Samaina SS : "Suhana Safar" (*Updated*; Epilogue on Page 85) - Page 20

First of all so sorry Aaisha.. Issbaar bohot late ho gayi main toh 

Sameer ne Naina par gussa utar diya.. Main bhi bohot time aisa hi karti, kisika gussa kisipe nikal deti hu.. Bohot achha feel hota hai par baad mein utna hi guilt hota hai 😆😭

He shared his past, his pain with her.. I'm glad, he feels that she is closer to him 

He suffered a lot of pain in his childhood.. Par uski nanu ke saath ki misunderstanding dur ho gayi wo achha ho gaya.. 😃

And their handhold thoda filmy tha.. par achha laga.. I liked the way she explained it to him very calmly 😊

I loved Rohan and Sameer's talk.. I wanted this desperately in the show, but never got it 😔

The Bhai' word, with so much feels.. And chhotusa Deepika scene was really cute 😳

It was such a cute convo between SamAina after RoMeer talk.. 😃

They helped each other in studies.. Show mein sirf naina hi help karti thi 😆

Sameer giving confidence to Naina.. Best part for me in this update 😳

And the poem was ❤️.. Loved it.. Tumne likhi hai??

I loved the VO's in this update 👏

Thanks for the PM dear

Originally posted by: AaishaM

Hello everyone, I am back with the 4th part of the story. Kaan pakad kar sorry for keeping you people wait again but kya krun, pdhai ka mamla hai . Anyway this part is written solely to explore Sameer's family dynamics in Delhi. I was not at all happy with the way things were abruptly ended in the show and I tried to explain Sameer's troubled childhood and the life he had lived without his mom by his side in the best way I could (Chain nahi pdta mjhe owing to my OCD).  I don't know whether I suceeded or not but this is all I could manage with Nanu still alive in my story. I hope you all like it.

                                         Part 4

"Sameer, Sameeer suno to sahi, kahan bhaage ja rahe ho?"  Naina stopped in her tracks trying to control her breath as she followed Sameer across the corridor unable to match his pace.

"Dekho Naina mujhe is bare me koi bat nahi krni hai". Sameer replied and without waiting for her response continued walking. As he exited the main gate of the college and entered the large playground nearby, he spotted a bench at the corner and sat there holding his head in his hands trying to relieve the anger which was bubbling inside him.

"Sameer tumhe Rohan par chillana nhi chahie tha, sun to lete vo kya kehne aya tha" ; Naina said as she settled herself on the bench beside Sameer.

Sameer angrily looked at Naina and shouted, "Naina jab tumhe kuch pata hi nahi hai to kyu gyaan baant rhi ho?  Dost ho dost ban kar raho, meri life ne interfere mat kro".

His sudden outburst scared Naina. This was the first time he had raised his voice in front of her. More than his anger, his words hurt her. How could he be so mean to her when all she wanted to do was to help him?

"Theek hai, mai nahi krungi interfere aaj ke bad se tumhari life me. Mai jaanti hun tmhe pasand nahi hai apni personal baatein share krna, mai ye bhi jaanti hun ki mai shayad kuch kr nhi skti lekin dard baantne se kum hota hai aur har problem ka solution gussa nhi hota", Naina retorted back and got up to leave.

The sad tone in her words made Sameer realise his folly and he impulsively held her hand to stop her from going, "Mat jao Naina, mai gusse me pata nhi kya bol gaya. Mai tumhe sab batata hun"

Naina's heart shuddered as she felt his firm grip on her hand. Goosebumps erupted all over her skin. This was the first time he had held her hand. Infact, this was the very first time any guy had held her hand. Nervously she turned back to look at him. Unable to speak anything she alternatively  looked at him and his hand which still  encircled her wrist tightly.

"So so sorry, vo galti se", her confused expressions gave away the hint and Sameer released her hand. Naina nodded and sat on the bench again.

