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My dear Sumi asked me for a view about Friday's episode, but I wasn't able to give her my answer because of mix of happiness, excitement and every other feeling in that moment. So here it goes... but first of all, my apologies for if this is going to be more practical and less emotional post, it's due to lack of my time. Second, Sumi my views about any episode can never be half good as yours. But I'm really feeling honoured that you wanted to hear it. Means a lot.
How does feel woman who discovered she is pregnant again after she survived gruesome, heartbreaking misscarage? I don't know. I don't even know how does feel women who yet discovered she is pregnant, even if she didn't had any bad experience before. Being in my early twenties I considered myself to young to know that. But then.. my friend who is even younger then me give life to two adorable boys couple of days back. And I'm a fan of an unique show in which female actress also in her twenties is ready to play mother and even her character is not much older. I realised that I'm hiding my decisions behind my age...
I want to say... I don't know how women feels. I don't know how would be father feels. What I definitely know is that look in their eyes, that tears of happiness, that protective behavior which is merging with opssesion and the most that fear and question without end: "what if...". I know it. I witnessed it in real life. And now I witnessed the same on screen.
He looks at her from the distance. With so much love. But more then a love there's admiration. His girl. No, his wife. No, his whole life. And he just looks at her like that. She is his place to live, she is his time to spend, she is definition of all that is called his. And he admires her. And loves her.
If its like this, how can he not to notice something is different, something is unusual in his life? And he noticed it. Every little detail. Little he knew it's a moment when one new life is growing to meet him soon. Little he knew in that moment that he was blessed to have two lives in his one lifespan.
She is praying, smiling, crying all in the same time. Why is it like that? Why happiness makes us cry whenever she does not know bounds? Why God didn't give us some special ability to express that happiness trough something else? Because if he did, then everyone would knew and happiness wouldn't be just ours and we wouldn't be able to share it only with ones who are going to feel it just like us. He sees her tears, wipes them away and asks what, why, when and million other questions trough his eyes but speaks only what his confused and scared mind allows him: what happened? Are you okay?. And I suppose that are two common questions we ask when something is happening in our life: what happened and is it good. And life responds to us. But our man's life has name and have possibility to talk with our human language. "Our dream is going to be true.." and leads his hand to see it with different eyes, eyes of the soul. How much time our souls need to see, to feel, to understand? Little time. Unimaginable little time. Defintely less time then how much he needed to process what had happened. But if we could response to what is happening to us only with our souls, if we somehow can turn of our brains, if there was no need to our thinking process he would still need the same time. It's not his brain who makes him stand for a minute without words just looking like innocent lost child. No, it's his soul that is shaking. He feels thousands of little hurricanes in side him.. and reacting to that his heart asks could it be.. hurricanes are tickling him from inside his being, and he has to smile the most beautiful smile this world has ever seen.. and his brain gives him permission to ask: "Really?...Me..You..Our child.".
She talks. She explains. She shares. But all her feelings, all her hopes, all her wishes, all her existence is there in just that one sentence: "So what if I didn't win elections? I have acquired the greatest joy of life." Yes, yes she did.
How does feel woman who discovered she is pregnant again after she survived gruesome, heartbreaking misscarage? I don't know. I don't even know how does feel women who yet discovered she is pregnant, even if she didn't had any bad experience before. Being in my early twenties I considered myself to young to know that. But then.. my friend who is even younger then me give life to two adorable boys couple of days back. And I'm a fan of an unique show in which female actress also in her twenties is ready to play mother and even her character is not much older. I realised that I'm hiding my decisions behind my age...
I want to say... I don't know how women feels. I don't know how would be father feels. What I definitely know is that look in their eyes, that tears of happiness, that protective behavior which is merging with opssesion and the most that fear and question without end: "what if...". I know it. I witnessed it in real life. And now I witnessed the same on screen.
He looks at her from the distance. With so much love. But more then a love there's admiration. His girl. No, his wife. No, his whole life. And he just looks at her like that. She is his place to live, she is his time to spend, she is definition of all that is called his. And he admires her. And loves her.
