chapter 6
Geet came back to her room in dazed
footsteps..something awakened in her that she did think she have it within her..she
was unsure to feel..or name the feelings.its just that the throbbing in her
chest at his touch was not a fleeting sensation .it was settling in her
..spreading roots.
She leaned on the door after closing it behind her. shutting
her eyes to go back in memory. Relive the moment all over again .
His face flashed .etched in her
memory like a golden dream. His scent was still all over her ..she shuddered at the
remembrance of his leaning face on her .Dragged her tired self to the bed and slumped on it
covering face in her palms.
He is arjun sir...my teacher...for god's sake what was I
thinking .?it was so wrong ..it feels horrible to even think and there I even had let
the idea of kissing him run through me...
she sighed as guilt washed over her. what was wrong with her? she wasnt a child anymore. she knew all along where all
those frantic heartbeats leading her to .all those excuses to meet him leading
to..but yet she chose to walk on that path ..when did she cross the line and didn't
even regret .How
could she be so deluded that it didn't occur to her who he was.
How could he be hypnotized with kind gestures and suave
looks so much she forgot admiring her teacher is a another thing and personalizing
him was totally different..regret ran through her.
how could she let herself tangle in this path . she
promised myself not to sway with emotions over again.Her thoughts flew back to a moment of past.
Geet bitiya...open the door bitiya...her aunt's voice
flew around but not touching her.she stared blankly at his father's vacant
bed..she should cry.cry and flood the world with tears. Soak herself in
pain.but she cant.its too painful to breath .too painful to cry.what would it
do.it wont bring back her papaji..her father was dead.she is much matured to
understand her aunt's false words..why don't they say her simply he was
dead.what ?they think she cant handle it?
"Geet bitiya."..her voice again flung to her...seemed so
distant like calling out from another world...to distant to reach.
"I hope she is alright" ...geet's aunt murmured ..it had
been 48 hours bauji ..she addressed her father in law who sat in pensive silence.
13 years old Geet sat like statue .. she wasn't handling
it...grief was handling her..she had everyone of her large family around her
..but yet she couldn't connect.
you could have just stayed with me...papaji...she
murmured rubbing her hand through the spread.
it was so lonely like she was the only one
alive in a graveyard .her mother left her the moment she had opened her eyes . her dog died last month..and HIM..HE had
left her too.now her father had left her too.
Papa...you told he would come and always be with
me when I needed him most..why did you lie papa.i watched you die slowly ...i
fought alone..and he didn't come.i watched you leave me forever but yet he
didn't come...he didn't do anything to stop you from leaving me'
Her early years of adolescence had been sweet.. Moments
of storm whirl of newly discovered emotions..shy stealing glances .feel of his
palm on her tiny hands .. lingering promises...the peeping through the crack of the door ..his smile ..'the chocolates rained
on her lap as he came from behind..her looking at them with awe and his
indulging her with fond smile.tugging at her pig tails . ... the day after the ceremony
he went and never came back. Taking her belief on human relationships forever.
what did she do to be such punished?
"i never lied. Never wronged anyone. Always done my
homework's in time.so why did you snatch papaji from me god.." why didn't MAAN came back after making such promises to
her .she had waited everyday from dawn to dusk '.why did he abandon
her such way after promising to fetch the moon for her.
Good works never get appreciated. Isn't it ?
She didn't care anymore if god didn't answer her.
She had asked dadaji later after some years..gathering
much courage she finally asked.
"Dadaji...why didn't he come back...all these years..?"
Dadaji snorted in reply .."fitrat bitiya'.!!
he got what he wanted bitiya ..why would he come back...forget him ..that was
most stupidest thing ever happened with you .. Your providence and the
cunning chap."
She stood limply lowering her head dejected all over by his
opinion ...
"But papaji always believed.."she murmured'.
Dadaji didn't let her finish by raising his hand in
air.. and said with much anger in his voice.
"To hell with his belief..!!"
"Your father was the most stupid son one could ever had.i
wonder if he was my own blood.first he married your mother and then this with
you ...stupid and stubborn as hell! Always building relationships with lowlife
beggars..he has done nothing but bringing the shame on the family .."
"Don't let his doings affect you bitiya" .his harsh voice
softened instantly ...
"You study, hang around with your friends, enjoy life..you
are a raichanda ..raichanda's don't wait for anyone.what happened to you isn't
even official ... I m sure he shares the same feelings.he feels no no
obligation to you bitiya..you should feel the same too.I tried contacting him
for your sake..believe me bitiya you are better off without him ..you shoudn't
pay for my dumbass son and his whims "
Geet didn't waste time asking another word about him
ever ...she didn't like her dead father being heckled for his doings
..like loving her mother.. .marrying her..or caring for his only child geet and
taking some decisions..
What is the use...Maan never remembered her ..contacted
her..why would she care?
Her father might have chosen the wrong person ...but his
intentions were to protect his geet from the inevitable trauma of his death.she knew that much.
But the hurt was there for a long time...he didn't come
back ever looking for her ..hurt changed to anger after sometime..then it was
indifference all she had.Thereafter she stopped thinking about him...it was young aged
mistake...few meaningless insignificant promises that none of them valued
anymore. She forgave and forgot him finally .