It took almost an hour for him to let his guards down and reveal his inner self to Naina while she patiently waited for him to speak up. "Naina main 8 saal ka tha jab mere papa ki death hui. 10 saal ka hua tab Mummy ne dusri shadi kr li. Mjhe aaj bhi yaad hai kitna khush tha main us din ye soch kar ki finally mere paas bhi papa honge jo mujhe bohat pyaar krenge aur fir school me koi mujhe nhi chidaega. Delhi pohncha to meri sari khushi ek pal me khatam ho gyi. Mummy Mr Somani aur Rohan ka dhyan rkhne me itna busy rhne lg gyi ki unhe khyal hi nhi raha ki vo apne sath apne chote se bcche ko bhi le kar gyin thi. Mr somani to meri taraf dekhte bhi nhi the. Aur Dadi, unko to mai bilkul accha nhi lgta tha. Mujhe khelne nhi deti thi, baasi khana khilati thi aur mummy ke samne har dusre din meri shikayat kr deti thi. Mai itna pareshan ho gya tha Naina ki ek din mne gusse me aa kr ghar ka bohat sara samaan tod diya aur dadi pr zor se chilla diya. Mr somani ne agle din hi mjhe hostel bhejne ka decision le liye aur meri khud ki mummy ne ek baar bhi unhe kuch nahi kaha. Jab mummy mjhe hostel chodhne aayin thi mai rote rote unke taraf dekhta raha ki shayad unka man badal jae aur vo mjhe na chodh kr jaen. Lekin aisa kuch nahi hua aur meri mummy apne 8 saal ke bacche ko hostel me akela chodh kr chalin gayin". Sameer smirked and continued  "aur dadi ne jane se phle mjhe ye jhuth bol diya ki nanu aur mummy ne pehle se hi decide kr liya tha ki mummy ki dusri shadi ke bad vo mjhe hostel bhej denge"

Naina's eyes started to well up with tears and her heart flinched seeing him in that state. She felt bad for him. Moreover, she felt like cursing herself, how could she not figure out that beneath this happy, cheerful Sameer, was an innocent kid who had been suffering since such a long time.

"Sameer", she tried to console him but Sameer interrupted in between," Aaj bol lene do mujhe Naina".

"Mummy ne to Nanu ko itne din tak bataya bhi nhi ki mai hostel me hun. Ek din nanu mjhe surprise dene Delhi gaye tb unhe pta chla. Vo usi waqt bus le kar Nainital aaye mjhse milne. Lekin mai unse bohat gussa tha Naina. Itna gussa ki mai unse mila tak nahi. Unhone bohat bar koshish kri mjse milne ki lekin mai nahi maana. Aise hi teen saal beet gye. Na mai chuttiyo me ghar jata tha aur na hi hostel me kisi se baat krta tha. Har mahine mummy yaad se paise bhej deti thi aur unki responisbility khatam ho jati thi. Mai bohat buri buri shararte krta tha islie nahi kyunki mjhe pasand tha balki ye soch kr ki ye sab krunga to mummy ko mjhse milne aana hi pdega. School me sbko lagta tha ki mai ek bigda hua ameerzada hun lekin kabhi kisi ne mere dil me jhaankhne ki koshish kri hi nahi. Jitne bhi dost bane sab mere paise ke piche the, kisi ne kabhi man se dost nai maana."

Sameer took a deep breath and continued "Ek din jaane kyu Nanu se baat krne ka bohat man hua. Unhe phone milaya ye soch kr ki unki awaaz sununga aur phone kaat dunga. Lekin ittefaq ki baat thi ki Ramdhari ne phone uthaya aur shayad maine kch bola nahi islie vo phone vahin rkh kr chala gya. Tab mne mummy aur nanu ki baatein sun li. Nanu khoob gussa kr rhe the mumma ko aur us din mje pata chala ki mere nanu ki to kabhi koi galti thi hi nahi. Mai hostel se bhaag kr sidha nanu ke paas chala gya aur bohat roya us din nanu ko gale laga ke. Maine apne life ke 3 saal aise hi gussse me beeta diye the, kitne bda bewkuf tha mai".