If its like this, how can he not to notice something is different, something is unusual in his life? And he noticed it. Every little detail. Little he knew it's a moment when one new life is growing to meet him soon. Little he knew in that moment that he was blessed to have two lives in his one lifespan.
She is praying, smiling, crying all in the same time. Why is it like that? Why happiness makes us cry whenever she does not know bounds? Why God didn't give us some special ability to express that happiness trough something else? Because if he did, then everyone would knew and happiness wouldn't be just ours and we wouldn't be able to share it only with ones who are going to feel it just like us. He sees her tears, wipes them away and asks what, why, when and million other questions trough his eyes but speaks only what his confused and scared mind allows him: what happened? Are you okay?. And I suppose that are two common questions we ask when something is happening in our life: what happened and is it good. And life responds to us. But our man's life has name and have possibility to talk with our human language. "Our dream is going to be true.." and leads his hand to see it with different eyes, eyes of the soul. How much time our souls need to see, to feel, to understand? Little time. Unimaginable little time. Defintely less time then how much he needed to process what had happened. But if we could response to what is happening to us only with our souls, if we somehow can turn of our brains, if there was no need to our thinking process he would still need the same time. It's not his brain who makes him stand for a minute without words just looking like innocent lost child. No, it's his soul that is shaking. He feels thousands of little hurricanes in side him.. and reacting to that his heart asks could it be.. hurricanes are tickling him from inside his being, and he has to smile the most beautiful smile this world has ever seen.. and his brain gives him permission to ask: "Really?...Me..You..Our child.".
She talks. She explains. She shares. But all her feelings, all her hopes, all her wishes, all her existence is there in just that one sentence: "So what if I didn't win elections? I have acquired the greatest joy of life." Yes, yes she did.
Chakor... child who from her birth couldn't cried, then later because of sorrows life placed in front of her learned how to do it, now is crying in front of her man, who give her everything and she cries because she has everything. "...if there is someone who can bring back my respect to me, if there is someone who can provide me with love and safety, then it's you Suraj. If there is someone with whom I want to spend my entire life, then it's you Suraj." I don't know why these words are ringing in my mind after seeing her, after hearing her words. Maybe because by healing their wounds one blissful night they created someone who will be living proof that he did it all. She is going to be respectful mother of his child who is symbol of their love and who will connect them with strongest relationship on this world for their entire life. They are going to become parents. And they say it loud. And never I heared these words that have so beautiful sound. So heavenly beautiful.
But then... "We all have our time machines, don't we. Those that take us back are memories...And those that carry us forward, are dreams." (H.G. Weels). I belive sometimes when time machine take us forward, she takes us backwards also. To remind us. To make us belive we are given second chance to use it better... or to keep it more safe this time. And person who did it all the first time is let with no other option then to... hug his chance. Hug his life. So he comes on his knees and hugs his both lives. To keep them safe. Even more safe then before. To love them. Even more if possible.
And he ask his life to help him this time.. he ask his life to be selfish and so he will be, to keep little life which will help them both to survive and love each other and everyone and everything else for many years to come. She promised. His life promised. He knows everything will be fine. This time everything will be perfectly fine. And he kisses her forehead. A kiss which represents three essential elements of their relationship: love, respect and protection.
The other two scenes from Fridays episode show the same. But on one different way. Admiration and love.. his life and one more life... promises that everything will be the best it possibly can be.. and he kisses her forehead... to make her sure he is there... to make him sure he is there.. and they start the battle.
Monday
The scene which stood out for me was defintely the one where he shouts at his biggest enemy's face, what an irony it was person who once claimed he loved, person who once was expecting his child, with so much pride, protection and love that yes, Chakor is his wife and would be mother of his child! I wondered why he had to say that? What's the purpose behind it. Then I realised. It's not Suraj who talks, who shouts, who is burning and making everything else burning. It's father. Father who knows feeling of losing two children. And I paused that scene. On one side person who lost two children and become monster.. On the other side person who lost two children and become the best man, the best husband, and the best father any child could have. And then I looked at his wife, standing in his embrace.. the look in her eyes. All the promises, all the dreams, all the kisses... it all loses its meaning in his embrace. It becomes reality. And I realised that promise is moment... dream is moment... kiss is moment. Happiest and luckiest ones live that moment.
