Dil Se Dil Tak.
Chapter -64
PART1:
Sometimes, even in the most busy schedule, the simple questions like why we do we feel specially connected with someone haunt us like anything,
How does mind works? how does hearts reminds us of that person again and again…? How does memories make us smile and even cry?...
Why its so happens that the person, the thoughts we tend to avoid happens to follow us like a shadow. ?
Even though our heart, mind and brain all are intrinsically connected Why it’s so happens that the brain and mind and heart all keeps juggling? Who overly disturbs and confuses us? Is it the BRAIN or that overly pumping heart. This is the only case in the entire universe where we itself are ready with evidence to prove other right and wrong. Brain has no emotion,
If heart says yes, brain says NO. If we agree for the signals of brain, hearts pumps the blood way too faster, to give us that inch of pain.
3rd person eye can never understand this.. Someone has put this beautiful thoughts of jugging heart, mind and soul….
The heart is in favour of you.
The mind is in the favour of surrounding situation.
The soul is in the favour of reality.
Heart will listen your inner voice.
Mind will listen your thinking process.
And Soul will listen only the truth.
But do we actually hear our soul?
Who wins in this juggling game? … We wonder for answers…but it takes lifetime..
They say, there is a reason why we don’t have an answer to everything at the moment. If we become all-knowing person, the purpose of life will be destroyed right?. Thatsy there goes the saying. -Time has answers to everything.
I don’t lie Khushi and u know that. It was never a love at first sight!!!. But I don’t deny, that there was none. There was an attraction at that first sight. Infact , at every other meeting of ours. Does attraction leaps towards love.? Iam not sure Khushi,. But to be honest, I always convinced my mind, punished my flowing thoughts. I even don’t deny I hated every moment whenever I felt iam getting carried towards you, I hated every that thing which was making me realize, that I feel for you…why iam even thinking about you…….i was trying to hate you……but then I finally paused, I finally stopped. …I faced my Inner question….why iam actually forcing myself ….why even iam thinking…..Why its always different with you?
Was it your beauty? NO!...Because I had seen many of top reagents and none even dared to enter even in my heart circumference.
Was it your smartness ? , No…!! I have met more smarter women than YOU!.
Was it your sincerity? NO!. You lied ample times..
Then ? What wat was it that made me attracted towards you? What was it that made me finally to accept my heart ?
I guess because the answer was just simple. Because you were simply YOU and nothing else. Because you pretended to be beautiful, you never pretended to act smart , you were just TRUE to your nature and I have fallen with that nature of yours..Iam surrounded by all Fake things in my life…Fake love, Fake beauty , fake commitments….and you were just true…so pure….
Khushi, I did not know how gradually it developed….But if I did not hear your voice, I felt empty, If I did not see you, I felt something was missing around, If I would see these water droplets in ur eyes, it pinched me, If I see you smiling, it made me happy…
Khushi…I don’t know if all these qualities are of falling in love..I really don’t know…but if it is, then yes God dammit..I really LOVE YOU..
Those beautiful 2 words kept resonating in Khushi’s mind from last 1 hour. She was blindly starring at sheetal sitting in those 4 walls of hospital room, but she was lost in those flash back moments. She was blushing inside. That feeling like of a teenage falling in love.. A proposal which she never accepted to come this way.. She knew Arnav cared for her, she knew Arnav treats her special. She knew , he always had that tiny bit of attraction , but not to the extent where infact he opened his feelings for her .
Arnav singh Raijyada actually proposed her. Her mind wandered around possibilities of things….What would have been the things now if I would have said YES …… May be wrapped inside his strong arms…and then. .. will they have kissed ?
She kept blushing imagining the moment herself , applying the word “IF” again and again. She came out of her stance when she heard continuous tap on her shoulder.
