hostel and wasn't much at home but he often took pity at me and bring me some food hiding). he called karan and told him this. Karan was so worried. He made me promise I will never do such thing in my life again.
He joined me in a hostel and looked after me .He came out of his house leaving everything behind him for me. I felt at last god listened to me. He got a nice job and we got married right away. after few months I too got a job and we are the happiest couple. fate turned once again when we both met an accident. he died and i lost my left leg. Karan parents blamed me for bringing unluck . them saw me as bad omen. So i am left with no one now. I can't suicide beacuse i promised karan before. I was a wreck but i braced myself. look at the positive side i am left with. I am 25 now and I live in a orphanage. May be i am alive for some reason. i try to bring some positiveness.
This show is like half my life. that's the reason I backup jogi, a misunderstood father. I never tried to use my sense of judgement like tapasya and followed blindly my step mom, like tapasya did for nani. Please guys all of you people are lucky . you have friends, family, life thriving. I just wanted to put some positiveness. i never meant to sarcastic or anything. With all this in my life, I am grounded. Reading books, thought I should help . when I came across this forum, I wanted to bring a positive that's all. I have no one in my life and no one to share with. This forum is like my friend. I am sorry if i did hurt anyone's feeling when conveying my POV.
Good bye friends. I Pray to god that no one will suffer my fate. Take care and please user judgement before blindly believing. Tapasya's like me will be in hell , if in real life. Thats all i want to say. Bye. Take care.
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