The agony of the heart and the womb ... Sukor destined not even to suffer properly
I have been debating to do a post after the horrendous ill-fated gruesome separation of my adories.
The insta snippets were killing me everyday since Friday!!! I wanted to forget. My dude pushing away his world out of his life was coming as nightmare for me!! He said our Saanvi is dead so our relationship is also dead??? Is it true??? Yes a child is the symbol of their love, their bond but is a child the only glue binding for a married couple?. No not at all
The couple could not grieve too... They are indeed destined to suffer but could not suffer in peace (what an oxymoron but that's what I felt). God did not want them to suffer in peace though their lives were shattered into pieces.
The little bundle was thrown out of their lives. (I donot want to talk about the excellent performance of MeeJay nor the horrendous illogical plan of the villians).
How can he drag her out(my heart bleeds to write this line)
But this morning, Shreeti's insta snippet made me feel something...
During the ML track he said
"Hamara Aadha jaan thumhara paas, I will die completely if anything happens to it. hum thumse bahut bahut pyaar karthey hai... were the words!
I felt something squeezing my heart... A mother who carried the child in her womb for nine months suffers the most, just cannot be compared! Yes but once the child is out of the womb after nine months the child is carried into and starts living in the heart of the father too... the father carries the child eversince it touches this world in his heart for ever, till he breathes his last!
True to the fact, he froze himself in the waters, he stood, motionless...still no emotions, his heart indeed stopped, for he died there... He concluded soon that Saanvi is dead as his heart stopped.. He did say Chakor that he will love her till he breath his last!
He died so he could not think?!He died so he stopped loving his Chakor? He died that's why he could push her out??? Should I console myself...??
The mother did not!, why the womb did not feel the vacuum?, it was not shown but that's what I felt, her womb would have gone numb but she the fighter put his agony above hers and said that I will not leave you as you are unable to think as you are traumatized... While he froze in silence she spoke. She did not want to take the blame on her motherhood..
Albeit everything turning topsy turvey my eyes froze at her strength, saluted her, she is not born to loose, she is born to defeat the defeat.. She has broken to pieces but she is Chakor... Her Mind and Heart has accepted the loss but not her womb!!
Her womb is numb but the pearl out of the womb is the goddess who is going to bring back the happiness in my adories lives...
The evil was smiling, smirking of its glory... and after thinking a lot I too felt happy that the evil did the most stupid thing of saving that goddess which in turn made the evil digging her own grave..
My eagle will soar high...with the little light...and I will wait for the Lion to fight hard and win them back... this time too I will be by my dude but will not pray for his easy win. He has to fight hard to win his little life and his world back.
In hindu mythlogy Durga mai did penance on a needle amidst fire pyre to win back Bolenath as she disobeyd him, but for a change let my dude do that penace to get his Durga back as he indeed disobeyed himself!!! He broke himself, died himself before breaking his world!!! He indeed pushed her out .. out of the harshness of others words which will haunt her, out of the world which has been unkind to her (just could not accept Teju that day)...out of him as he has died within himself.
Soon the heart and the womb will get together to hold again their pearl!
Anupamaa