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Heart throb of all female fans “Mr Arnav Singh Raijyada” who is most commonly addressed in Industry as ASR, was absent from recent star dust awards. There is bird speaking which says ASR is pepping on his Hollywood projects and soon to be Off from India. Few of other migrated birds speak that these days he has found his lady love and that he shying away from accepting or may be its again just some temporary relation which would dust away with time. But is thatt
“Stop it Karan. “ Arnav spoke irritatively in high pitch.” It’s the third time you have been reading the same news” Arnav gazed at karan in irritated way.
“Because you are not commenting on it ARnav” Aman equally replied straight on face.
“What should I comment huh? Its not new with Magazines and News gossips .It’s their marketing. ”
“Arnav, Iam not bothered about what they written. Iam focused on the sentence they have pointed. “Have you been shying away from accepting your new relation. Huh?” karan asked raising his brows.
“WTF !.. why would I?” Arnav questioned in succession.
“Yes offcourse. You never. May be I am mistaken. You don’t like or matter of fact, I guess you do not love Khushi . U do not like her, or may be its just attraction or may be..”
“SHutup Karan. I do like her and infact just 1 hour before I proposed her!” Arnav replied in single tone.
“Whaat? Arnav singh Raijyada proposed??? finally? “ karan held Arnav shoulders and shouted with happiness. He sensed it way before several months that his friend had fallen in love, he knew it would be matter of time before he would accept his heart.
”Do tell me more.. ? where did you take her?
Arnav was silent..
“Ah wait..was it just when you went to drop her parents back to home? That’s the reason why she for first time talked in someone what in low voice , I mean her reaction was different. And your facial expression..i mean...”
“Enough of your facial knowledge analysis Karan” Arnav replied and then turned away frustrated.
“.she might have jumped with happiness”
“She didn’t respond anything..” Arnav spoke in irritated tone again. Avoiding his gaze and to Arnav surprise Karan started laughing hard..
“Sorry bro, no offense..not able to control”
“What so funny?”
“I mean this look on your face..how does it feel when someone rejects ASR….”
“She did not reject.’
“huh…look on your face though is different…Anyway, Our boy has finally finally done a LOVE PROPOSAL…”
Arnav did not repliy.
“Arnie…Who would After all can reject your proposal..She would accept. I knew she would. She might be in shock..Great ASR baba could finally say something.”
“Iam not sure what is running in her mind..She was silent most of her journey....”
“She need to digest this big fact Arnav…the star has proposed her..May be she never expected , not so soon or may be she is concerned about sheetal and whats happening right now in her life… .. Not an easy thing…”.. Aman paused, gave a mischievous smile and popped a question again” But rest apart.,,Arnie, tell me how u r feeling? “
“For what?”
“Freeing up your thoughts MAN. For finally proposing your LOVE”
Arnav just looked away from Karan…to avoid his gaze and to obviously hide his feelings…
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A trip of voice conversion of male husky voice to the crazy crackle sound of calling her name..”KHUSHI”
Khushi realised it was buaji behind her.
“Where have you being lost? I have been calling you Khushi…”
“Nothing buaji....Just like that"
“Nothing? Then why are you smiling like mad seeing sheetal?” Buaji kept asking rounding of her eyes.. Khushi felt bit guilty and held sheetal’s hand in hers again .
“Khushi beta…,are you alright?” Buaji asked again seeing Khushi lowering her chin.
Khushi politely ignored telling about the truth. She knew Bauji would never understand if she would now say about Arnav. But she was solely mistaken. After all buaji’s was not that bad.
“Khushi, I don’t know how could any man pretend to show this fake love? Buaji begin a conversion suddenly.
“He really loves me Bauji. He really!!. That’s not fake love…Arnav really loves me!!”
“Arnav?” Buaji turned to look towards Khushi .
“I was talking about Aman”
‘huh?Aman ?.”
“Haan. “Buaji surprisingly again looked at Khushi and made a statement..
“You are hiding something Khushi.“
“I don’t know buaji…I was wrong in understanding Aman, may be I never even tried to make an effort… ..”Khsuhi suddenly stopped to look towards buaji back,. She pressed her fingers and questioned her back.
