Raavi was lost in her thoughts as she was stirring the curry in the kitchen.she felt she had no purpose in life .she woke up, cooked for the entire family, cleaned the house, did some chores and went to sleep.shiva has been ignoring her for days now. He has been busy in the room construction, which faced so many obstacles.finally it was done, only some last touches remaining.she expected that atleast now his mind won't be preoccupied and he will talk with her properly.but she was wrong.whenever she initiated a conversation, he just slept, or atleast pretended to for avoiding her.
Things are sour between her and rishita, yes she did make a mistake. She assumed that maybe Rishita had spoiled the cement,but she did apologize for that immediately.she was feeling lonely.she had noone to talk to.even dhara Di felt like a stranger to her now.she would anyways defend shiva and advice her to see the goodness in him .she did see the goodness in him.she knows him from childhood and never ever has she thought of him as a bad person.
Shiva's taunts that she has been like this from childhood had hurt her that day . did he think of her as a judgey person? if he disliked her so much, how are they supposed to stay together for life? In a marriage if not love, you need to have atleast a basic level of respect for the person.
" Raavi kya kar rahi hai? Sabzi jal jayegi " dhara came rushing.
Raavi got out if her trance.
" Dhyan kahaan rehta hai tera? " Dhara asked
" Woh...sry dhara di.mai dobara bana deti hu " she said.
" Koi zaroorat nahi hai. Ab mai aa gayi hu na, mai bana lungi." She said.
" Bhabi, bahut bhook lagi hai " shiva entered
" Shiva, thoda time lagega .yeh sabzi jal gayi hai.mai dobara bana deti hu." Dhara said.
" Ek kaam thk se nahi hota isse.na dukaan par na ghar pe." shiva said
Raavi felt sad.she went out before anyone saw her tears.
" Shiva! .yeh kis tareeke se baat karta hai tu raavi se? Galti hai. kisi se bhi ho sakti hai." Dhara reprimanded him.
Shiva took a deep breath to calm himself down.he does not want to be rude with her, but his temper flares up in her proximity nowadays.avoiding her inspite of being so close to her is a torture. Seeing her laughing with Dev carefree burns something inside him.thats what she deserved.laughing away with the man of her dreams .and what she got? Him. Laughing with him is far away, she laughs at him with others.
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Shiva entered the washroom and saw raavi struggling with the Dori of her dress.
He Turned away quickly and closed his eyes.
" Gadhedi hai tu? Bathroom ko leke itna bada kaand ho gaya, phir bhi tujhe samajh nahi aya? Dev ne kaha tha ki jab koi bathroom use karega to speaker chalu rakhna " he said angrily
Raavi flustered seeing him and quickly brought her dupatta and covered herself.
" Woh, mai jaldi jaldi mai bhul gayi " She said.
"Ek kaam bhi thk se nahi hota tujhse " he muttered.
Raavi was angry now.she is a human who makes mistakes.that doesn't mean he has to taunt her everytime.does he have any idea that it hurts her?
He came in front of him.
" Har baar mujhe sunane ki zaroorat nahi hai.aur waise bhi agar tum bhaiyo mai basic manners hote na, to yeh brilliant bluetooth speaker idea ki zaroorat hi nahi padti." She said and was about to go when he held her hand.
She had not tied her Dori yet.
" Teri dress ..woh Dori .." shiva said
Raavi just jerked his hands and ran off.
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Suman kaki had to mortgage her Kangans to get money for the room.the construction started in full swing.
Raavi was determined to talk to shiva today.he can't run from her forever.she was pacing up and down the room when he came inside, took a pillow and was about to head out when raavi came in front of him.
" Tu kab aaya? Aur kahaan jaa raha hai? " She questioned
"Chhat par sone jaa raha hu." He said
" Par gombi ne to Krish se kaha hai " she said
Shiva went ahead but raavi locked the door and stood in front of him .
" Kab tak bhagega shiva? Roz ek naya bahana" raavi said
" Tujhe to Khush hona chahiye.iss junglee gawar se chutkara milega tujhe.meri berang Zindagi se dur ho jayegi tu " he said
He remembered the lines of her diary? She was shocked.
" Tune meri diary ki lines yaad rakhi hai shiva? Maine woh diary jala di. Woh mera ateet hai,mai sab kuch bhul chuki hu.tu bhi Bhul jaa na shiva " she pleaded.
He banged the door.
" Nahi bhul pa raha. kya karu? Jab bhi Teri shakal dekhta hu wapas se teri likhi hui saari baatein yaad aa jaati hai "
" Purani yaadein nahi bhul sakta par nayi yaadein to bana sakta hai na. Nayi yaadon mai kab purani yaadein dhundli pad jayegi pata bhi nahi chalega.kam se kam dosti se to shuruwat kar sakte hai " she explained keeping her hands on his shoulders.
