To begin with
apologies Gan, I am extremely late I know but had some guests over and well it
was unexpected - guests usually are unexpected as well as tiring, you get the
drift right?
Beautiful collages and such amazing quotes, as usual.😃
So let's get
this show on the road now.
I'll be honest
here Gan because that's the only way I know how to write things that I need to
pen down.
I have been very
vocal about being disappointed with the get out of my house drama that came up
and last night when the confession scene started on the heels of that drama it
didn't sit well with me. I couldn't digest two characters that I love and adore
becoming so...so ...jaded. It was disappointing to me and I spoke about it in the
LU, A LOT.
Then tonight
happened and well there' only so much a girl can rant especially about the
things that she doesn't have the power to change, and so with as much patience
and tolerance I could summon within me I sat down to watch tonight' episode.
Skipping over the minutes in between wasted on the annoyance plaguing us found
that I actually quite liked it. Yes, I had to put the latest drama behind me
but the sentiments, the words penned by Ritu Deora were spot on and all I could
think of was why, why was the you leave my home drama even necessary, because
had it not been for THAT one particular thing this would have been so PERFECT.
Why did they add
that really, because she isn't even being mad, the confession happened DESPITE
that and so it still makes no sense to me why was this stupid thing even
written in the script.
If it hadn't
been written this would have been everything that could have and would have
been APT for IshRa, and so I decided to just let the things I can't have any
control over aside.
And as soon as I
made that decision I came on the forum and reserved a spot on your thread, the
very first one too by some weird co-incidence.
Therefore, I
will write about the scene disregarding the things that make me want to shake
someone in the Balaji and SP camp badly, if only I could do that, but alas, I
am moving on.
After lots of
talking in circles, we arrived at the moment most awaited and there was a
goof-up, or so it seems.
Raman' first
confession that he really intended and meant had him mouth "I Love You
Ishimaa".
It ruined things
for her and for a second there stumped him, he immediately reverted to mention
Ruhi and spoke of his kids, their kids...said that they impressed the word upon
his mind...
But in his
heart, that's how Ishita began to make a place for herself, she started out as
the woman he saw as the mother of his child, his daughter - the little girl who
so longed for the love of a mother, who eventually became the mother of both
his children. In my opinion, Raman Kumar Bhalla started getting attracted to
Ishita Iyer a long time before he even admitted it to himself; the seeds were
sown on one rainy night where they found themselves stranded together for that attraction
to take root. But he fell in love with her, the moment, his daughter called her Ishimaa for the very
first time; the instant he saw them hug he knew the pure joy, the unadulterated
happiness on his child' face is courtesy of this woman who he had just married and hard as he tried to
ignore Raman Bhalla was a goner.
I have always
adored the scene, the stumped look Raman has there, then the way he
schools his features just in time for no one to take notice how the little
moment affected him, but the truth is it does. The magic stays on forever with him,
which just gets more potent over time as he falls more and more in love with her
how could he not after all?
I always
believed that after Shagun Raman locked up his heart, so tightly at that that even he had no idea
how to escape the confines he restricted around himself, even though, as is the
case with the finest of armory too, his armor had a chink - his children. Though he tried to not let it be known; this
woman went ahead and tackled that very chink - she let him see how easy was it
to love and be loved in return - all he had to do was, allow himself the chance
and hope for that.
He saw the joy
his daughter found in the love of a mother and in loving that mother.
So while Raman
saying I love you Ishimaa is a blunder of sorts, it's the way their journey
began, it's how he started to fall in love with this woman - as the mother of
his child to begin with.
His next words
were a simple "I love you to her" - twice over.
For the times
that he lied or made it seem the words he spoke earlier were a pack of lies.
Earlier when he said them they had been true too, only one he wasn't willing to
acknowledge to even himself, hell he was fighting himself back then too, to not
surrender to his growing affection for this woman. The first time he said those
words, he made up the excuse that Ruhi was looking at them, true she was, but even
his daughter couldn't possibly have heard them all the way to the third storey
even if he yelled over the downpour of the rain. The other time was made to appear as a means
to distract her attention enough to help her through a moment of pain.
Slowly however,
the walls began to give away, she chipped away his defenses just by being who
she was, is, this woman he got to know her as not just as a mother, a daughter, sister or
DIL/SIL but just Ishita. Little things
about her that made her strong or weak, silly or wise, the way she infuriated
him to the point of madness as well as made him smile despite the very madness
that drove him up a wall.
He fell for
Ishita - for being the child-woman that she is, the woman who knew how to bring
out the best in him even if he showed her his worst, more often than not.
She made his
dark life lighter by her smiles and the laughter she infused in it. She made
him want to be a man who couldn't help himself when it came to her. Teasing her, annoying her, doing things that
made her roll her eyes or drive her to the point where she would positively be
seething. Because whenever he did that,
whenever he managed to ruffle that cool exterior - he got under her skin and as
he did so, he didn't even realize he allowed her the same. In enjoying ruffling
her feathers, he started making room for her in his heart, bringing down bricks
one at a time that would one day fell the wall.
He resisted with
all his might but in the end, he came to love Ishita justifying his - "I love
you Ishita."
Now was there
any point in denying, in resisting, in fighting a lost cause,? She was the mother he wanted for his
children, the woman he came to adore, the woman he loved to annoy - she was the
woman he saw himself growing old with - the woman who he accepted in his heart
of hearts as his soul mate, his lover, his wife.
This woman became
Ishita Raman Bhalla for the world the day he tied the knot with her, but who in
his heart became the wife he fell in love with over time. This time he didn't surrender
his heart easily but surrender he did at last and not because he HAD to love
her, no, there was no compulsion that made him do it now, like the last time. A
relationship that is supposed to be a bond of love wasn't stifling him, on the
contrary it was loosening him up - this time his heart was conquered and he
yielded, but in that, he won, in losing his heart he found his victory - his freedom
as he admits - he came to life.
Therefore, Raman
Bhalla admitted he has come to love "Ishita Raman Bhalla", not because it was
expected of him, rather because he simply had no choice in the matter this time
around. Since this time a face hadn't bewitched
him enough that made him ignore the person behind the beautiful mask, rather
the heart drew him out of his shell, enough for him to recognize that this time
around the woman he had come to care was beautiful inside and out - and most
importantly, she made him feel the same way too.😳
Edited by EkPaheli - 8 years ago
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