“Buaji,how do know about Aman?’
Buaji took a deep breath.“I heard rattle between Aman and Arnav. I did not initially understand things, but as the rift and ego of 2 men went ahead, I understood at last one thing, somewhere Aman tone was not right and that Arnav was trying to protect you. “
Buaji held hand on Khushi palm demanding her to tell the truth. She requested to tell about Aman. Khushi suddenly broke out and told what Arnav told about Aman. The way Aman is dealing with his strange disorder. How he was suffering from sexual issues., how he sexually tortures women to satisfy his burning desire.
Buaji was burning inside equally shocked.“Why did not you tell us then Khushi ..EK jor pakad ke thapad marti. Nandkishore. How could I go wrong in identifying person”?
“Pata nahi chala buaji…..aur waise I did not wanted any scene to create when akka was in this position. I will have to get answers from him tomorrow.
“NO!. you are not going to meet him. BILKUL bhi nahi..” Buaji was rigid and strong after hearing all about Aman and his unidentified issues.
After certain seconds of pause. Buaji softly questioned Khushi.
“You like Arnav?”
Khushi was silent ., but she changed the topic.
“Akka, ko hosh aajaye jaldi. Our one negligence and she consumed the sleeping pills…”
Buaji could notice the tension, yet the strange thing which Khushi was avoiding to face.
“Wo theek ho jayegi khsuhi. You reply to my answer. “
“Akka needs us. I cant be selfish at this ,moment..”
Buaji wanted to talk more, she was not typical buaji , she loved khushi from all her heart. And more importantly she had already sensed there is more to their relation. She had sensed when she heard Arnav arguing with Aman. She did not understand many things, but she fairly understood there is a spark between both of them. A moment of selfishness she thought if Khushi would be with Arnav, Khushi would lead a life of a queen.. Everything could change
“Its your life also Khushi. You cant run away from it. Akka will be happy for you. You wont get this chance..No one ever gets like this..” buaji talked with her in very mature tone.
But Khushi looked away from her.
Buaji held khushi’s hand in hers, rubbed it slowly.. “ Sach bata, kisi baat ka darr lag raha hai? Tumhe ye to nahi lag raha tu uski zindagi mein adjust kar payegi ki nahi? Agar aisa kuch lag raha hai to bata…..”
Khushi now turned towards Buaji. There was almost silent tear which could have fallen, but the eyes were pretty dried up to soften that tear to fall down…
“Buaji,, I really don’t know if I would adjust in his life. I really don’t know…Life is puzzle… there are many things happening….and its not the way you are seeing…lets sleep now.. First we need to make akka strong. Lets think on that. She has to walk with her head up with confidence with Dignity. She has to live a life alive…….nothing else I want right now…I want to meet Shanti devi tomorrow. I will take akka and go….She would be right person…She deals with women …Akka should get engaged in some work..whatever she should be kept busy….”
Buaji wanted to convince her more ,but she better thought to keep it later when things would fall in place. She moved towards the extra bed which was towards other end to take bit of rest…
She stopped near windows to draw the curtains, but her hand paused…..
“Tera to pata nahi.Khushi kya chahthi hai..kya soch rahi hai….but wo kya chahtha hai ye to dikh raha hai…“
“Buaji , please , let we talk this afterwards”
“Does anyone wait even at mid of night for someone? He is worried for us , for you…and…”
Khushi eyes zoomed out. She ran towards window.. Buaji , saw how khushi was looking at Arnav… A sight of care, a gaze of love , a look of belonging, ..but then suddenly she fumed….in anger….Before Buaji could reply anything…Khushi was soon out of room….
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Change is good, but it's also hard
Those simple words--"I love You”. .. can set off a cascade of complex emotions. One such , currently was Arnav undergoing.