He jerked away her hands
"Teri meri dosti kabhi nahi ho sakti raavi.mai zameen hu, par tujhe to aasman chahiye "
" Yeh kya bol raha hai tu? Zameen aasman? Mai tujhe nahi samajh paa rahi shiva . Akhir chahta kya hai tu? " She said in frustration.
" Tu mujhe samajhne ki koshish mat kar . Hath darwaze se .jaane de mujhe " he warned
" Nahi hatungi, mai bhi dekhti hu tu kaise jaata hai " she said firmly.
Shiva closed his eyes Taking a deep breath.
" Aakhri baar keh raha hu, hatt ja.nahi to iske baad jo hoga mujhe blame mat karna " he said pointing a finger at her
" To Mai bhi akhri baar keh rahi hu.nahi hatungi." She replied with the same fire in her eyes.
Shiva tried to push her to the side, but she put up a strong fight.she held onto to the latch of the door.shiva was not applying that much force to avoid hurting her, but she was testing his patience now.
" Tujhe samajh nahi aata, bola na hatt jaa " he shouted
Raavi was taken aback by his tone.she silently left his way.
Shiva banged the door and went outside.
Raavi cried herself to sleep that night.
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Raavi was feeling drained out.she thought to go to her maasi for a day to clear her mind.perhaps she can get an idea to set her bhootnath straight.
She heard some commotion outside.
" Are ek baar ke liye kutte ki doomb bhi seedhi ho jaye, par prafulla tu kabhi nahi Sudhar sakti " suman was shouting at her.
"Mere baccho ki itni si khusi bardasht nahi hoti na tujhe.haath dhoke mere parivaar ke peeche padi hai" she went on
Suman was trying to find out who had entered the house that night.she got a hint from one of the neighbours that a lady in a bedsheet was seen going out from Prafulla's house.Anita had conveniently blamed maami for the same.
The whole family gathered in the angan listening to the commotion.
" Teri beti ko hum itne pyar aur samman se rakhte hai. Par tujhe to Rishton ki koi kadar hi nahi hai.aur kitna neeche giregi tu? Bahut badi galti kar di maine jo tere ghar se dobara rishta joda.isse accha hota ki..." Suman stopped seeing raavi.
" Are ruk kyu gayi .bolo na suman behen .isse accha hota ki meri raavi ko Apne haal par chod dete.mai nahi ayi thi shiva ki rishte ki bheek maangne.aapki bahu ayi thi.mai to bilkul nahi chahti thi ki meri beti ki shaadi ISS junglee se ho " maami screamed angrily.
Shiva glared at her.
" Teri Dushmani to mujhse hai na phir mere bhaiya bhabi se kyu nikal rahi hai.." shiva said
" Bas maasi.bas kijiye.kyu mere baar baar kehne par bhi aap apni harkoton se baaz nahi aati.aap.kyu nahi samajhti ki bure kaam ka nateeja hamesha bura hi hota hai.kyu mujhe sharminda karne pe tuli hai? Aap plzz jao yahaan se"Raavi said frustrated folding her hands
Prafulla was irritated.she felt really angry.first she was being blamed for something she hasn't done.and now raavi is ashamed of her.
" Bas kar raavi.tu to bahut achi hai na.kya hua tere saath? Maa baap chodkar chale gaye.mandap pe dulha chodkar chala Gaya" she spoke
" Ae maami..." Shiva spoke angrily.
" Tu mere aur raavi ke beech kuch mat bol " she said to shiva.
"Are tujh jaise anath ko paal poskar bada kiya.agar mai nahi hoti to kisi anathalaya mai padi rehti.tu itni ahsaanfaramosh nikli? Ab tujhe mujhse sharmindigi ho rahi hai? Tu kya mujhe jaane ko keh rahi hai.mai khud tujhse saare rishte todkar jaa rahi hu.jab yeh shiva bhi tujhe chod dega na tab rote huye mere paas mat aana " prafulla continued her venomous words.
Raavi felt someone had sucked the breath out if her.she stumbled a bit.shiva was about to reach her but dhara held her.
Shiva went to maami
" yahaan se chali jaa.isse pehle ki mai hamari rishte ki maryada bhul jau...chali jaa yahan se" he said in a dangerous tone clenching his fist.
Prafulla left from there giving raavi a final look.