"Kyunki Meri 10th class start ho gyi thi aur Ahmedabad me english medium school  ki pdhai acchi nhi thi islie nanu ne decide kiya ki mai hostel me hi reh kr pdhai krunga. Lekin us din ke bad se maine mummy se apna rishta man hi man tod liya tha. Chuttiyan hoti thi to nanu ke paas chala jata tha.  Jitne bhi din nanu ke sath rehta tha bohat khush rehta tha. Nanu kabhi mjhe koi kami mehsoos hone hi nahi dete the".

"Aur ye mere nanu ki hi iccha thi ki mai Delhi se pdhai krun aur vapas aa kr unka business smbhalun.  Shayad islie mne jee jaan laga kr mehnat kri thi admission lene ke liye. Entrance Exam de kr vapas ja raha tha ki usi din Mr somani ki tabiyat khrab ho gyi. Mummy itna ghbra gyin thi ki unhe smbhalne ke liye main vhin ruk gya. Itna time lag gya unhe theek hone me lekin mai mummy ko aise akela chodh kr nahi aa paya. Aaj Mr somani puri tarah se theek ho gaye hain aur mjhe finally hostel mil raha hai to vo chahte hn ki mai unke ghr pr hi rhun. Kyu naina? Mai akela hi theek hun. Mjhe nahi chahie kisi ki hamdardi. Jab meri mummy ne aaj tak meri parwah nahi kri to mai ab unki baat kyu maanu? Mujhe pata hai Rohan bhi yahi sab bolne aya hoga aaj yahan". And sameer started crying.

Naina raised her hand to put it up on his shoulder to pacify him but she couldn't muster the courage to do so and she retracted her hand.

"Sameer parwah to tumhe hai na, islie to tum itne mahino se uncle ka dhyan rakh rhe ho. Mujhe pata hai tmne bohat saha hai lekin is sb ka gussa tmne aaj Rohan pr kyu nika diya? Uski kya galti hai? Tumhe kaise pata vo kya baat krne aya tha? Ek baar, sirf ek baar Rohan aur Deepika se baat kr ke to dekho, ek baar mummy se puch kr to dekho ki unhone aisa kyu kiya? Aise dil me baatein rkhoge to kaise chalega?" Naina said as she tried to pacify him.

"Rohan ne mjhse meri mummy ko cheena hai Naina, to mai kyu usse rishta rakhun? Aur Deepika vo sara din mjhe pareshan krne ke bahane dhundhti hai, apni dadi se sikhti hai sb", Sameer spoke in between his tears.

"Kyunki tum uske bde bhai ho Sameer. Jo kuch hua usme Rohan ki koi galti nahi thi. Vo bhi to baccha hi tha na jab aunty ji ne dusri shadi kri thi. Aur rhi baat Deepika ki vo tmhe islie pareshan krti hai kyunki vo tmhari attention chahti hai, bache aise hi hote hain " Naina tried to make him see things from a different perspective. "Please ek baar mere liye ye kr do na", Naina requested him. Sach me tumhe accha lagega.

Sameer wiped his tears and looked at Naina. Her words were having a calming effect on him. Her words forced him to believe that things would be alright. He didn't know why but he wanted to have faith on her belief.

"Theek hai lekin sirf tmhare kehne pr, aur mai Rohan se baat krunga, mummy se nahi",  Sameer finally gave in to her demand though partially.

Naina though wanted him to confront his mother and let out all the pain he has been hiding since long but she thought that it was better for the time being to let him take one step at a time. She nodded and asked
"Promise?"

"Promise", Sameer replied.

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Sameer entered Rohan's room and sighed seeing him glued to his books. He took a whole tour of the room thrice to catch Rohan's attention but Rohan was so immersed in his studies that he didn't even look up. Frustrated Sameer decided to leave the room when Naina's words rang in her ears.

"Ahhh Kyu maanta hun mai iski saari baatein" thought Sameer and braced himself once again to talk to Rohan.