“I cant believe Aman would stoop to such a level. “
Karan spoke passing back the cigar to Arnav. Arnav though blindly took, but did not reply anything. His mind was aching towards everything that he said to Khushi. He was in disbelief in itself. He had never planned to propose to anyone, to fall in love, and even if so, how dynamically things went on. How he proposed out of no where..but he felt lighter..more lighter after letting the things from his heart..….Iam in Love…Khushi……
Karan was right. He had proposal finally. He never thought he would anytime acknowledge love in this way, that his heart would beat , care for someone to this extent.
He smiled and puffed a cigar in long stretch…
But why was Khushi silent? If it was any girl, she would have jumped with happiness. But Khushi? Why she was silent? She was in shock did not she ever expect? Or she doesnot love me? Damm!, better if its undershock.
“Arnie ? Would you care to reply.” Karan questioned him again, seeing Arnav lost in himself.
“I don’t know.why she did not reply anything?”
“Arnie!! Iam speaking about Aman” Karan spoke and grabbed the cigar from Arnav’s hand!.
“Aman?. “ Arnav asked sarcastically.
And that bought Arnav back to his nerves suddenly.. His friend Aman. He had asked Karan to arrange for someone who can hook with Aman to capture proofs.
“How could I miss this. Karan, Did you arrange for someone ?” Whats update on this. We planned to capture it all.”
“Not worry buddy. I had arranged for call girl. .She has met him. But I haven’t received anything from her now.. May be will wait for few mins. Its just 12:30 now.
“what if aman did not go with her. ? have you given clear instructions to her? She has to capture the act, his torture..whatever..”
“Everything is being set Arnie. We should soon get the footage.. .Lets go back to hotel. Shall catch up bit of sleep”
“hmm”
Arnav puffed cigar again,. before he could again fall back to his juggling fathering mind and could realize, matter of action.. there was hold on his cigar.. and it was taken out from his mouth .
“what the f..” he looked side ways in the direction of cigar. Fuming
The words sail down sleeplessly …eyes melt down aimlessly…heart pumped faster and ..that feeling of belonging came in instantly…
“Khushi?”
Before he could utter more things… he knew she would be first..
“Mr Raijyada, you lied !”
Arnav raised his eyebrows in question
“You said, you had quit smoking. !” Khushi tone was commanding.
“Is it?. No .when did I say that? “ Arnav asked in
“Vogue India.September edition”
Khushi said the next moment. There was confident, proud in her reply, feeling proud of remembering the date.
Karan who stood their watching this unwanted episode kept open his mouth admiring the level fan would dedicate their time and memory.
“Wao. Seems you have followed ASR so much. I envy that. “ Karan replied. Khushi suddenly realized his presence, but did not reply and turned to look at Arnav again.
But Arnav stood there amazed, lips took their own nasty curve , equally feeling happy, amazed ….
“What happened ? why are you smiling.?.” Khushi questioned back.
Arnav hands slowly went towards her tender waist bone and before she could feel that sudden tingling sensation, she was pulled more tightly, towards his chest.
She could hear his breath, so close to his eyes.., those chocolate brown eyes….the way he smirked.
“Itna to kisi nai muje dil sai yaad nahi kiya” Arnav questioned
“You know that..A big fan of yours then?”
“And Now?” Arnav asked in his husky tone.
Arnav slowly lifted his hands from her waist and bought up near her face and carefully tugged few strands of hairs up behind her ear ..His gaze was moving from her eyes, her chin, her ears, her shivering lips …
Their strong gaze pulled each other this cosmic force. Love that was its peak, attraction was at peak…harmones which equally triggered to adrenaline high, lips that take a livid turn…and then…they hear a a scratching sound , It was of Karan…
”ahem ahem..excuse me….sorry sorry. Would never disturb you…..but something urgent”
But he knew what Arnav gaze meant--…”what the hell u were standing here all the time..”
But Khushi was quick to reply in scratchy disturbed tone “sorry. Its nothing between us. Just that” .
Arnav turned to look at her with that sentence..”nothing between us”
“Arnav, I received a message from the call girl. She is with Aman. “
Arnav gave a snotch of smile.