But today again the same flutter of heart .. same wait for
the heart to skip the beat ...why again ?
geet closed her eyes and let out a deep sigh.she must
control her wandering emotions and close the door tight before the surge could
flood her.
***
Arjun sat in his desk .the image of her flashed again and
again in front of his eyes. geet in his apartment making it home. Her touch
was everywhere. From the tiny flower vase to the spread of the bed..he was
afraid to touch anything scared of losing her touch.
Geet in his arms ...so close to his heart ...buried in daze
..he could swear that he saw his own emotions mirror in her eyes. Her
lips quavering in anticipation of his kiss. The flicker of desire in them. Her
palm on his beating heart.
He had thought the moment would never come..he would never see
any emotion for him in her liquid malt eyes..so deep he had feared he would lose
himself in them.He had prayed the moment would never end..she will be always in
his arms forever and ever.
Sweet scent of lilac of her skin still lingered from his shirt .
***
She could hear the music coming through the open
window.this time She knew who was it.. expressing the inner turmoil
through music ...geet sat still with her head leaned on bedpost .
I will just busy myself in life so that this stupid
feelings doesn't get a single scope to trespass inside my mind. she was
determined to keep her distance from arjun .
***
Next few days were absolutely silent for arjun..geet kept distance from him all through..he noticed her gossip with friends
casually, sit and laugh in the cafeteria. Her voice flew to him from union room
often. Its like she was there living her life fully as before, not even aware of
arjun's presence .she was so distant that he wondered if anything ever happened
that night .she totally ignored his being..even in the classes she sat still
with her head buried in the copy taking notes as a dutiful student. never lifted her face to look at
him...he waited for a single eye contact ..so
that he could see those eyes again with her heart in them ..may be a glimpse of himself.he secretly hoped every
time she will look at him ..
But she didn't ..like he was nonexistent to her.
Anger or hurt which affected him more he didn't
know...just he fought with the desperate urge to ask her why wasn't she talking
to him .?
Damn the girl made him feel like a teenager ..spun
by gust of emotions .hurting him over and over again .how many times he
had to be affected by this girl to understand it over and over again that she
didn't care...he never existed to her...why the hell I don't get this and
get the damn heart out of it . I m not here to be pained by geet...he slammed
the book shut sitting alone in his chamber...he had another class of her batch
in afternoon which he had no desire left to take.
"Sir...may I come in ."
His heart skipped the beat thinking it as geet ..
yes...?? he lifted his expectant eyes at the door.
But it was not ...dia entered the room with a lots of
copies and books in her hand.
He managed to smile and put some enthusiasm in his voice...
"So show me what notes you have made...!"
***
Geet had looked at his retreating back after he walked out
of the class.the broad shoulders of his, the poise in his walk always made her
remember of her father ...it was the only moment she allowed herself look at
him...
earlier she had felt his eyes linger on her tad more than
usual in the class.
But she controlled herself not to get swayed by every time
he looked at her.
She was lost in her thoughts when she felt Sunanda was
saying something for a long time ..but she couldn't hear anything .
So what do you think geet ...? she could hear the last bit
of her question ...beside her vikas was sittng on zaria's desk ..while zaria
stood beside him gaping him wide eyed..she had a not so secret crush on him for
a long time...vikas had played along without giving her much hope .but its not
geet's matter to interfere..zaria was an adult.
"Tell na...what do you think about it .."
"What about ..?" geet asked not able to understand what she was
referring to.
"Where have you been yaar .you haven't heard a single word I
have said..did you ...?" sunanda asked exasperated..
"Yeah ...she has been doing that a lot lately" zaria
exclaimed.While sunanda gave her a pointed look..."what is it geet
...?"
geet had no idea all this long she was staring at vikas .
"Seems like you have come to your senses finally
" vikas clapped grinning wide. "after all how long you would make me wait ...he
winked at her.
she cursed in her mind .off all people she had stare at him and think about arjun sir moony eyed.
but her wicked bones didn't miss the chance .geet quickly covered her lost state and reverted back to her normal
charms.she exclaimed touching vikas's hand ."er vikas ...i have been wondering to tell you that all this
time ..but wasnt sure how to..now i think it would be best if kept straight. i think i am falling in love with you .!"
Huh..!!!!. all he could say was that.when he had suggested that at first he was kidding but now geet at her earnest best bowled him out.
"Oh geet ...finally .i so waited for this moment...i knew it .".. Vikas stammered at her sudden advance...much happy with
the change..
Laughter managed to come to her after such long brooding
days.. a blasting laugh bubbled in geet's throat ..but she managed to keep her love struck puppy eyed look
intact..
"You are so intelligent vikas..and so dashingly handsome..i
could not take my eyes off you that night in shaan's party..i have realized its only you who
suited beside me."
Vikas clasped her hand between his own and said .."you have
done the right thing saying this before my birthday ...its the most amazing gift
...we will be the most happening item in college .So its settled . wear a black cocktail dress for my party ...?oh you would look so hot in black..!would you please ?."