*Clap clap clap*
Rishita came forward
" Wow raavi.kya kaha tha tumne? Maine cement pe paani daala tha.tumhara parivaar hi iss sab ke peeche hai.* Rishita scoffed
" Bas kijiye bhabi. Usne galti ki aur uski maafi woh maang chuki hai.ab yeh sab bolne ka kya matlab hai? " Shiva said
"Kyun? Tum log to ek mauka nahi chodte mujhe aur meri parivaar ko sunane ka.ab jab raavi ke parivaar ne kuch galat kiya hai, to sab chup ho" Rishita said
" Humne kabhi bhi janardan ke kiye ke liye Tumhe blame nahi kiya, thk usi tarah maami ki galtiyon ke liye raavi se koi kuch nahi kahega" gombi declared firmly looking at rishita in particular
Rishita just huffed and left.
" Raavi, tu andar chal." Dhara tried to console her.
Shiva was looking at her for a reaction, but she seemed blank. He was getting worried.
" Mai kuch der ke liye akele rehna chahti hu dhara Di" she said
" Par raavi..." Dhara intervened.
"Plzz dhara di.plzz" she repeated.
Gombi nodded at dhara who let her go.
Shiva was unsure if he should let her be alone or follow her.but he thought that maybe she needed this.he watched as raavi went to their room and closed the door.he just glanced into the room for sometime from the window to make sure she was fine.she was sitting on the bed and writing something in her diary.shiva let her do that and did not disturb her as he went to work.
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After working for hours in the store shiva freshened up and came to the room.
Raavi was nowhere to be seen.
He checked the bathroom, kitchen, aangan but still no sign of her.
" Bhabi, aapne raavi ko dekha? " He asked
" Nahi.par apne kamre mai hi hogi. " Dhara said.
" Nahi hai bhabi" shiva said getting tensed.
Everyone searched in the house but raavi was nowhere to be seen.
Shiva called maami to enquire if raavi was at her place, but she refused.
He was getting tensed now.the sound.of thunderstorm was not helping either.the weather was getting worse, it was getting late.where could she go at this hour?
He went out and madly searched for her.asking nearby people, looking at the roads carefully.he would search every nook and corner of Somnath , but he will find her.
It was raining heavily.but the storm was nothing compared to the turmoil going on in his heart.
All kind of thoughts were running in his mind.what if she harms herself.he cursed himself for not looking out for her.
And then he found her.curled up and crying sitting by the side of the bridge.
He rushed to her and held her shoulders.
Pulling her close to himself.
" Kya kar rahi hai tu? Dimaag kharab ho gaya hai tera? Tujhe pata hai kabse pagalon ki tarah dhund raha hu tujhe Mai? " He said in one go shaking her.
She pushed him with all the strength she had.
" Kyun? Tune hi to kaha tha na tujhse dur rahu.ti ab kyu fark pad raha hai tujhe? " She questioned him
"Dekh raavi, abhi yeh sab bakwas karne ka time nahi hai.chup chap ghar chal " shiva said
" Kaunsa ghar? Koi ghar nahi hai mera.tune to kabhi mujhe apni biwi mana hi nahi .aur aaj apne maayke se bhi bedakhal ho gayi mai.koi ghar nahi hai mera " she screamed
Shiva's heart ached seeing the hurt in her eyes.
He immediately came to her , held her cheeks.
"Aisa nahi hai raavi.mera ghar tera hai aur humesha rahega.tu jaanti hai sab tujhse kitna pyar karte hai. Dhara bhabi,gombi, Krish.maa ki to tu favorite hai " he reassured her.
" Aur tu shiva? " She asked him with hopeful eyes
He looked down.not able to meet those eyes which held so much hurt and questions.he left her and turned around.
" Nahi hai na koi jawab." She said sadly.
" Itni buri lagti hu kya Mai tujhe?" She said her voice cracking.
Shiva turned back to her .
" Raavi, Aisa nahi hai.dekh teri diary padhne ke baad.." shiva was interrupted by her
" Phir se diary? Us diary Mai Aisa kya likha tha shiva jo tujhe pehle se nahi pata tha? Tu jaanta tha na ki mai dev se pyar karti hu? Phir bhi tune Mera haath thama.agar itni hi problem thi tujhe to kyu ki yeh shaadi? " She questioned him holding his collar.
" Dhara bhabi ke kehne par" he replied looking straight into her eyes.
Raavi looked at him shocked.now she gets it .shiva couldn't have refused dhara di.he will easily give up his life for her, marrying his arch enemy was still an easier task.
She left his collar and stepped back .
" Ab mai samjhi.mujhe lag raha tha mere saath galat hua hai . par tu sahi kehta tha.tere saath bhi galat hua hai. Maine tujhse kabhi nafrat nahi kiya shiva.main toh hamesha se tujhe apna maanti thi,shayad isliye iss shaadi ko accept karna mere liye aasan ho gaya.par tu? Tu to bachpan se mujhse nafrat karta hai.mera maasi se rishta, dev se juda hua mera afeet.kitni gadhedi hu mai, Jo yeh ummed kar baithi ki tu mujhe pasand karega" she said Looking hopeless.