“call girl?” Khushi asked in surprise
Arnav turned to look back at Khushi and explained her what they have been planning with Aman.
“Khushi, Aman is suffering from sexual issues and disorders which has to be promptly treated , if not believed. We have to drive it this way. Need proofs of his act”
“Arnav, That was not necessary. You have simply taken a trouble. I trust you Arnav. And even Buaji belives you. We would have convinced Amma”
“II have not taken this step to convince anyone Khushi,.I need not have to convince anyone. Aman characters is more than what you have imagined. He is not a simple womanizer. I could have broken his nuts then and today ..on your engagement day. Giving all sorts of proofs. But for a change, for first time I held myself back. Because of sheetal. I don’t wanted some ugly truth, ugly discussion should bother your sister when she is recovering from mental trauma.. but now since Aman has challenged me, I would like to play his way.
“But Arnav”
“Shhh” Arnav keeps a finger on his lips.
“Trust me. None of them would dare to raise a anything on you nor your family.Do not worry.”
“Do you think now afterall what happened … would I care for log kya sochenge?” Khushi replied and continued..” I stood in with Aman today , this engagement today with him, this relationship because I thought may be this is what my fate is….i thought may be it was just few of his old affairs… but I did not knew anything of what he could turn out to be… .what if I would have got trapped in that relationship..what if he had tortured me….I would have blindly written my fate…..Thanku again for everything you are doing for me..Arnav and and I and I “ Khushi was suddenly speechless…she wanted to shout and tell how much she loves him…
“Khushi, I am still waiting . You can still write your own fate..Dont leave on situation, don’t leave on God..Trust your instincts and Iam sure it wont prove you wrong..”
“Wo Arnav ..” Khushi wanted to make him understand about how this relation can bring complexities because of their background, about sheetal being unwell.
“Is it because you are worried about your sister? “ Arnav questioned straight to her surprise.
Khushi was silent and avoided his gaze
“You need not Khushi.. We together would take care of sheetal..and trust me she would be soon fine….”
“She needs me Arnav and I want to be with her and also Its not only just about akka. Its also about you ..?”
“Me?”
“your status..about…your”. Khushi was struggling with words. She wanted to make him understand they belong to different world. She could never adjust in his glamour world. She would never.It will fade one day..
‘About mine what more?” Arnav questioned again.
There was a pause again from Khushi.
“I need Medicines Karan!” Arnav shouted.
“Medicines?”
“For my bleeding heart…because no one bothers to say anything here…”
“Its too late. Please go hotel. Can we talk tomorrow pleaseeee“ Khushi politely requested.
Arnav walked out and stood few feet away.
She blindly saw him going…but her gaze suddenly fell on Karan standing. Karan could catch that uneasiness. He was above to take excuse, but he stopped and finally muttered all his strength to talk with Khushi again
“Khushi Iam sorry. I know you would never forgive me. But”
Karan was quiet next. Arnav turned to look back at them.
“I don’t know how much she remembers of her past . temporary loss which she was facing..or may be she remembers all those brutal rape attacks..may be even by you. I cant and I can never forgive you karan. ”
“God’s sake Khushi . You need to understand something that sheetal has gained bit of memory and you know what , she remembers karan very well and she took his name. I don’t know if she is anry or if she in peace.. but she did remember and for God sake, I know you are protecting her, you care for her, But you should not-because she has to learn to protect herself. You can safeguard her and keep her in coccon, but you should not- because she has to learn to fly. Make your sister to face the world, the reality. Iam not saying alone. Stand with her, but give that push to her!
As Khushi turned to go in fury, she slowly turned towards Arnav….
“Thank you so much for everything Arnav. Trust me , I” Khushi wanted to reply and speak.
“looks like there is one more crazy fan of me..” Arnav cut off her in mid. Khushi gazed at his eyes direction. She could see Buaji standing near window staring at Arnav..
“Good night Khushi..You take rest!”
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PART 1 ENDS
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