"of course vikas !ask away anything." ...she battled her eyes at a clueless vikas.
"So it's a date ...!" .vikas grinned at his luck.
Arjun couldn't believe his own ears.blood rushing to his head so fast he felt dizzy.He has heard the entire conversation while he was about to enter the room... he clenched his jaws so tight that it actually hurt. thats it ! He had heard enough ,entered the class with a loud bang
on the door.so geet's prank came to an screeching halt and vikas went back to
his seat grinning wide .
Zaria looked at him and whispered to geet ..."Do you realize
he didn't get your prank ...?"Sunanda and zaria were unaffected by geet's sudden
declaration of love..because they had known it geet had no intention of dating
him ever. Actually they often makes fun of him at his futile attempts of wooing
her. pranks like this was not new for geet .
"I do" ...geet whispered back suppressing a giggle.
the darn girl had the audacity to grin in front of him ..!! he breathed to control the rage that was maddeningly overpowering him .
"Miss Zaria .sorry to interrupt you !. please come here and
share the matter of your urgent discussion with us." arjun icily bit out.. "come
...i insist ...! miss geet you must accompany her ."
The whole class was in pin drop silence being aware of
arjun's sullen mood. He is known for humiliating the shit out of a student when
he is mad at him/her .
Astonished by the flare of anger in his voice geet glanced
at him ...she was immediately rewarded with pool of hatred and
resentment.what had she done now ?her heart sank .
"Sorry sir." zaria uttered with her head hung to her chest
...while geet didn't utter anything at all...stood with her head bowed...she
was much more affected by the hatred in his eyes than the bitter words he
uttered. the same eyes that had adored her endlessly a few days back .
Arjun looked at her ...he waited for a obstinate retort
that didn't come.Exasperated he asked both of them to sit down not wanting to waste anymore time.
The class continued without any further interruption...but
geet couldn't join her mind to it ...she sat oblivious to his voice...his one
look again made her drop into that whirlpool of emotions that she had thought
she has shut successfully .
After a certain amount of time arjun started his usual
questionnaire..geet didn't hear a bit of anything he said...sat blank with her
eyes fixed on the wall ahead.
He had noticed geet to be lost in her thoughts .which
infuriated him more..
Geet could make out dia's voice in background but couldn't hear
it..Dia said something to his question...and then she could
hear her name.
"Miss geet ...so what do you think Milton meant by the line?"
She was oblivious to the call..A piece of chalk struck her forehead.
she winced immediately coming out of the trance.
Geet raichanda...i m talking to you ...!! arjun shouted
losing temper ...
Suddenly she realized whole class is looking at her
including arjun...She raised from her seat .
"Care to share your reverie...?"
Geet stood there with lowered head having no answer to his
question..
"Please narrate the part we have read in this class" ...arjun
knew it very well she hasn't heard a bit of it .."Oh ...you might have been writing your own paradise lost in
your mind...please share it with us... we are all ears ...thats why Milton
wasn't admirable to you."
Whole class broke into laughter which they quickly
suppressed by arjun's glare...vikas was the only one who didn't join
the laughter while he was busy shooting daggers to him.
She again had no answer to this..
"Why do you come to the class if you don't find it worthy
enough to listen ...? why are you even here ...why don't you say good bye to
all this joke and enjoy the parties that you rock...dont let us keep you
here miss raichanda..."
Geet shut her eyes tight at the utter humiliation in front
of the whole class.
"Just get out of my class...now...!" arjun pointed his
index to the door.
Without a single word geet picked up her belongings
.before walking out of the class geet looked up to meet his eyes ...to witness
the resentment for her.
at that moment the bell rang announcing the end of geet's misery.
Arjun was punched in his gut at what he saw in her eyes.The big eyes had so much hurt in them that made him
remorse immediately everything he said.
Whole class went out leaving the two of them alone in the
middle of the classroom.neither of them moved from their position .their eyes locked holding them captive .
she was the first to recover.she slowly neared his table. He had his eyes fixed on the
table in front of him when geet kept two books on it and said in a small voice
.
"Your books .."
arjun didn't reply to that.
"Wait...!!"
Geet stopped in her track.Slowly turned to face him and asked ...
"is there anything
left to say ?"
arjun just stared at her. was there really anything to say..?He had nothing . .. neither had she. .
he
gazed her like she was the only thing he was holding onto..His eyes had that look ..that look always clenched her
heart. not resentful not hateful . Just a quiet hurt ...mirroring her
own..eyes that spoke volumes..
She knew he was pacifying her. she took the humiliation he
meant for her .but not the pacifying after that..She could feel tears pricking
in back of her eyes..
Geet raichanda never lets anyone see her tears ..she
abruptly walked out of the room without waiting for his permission .
Arjun took a deep sigh .he sat there quietly in the empty classroom .The whole thing was watched by a single person who had a
confused frown on his face.vikas was waiting for geet to console her and help
her plotting against him.but what he saw in that silent conversation , made him suspicious.
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chap 7
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Edited by Amour_Reet - 10 years ago
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