"Ye globe ke bare me tumhe sab pata hai? " Sameer rotated the globe kept on the table.

"Kya"? Asked a surprised Ronan.

"Nahi matlab tmhari aankhon ke samne rehta hai to ab tk to duniya ki puri sair kr  hi li hogi", Sameer laughed at his own joke expecting the samw reaction from Rohan but he was greeted with a weird expression on his face.

"Accha tum bathroom bhi timetable ke hisaab se jate ho? Matlab agar tmhe kabhi aisa lage ki tmhe washroom use krna hai pr tmhare timetable me vo time khana khane ka ho to tum kya kroge?" Sameer again tried to lighten up the situation but Rohan's silence made him flinch in anger. "Meri hi galti thi jo mai isse bat krne aya", Sameer murmured and decided to go back to his room to control his anger.

"Bhai ghar chodh kar mat jao". Sameer stopped hearing Rohan address him as bhai.

"Mat jao hostel. Mujhe pata hai aapko yahan rehna pasand nahi aur dadi bhi aapke sath bohat bure se rhti hain par aap mere liye to ruk skte ho na. Mera koi dost nahi hai. Itni mushkil se to aap yaha aaye ho, chale jaoge to mai fir se akela pad jaunga. Aur ab to papa bhi chahte hain aap yahin raho" Said an emotional Rohan as he got up from his chair.

Sameer didn't know what to say. All his life he had tried to run away from Rohan but here he was standing in front of him addressing him as his brother. Emotions took the better of him and he hugged Rohan.

"Accha, sameer bhaiya se friendship kr li aur mjhe bhool gaye", Sameer and Rohan broke their hug and saw Deepika standing at the door with her hands folded casting angry glamnces on her brothers.

Both of them laughed hard and signalled her to come join them.

Sameer's VO: ' Bhai' ye ek chota sa word Rohan se sun kar mai apna saalon ka gussa bhool gaya. Baat sun ne me ajeeb lagti hai lekin kya krun jis apnepan aur haq se Rohan ne mjhe bhai kaha tha, mai khud ko rok hi nahi paya aur is tarah se shuru hua hum bhai behan ki zindagi ka ek naya chapter.

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As soon as Sameer reached the classroom the next day, he told everything to Naina. His face was beaming with excitement and happiness and Naina was elated to see him smiling after whatever happened the previous day.

"Ek baat batao, tumhe kaise pata chala ki Rohan ke man me mere liye kuch bura nahi hai?" Asked Sameer .

"Uff o buddhuram, jitna kal tmne use daanta tha na, koi bhi aur ladka hota to vo kheench ke thappad marta tmhe, lekin vo chupchap chala gya. Ab isse bhi bda kya reason chahie tmhe", Naina asked raising her brows.

"Buddhuram nahi hun mai, thoda gussa jaldi aa jata hai bas", Sameer put up his defense.

Naina couldn't help but smile at his response, "han to Mr Angry Young Man, apne gusse ko thoda control me rkhiye kyunki next time mujh par chillae na to baat nahi krungi tmse".

Sameer looked at her in shock and then burst into laughter," tum mjhse baat nahi krogi? Are jao, kisi aur ko dena ye dhamki. " Sameer replied only to be hit by Naina with her bag.

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Months passed and they became bestest of friends. The whole college was aware of their friendship. If one of them couldn't be found, everybody knew that he/she would be with the other one. They became each other's strength. Being a Hindi medium student, Naina had difficulty in understanding the English textbooks initially but Sameer patiently translated everything for her and made her master English and whenever Sameer had some problem with the concepts being taught in the class, Naina would come to his rescue. The guy who only used to study before exams started spending hours in library taking tuitions from Naina. She made studies a fun learning exercise for Sameer.