Tuesday & Wednesday
Watching them as parents is dream coming true. All their cute antics, all the baby's antics made last two episodes unforgettable ones. He still looks at her with all admiration, love and pride he can show. And that is not small amount. She still has dreams in her head, but when she looks at him, at their child these dreams lose meaning or become even more meaningful. He works, he romances... he sings lullaby for his child... he offers his shoulder for his wife and mother of his child. And he always smiles. Life is beautiful, isn't it? But you know what... Even more beautiful is to have two lives in just one lifespan.
But then... "We all have our time machines, don't we. Those that take us back are memories...And those that carry us forward, are dreams." (H.G. Weels). I belive sometimes when time machine take us forward, she takes us backwards also. To remind us. To make us belive we are given second chance to use it better... or to keep it more safe this time. And person who did it all the first time is let with no other option then to... hug his chance. Hug his life. So he comes on his knees and hugs his both lives. To keep them safe. Even more safe then before. To love them. Even more if possible.
And he ask his life to help him this time.. he ask his life to be selfish and so he will be, to keep little life which will help them both to survive and love each other and everyone and everything else for many years to come. She promised. His life promised. He knows everything will be fine. This time everything will be perfectly fine. And he kisses her forehead. A kiss which represents three essential elements of their relationship: love, respect and protection.
The other two scenes from Fridays episode show the same. But on one different way. Admiration and love.. his life and one more life... promises that everything will be the best it possibly can be.. and he kisses her forehead... to make her sure he is there... to make him sure he is there.. and they start the battle.
Monday
The scene which stood out for me was defintely the one where he shouts at his biggest enemy's face, what an irony it was person who once claimed he loved, person who once was expecting his child, with so much pride, protection and love that yes, Chakor is his wife and would be mother of his child! I wondered why he had to say that? What's the purpose behind it. Then I realised. It's not Suraj who talks, who shouts, who is burning and making everything else burning. It's father. Father who knows feeling of losing two children. And I paused that scene. On one side person who lost two children and become monster.. On the other side person who lost two children and become the best man, the best husband, and the best father any child could have. And then I looked at his wife, standing in his embrace.. the look in her eyes. All the promises, all the dreams, all the kisses... it all loses its meaning in his embrace. It becomes reality. And I realised that promise is moment... dream is moment... kiss is moment. Happiest and luckiest ones live that moment.
Tuesday & Wednesday
Watching them as parents is dream coming true. All their cute antics, all the baby's antics made last two episodes unforgettable ones. He still looks at her with all admiration, love and pride he can show. And that is not small amount. She still has dreams in her head, but when she looks at him, at their child these dreams lose meaning or become even more meaningful. He works, he romances... he sings lullaby for his child... he offers his shoulder for his wife and mother of his child. And he always smiles. Life is beautiful, isn't it? But you know what... Even more beautiful is to have two lives in just one lifespan.
Coming to what I said at the begining of this post... Last couple of episodes gave me a lot. Lot of thinking which produced lot of self revelations, and generally life revelations...
Besides of the entertainment and happiness that my favourite show is having one amazing and beautiful happy phase, the level of love towards this show, the level of pride for being here, watching it after more then 1000 episodes and being excited more then anytime before, and the level of pride for being Meejay fan reached unimaginable heights. They did it amazingly. They are doing it incredibly. They are not letting smile vanish from my face and in the same time they are doing it so realistically, that when I watch them I forgot it's just a TV show.
Besides of the entertainment and happiness that my favourite show is having one amazing and beautiful happy phase, the level of love towards this show, the level of pride for being here, watching it after more then 1000 episodes and being excited more then anytime before, and the level of pride for being Meejay fan reached unimaginable heights. They did it amazingly. They are doing it incredibly. They are not letting smile vanish from my face and in the same time they are doing it so realistically, that when I watch them I forgot it's just a TV show.
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