" Raavi. Aisa nahi hai .tu galat samajh rahi hai.dekh tujhe hamesha se dev jaisa pati chahiye tha." He was again interrupted by her .
"Aur tu yeh baat kabhi bhula nahi payega.thk hai shiva .mai teri gale ka kaanta nahi banna chahti.kaun sa ladka apne bhai ki rejected cheez se..." She was stopped by shiva
" Bas raavi, isse age ek shabd nahi bolegi tu." He warned her
" Kyu? Sach sun nahi pa raha hai shiva? Mai tere layak hi nahi hu .dev ki galti ki sazaa tujhe mil rahi hai.ek kamre mai bardasht nahi kar pata hai tu mujhe, kaise puri zindagi jhelega? " She said sadly
He had enough.this girl was foolish.he had to knock some into her.
He held her close again .
" Tere dimag mai na sach mai bhusa bhara hai.tu mere layak nahi hai? Puri duniya mai barso tak dhundne par bhi mujhe tujh jaisi ladki nahi milti gadhedi.mujhe iss baat se koi dikkat nahi hai ki tu dev se pyar karti thi, mujhe iss baat se takleef hai ki tu apni marzi se mujhe kabhi nahi chunti.tu mujh jaise jangli,gawar se kahin zyada better deserve karti hai.aur mai tere liye khudko badal nahi sakta raavi.sab kuch bardasht kar sakta hu, par teri ankho Mai mere liye taras nahi dekh sakta.tujhe majboori mai apne paas ate huye nahi dekh sakta mai" he Said with tears in his eyes.
Raavi looked at him surprised.so that's why he has been pushing her away.because he thinks he does not deserve her.and here she was thinking he hates her.
" Tu mujhe gadhedi keh raha hai? Tu sabse bada gadheda hai .tu bhi to mujhe apni marzi se kabhi nahi chunta na.halaat kuch aise bane ki hum dono ek rishte Mai bandh gaye .aur shiva mai roz bhagwan ko thank you bolti hu ki meri shaadi Dev jaise insaan se nahi hui.tune mujhe yeh ehsaas dilaya ki sirf acche kapde pehenne se koi gentleman nahi ban jaata.insaan ke kapdo se badhkar uska kaam aur niyat hota hai.aur agar padhe likhe ladke Dev jaise hote hai jo ki ek ladki ko mandap pe marne ke liye chod de to nahi chahiye mujhe aisa ladka.aur yahaan tu kya kuch soch ke baitha hai.mujhe kitna rulaya hai tune pata hai? " She complained hitting his chest with her tiny fists.he let her take out all her frustrations.he stood silently as she hit him.
" Bhootnath.bandar.gadheda.kaddu pandya" she swore at him.she finally stopped after getting tired.
" To tu mujhse?. matlab.." he said unable to find the right words.
" Tu mujhe accha lagne laga hai shiva.nahi chahti mai tujhe badalna .koi shikwa ,koi shikayat nahi hai mujhe tere kapde yaa kaam se." she said in one breath
He pulled her into his arms.she sobbed her heart out.shiva let a tear fall from his eyes .they stayed like that in the heavy downpour.
Raavi broke the hug first.she put one hand on his cheek.
" Jab maine zindagi se saari umeed kho di thi, tab tu aaya.tujhse ladhte jhagadte kisi tarah dobara muskurana sikh gayi mai.jaanti hu hamara rishta thoda alag hai.par shiva tere siwa mera koi nahi hai.mujhe sawar le shiva, nahi to main bikhar jaungi" she said looking into his eyes.
" tujhse Shaadi karke koi ehsaan nahi kiya hai maine raavi. Biwi hai tu meri.haq hai tera mujhpar, mere parivaar par.woh ghar tera hai.phirse kabhi mat kehna ki tera koi nahi hai." Shiva said
" I am sorry raavi, maine tujhe bahut hurt kiya.par main vaada karta hu abse puri shiddat se iss rishte ko nibhane ki koshish karunga." He promised kissing her forehead lightly.
" Mujhe kabhi apne se door nahi bhagayega na? " She questioned again.her abandonment issues had crept up and shaken her up real bad.she needed some security.
" Kabhi nahi.tu meri chipkali hai.kahin nahi jaane dunga ab se tujhe" he assured her again taking her hands in his .
She jumped into his arms again, clinging onto him as if her life depended on it.
" Aree...tune to chipkali wali baat kuch zyada seriously le li" shiva said as he stumbled backwards, but managed to balance her .
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