But their endevaors were not restricted to studies alone. They had found a secluded corner under a large tree in one of the grounds of the university campus which had become their favorite spot to pass time. It became a routine for them to sit under that tree and share things with each other. Sameer would play different songs on his guitar  for Naina and she would tell him all her hidden secrets. By then, they had started knowing each other inside out. They were aware of their likes, dislikes, family, school life etc. There was almost nothing in their life which was not known to the other person. Whenever there was a basketball match for Sameer, Naina would be the first one to reach the court and without her wishes Sameer would never Step into the court. Whenever bored, they would go out and sprawl Delhi's favourite markets, eat mouth watering food from chandani chowk and take long walks together. During short breaks they would go to Ahmedabad together always reminiscing their first meeting and once in Ahemadabad, they would go back to their old method of conversing through phone. All in all,  they had literally became inseperable from each other.

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April 1993

Sameer and Naina's first year was coming to an end and it  was time for the annual inter college competition. It was a 4 day event where students from all the DU colleges would participate in competitions like debates, quizzes, treasure hunt, painting, singing and what not. On Sameer's persuasion, Naina gave her name in the list of people interested in coordinating the event and owing to her excellent communication skills and academic records she was selected as the main coordinator as well as the anchor of the event. This was the first time Naina was going to do something apart from studies. All her school life she had only been engrossed in books. The nightmares of going mum at the stage were grappling Naina and she started to take out all her irritation on Sameer.

"Sameer, ye sab tmhari vajah se ho raha hai. Kyu force kiya mjhe? kaise krungi mai", asked and agitated Naina.

"Naina, pehle to na shaant ho kar baith jao, hum yaha pr tmhari opening speech discuss krne aye hain na ki jhagda krne", Sameer tried to calm her down.

"Sameer tum samjh nahi rhe ho", said Naina as she sat on one of the benches in the classroom facing Sameer.

"Mujhe jo smjhna tha maine smjh liya. Tum sab sahi kr rhi ho Naina bas apni body language theek kro. Itna kyu dar rhi ho. Confident ho kr bolo, aur ye apne dupatte se khelna band kro, galat impression pdta hai", saying this Sameer stood up and enacted the way she was supposed to speak.

Seeing him confidently speaking and impressed by the way he was presenting himself, Naina got lost in him. She forgot everything and blankly stared at him without even blinking her eyes. She was lost in her own world dreaming of Sameer when he snapped his fingers in front of her.

"Phir se kho gayi tum, kabhi sunti kyu nahi ho?" Asked an irritated sameer.

"Suna maine sab. Aur jab tm khud itne acche ho tokyu nahi naam diya apna?" 

"Kyunki mai ye sb krta rhta hun aur mai chahta hun ki tum apne andar ke chipe hue talent ko pehchano. Ab no sawal jawab aur fir se ek bar kr ke dikhao", Sameer ordered Naina and she obliged feeling happy at the fact that once again he was thinking of her happiness.

Naina's VO: Mai hamesha sochti thi ki kya karun mai is ldke ka. Heroine patne ke liye taiyar baithi thi aur ye bas yahi puchtha tha ki Naina kahan khoyi ho. Itni si baat hi nahi smjhta tha ki Naina 24 ghnte bas usi me khoyi rhti thi. Ji haan mjhe pata hi nahi chala tha ki kab mjhe Sameer se pyaar ho gaya tha. Shayad us din jab usne mera haath pakda tha ya shayad us din jab usne mera mood theek krne ke liye guitar bajaya tha ya shayad jab mai use pehli baar mili thi tbhi use apna dil de baithi thi. Pyaar chahe jab bhi hua ho, Mera dil hmesha yahi krta tha ki mai ghanto use dekhte rahun aur uske sath apni sari zindagi beeta dun. Jab vo saamne hota tha dil itna zor se dhadakta tha ki kya btaun. Mujhe to sapne bhi uske hi aate the har roz. Par meri mahaan kismat, mere buddhuram ko kuch smjh hi nahi ata tha. Itni bar dil kiya tha ki mai hi ja kr use bol dun lekin kya krun yeh un dino ki baat hai jab ldkiya ladko se dusro ki love stories bhi nahi discuss krti thi, to mai kaise usse apne pyaar ka izhaar kr deti?

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Finally the D-Day came and Naina took hold of the mike to start the function. She had expected Sameer to meet her before the function but he didn't show up which angered Naina. Seeing the huge crowd, she was once again stricken with stage fear when she saw Sameer standing in one of the rows and gesturing her to take a deep breath. His mere appearance made her forgo all her fear and she gathered all her courage and brilliantly executed all the events spanning the first day. For the next two days Naina was super busy looking into all the arrangements, seeing whether the work delegated by her to the other students was being carried out well or not. She didn't even find time to meet Sameer . Finally it was the last day of the function and like every year the last day was reserved for prize distribution after which students were left for themseleves to carry out unofficial performances  without the supervision of their professors. After the prize distribution ceremony, Naina one by one invited students to come on stage and showcase their talent. Some people sang, some danced, some mimicked bollywood actors and everyone had fun . When it was the time to wrap up the event Naina heard someone cough twice on mike which made her stand glued to her spot and concenterate on the person standing on the stage.

Ahem ahem. Mera naam Sameer Maheshwari hai aur mai B.com first year ka student hun. Mai Koi kavi to nahi lekin ek kavita likhi hai maine kisi khaas ke liye jo mai aap sbko sunana chahunga. Please dua kijiyega ki mere ye dil ke jazbaat us ke dil tak bhi pohnch jae jiske liye maine ye kavita likhi hai "

Mai jab jab teri aankhon me jhaankta hun;
Khud ko mukammal sa paata hun.

Akela kaat hi raaha tha zindagi ke ye safar Ki ek roz tujhse mulakat ho gayi;
Aur is dil ko laga ki iski sari khwaishe puri ho gayin.

Tune meri duniya ko rango se sajaya hai;
Meri adhuri zindagi ko apni khilkhilati hasi se khoobsorat banaya hai.

Suna tha logon ko kehte ki ishq ne acche accho ko nikamma bana diya;
Pr teri mohabbat ne to mujhe jeene ka saleeka sikhla diya.

Aaj bhi jab zehan me aati hai hmari vo pehli mulakat , Dil me jazbaaton ka sailab umad aata hai;
Teri vo saadgi, tera vo apnapan dekh kar  bas ek hi khyal aata hai,
Tum kahaniyo se utari koi pari ho ya ho meri kalpana koi?
Jo bhi ho tumhe dekh kr bas sajda krne ko jee chahta hai.
Jo bhi ho tmhe dekh kr bas sajda krne ko jee chahta hai.

As Sameer finished his poem, the whole crowd cheered for him. Boys hooted sking him to recite it again while girls lamented at their luck of not having a guy like him in their lives. Sameer was happy seeing the response but his eyes were searching for Naina who couldn't be seen anywhere. He excused himself and began to find her. He frantically searched almost all the classrooms, asked all of his classmates but there was no sign of Naina. Thinking she might be at their favorite spot he ran towards the ground. He felt terrible on not finding Naina even there.

'Sameer kya zarurat thi stage pr ye sb bolne ki, pakka gussa ho gayi hogi, kya krega ab tu? Tujhe bolna hi nahi chahie tha, ab to dosti bhi khatam. Jab itne time se chup tha to thoda aur wait kr leta'

Sameer cursed himself and began walking towards the college building once again when he felt a tug on his hand. As he turned sideways he saw Naina holding his hand, slowly and carefully entwining her fingers with his'. His lips broke into a smile as Naina continued to walk forward holding his hand without even looking at him. Sameer was surprised at her calm response and amazed by the fact that she was holding his hand without any hesitation as this is where she always belonged to. Sameer held her hand tightly as if assuring her of his love and they both kept walking down the road. It is said that silence if listened carefully, is beautiful and that night Samaina enjoyed their moment of love silently in each other's company without explicitly voicing out their feelings.

Phew, this was the longest update I guess. Do let me know whether you liked it or not. And I have no idea when will I get the time to update the next part. To please thoda wait kr lena