Sacred Sin
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Part 26
"Anyways
learn it fast because you are getting engaged within 2 days and then getting
married within 10 days". He told her casually and
walked towards his room leaving her thunderstruck, staggered, and shocked.
"Getting engaged within 2 days and married in 10
days." She repeated as she carried her weak body and wretched mind towards
her room after hearing final verdict of her life from her dad.
"It means that I can't stay with him forever. It
means that we would never be together." She covered herself with the duvet
as she thumped on her bed helplessly. Only these words reverberated in her mind
and she was scared after knowing the harsh reality.
"Once again he has gone and I am left all alone.
What am I supposed to do now? And I don't know where to go and whom to
ask" She was sobbing when she felt beeje's hand on her head.
"Khushi," beeje
called her.
"Are
you angry with me?" Beeje tried to pacify her after
realizing how scared she was.
"But
every girl has to leave her home." beeje tried to calm her
down but there was something else going in beeje's mind.
"I
know why Suraj is doing this. He can't bear that you are going to college and
he has no other option but to send you and by marrying you to someone he can
get rid of this problem too." Beeje sighed.
I
know you are not ready for the marriage. You even don't know the meaning of the
word marriage. But I am helpless. Beeji thought as she patted
Khushi's head.
"Beeje, I don't want to go from here. I don't know
him. I can't marry him. Please beeje, do something. Please.." Khushi
begged but her cries were useless since no one had the capability to convince
Suraj Gupta.
"Khushi
don't worry. I am sure he will love you."
beeje tried to soothe her but Khushi could only think of Arnav when she heard
the word love from beeje's mouth.
"Arnav," She whispered his name when beeje left
and his name seemed to dissolved in the darkness of the room just like he used
to disappear in the obscurity.
Ever
since I was young, I never understood about the world or anything that happened
in my life. Sometimes various things didn't make sense but it never mattered to
me. But the only thing that ever made sense to me is you and how I feel about
you.
The
only thing that is pure and true is this feeling residing inside me for you.
Whenever you touch me, though I know it is forbidden but still those are the
moments of bliss making me more pure than ever.
First
time he kissed me, but he only kissed
The fingers of this hand where with I write;
And, ever since, it grew more clean and white.
She didn't know what she felt. She wasn't aware of the
exact name of these feelings. But each and every second without him was
tormenting her soul mind and heart. It was being difficult to bear with each
passing second.
(Plz
do play this song in the background if you want to get real feel of the scene)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6wuWugZrAXc
The next morning she took a bath and absentmindedly
looked at her cloth lying on the bed. She held the dress in her hand to change
and as soon as she was about to slid her dupata, their closeness flashed in her
mind.
"Arnav," She uttered his name and closed her
eyes but her whole body trembled when she felt his strong hands on her waist.
"Remembering me?" He whispered huskily and his
warm breath was falling on her neck. A single tear escaped from her eye but
smile crept on her lips knowing that he is there for her.
"Won't you change?" He asked again and she
shook her head in no.
"Hmm," He chuckled and the next moment roughly
shoved her on the bed. She didn't dare to open her eyes. But she could hear his
footsteps approaching her.
Jaanam,
dekh lo, mit gayi dooriyaan
Darling,
look around; the distance between us is dispelled.
Main yahaan hoon, yahaan hoon, yahaan hoon, yahaan.
I'm
here, I'm here, I'm here, here!
(Jaanam, dekh lo, mit gayi dooriyaan
Darling,
look around; the distance between us is dispelled.
Main yahaan hoon, yahaan hoon, yahaan hoon, yahaan) -2
I'm
here, I'm here, I'm here, here!
Kaisi, sarhadein, kaisi majbooriyaan
What
borders are there now? What obstacles?
Main yahaan hoon, yahaan hoon, yahaan hoon, yahaan
I'm
here, I'm here, I'm here, here.
He sat beside her and made her sit on his lap and before
she could react she felt his hands on her dupata taking it off. A Shiver ran
down her spine and she closed her eyes more tightly
"Did you miss me?" He asked again planting
kisses on her neck and she again lied, shaking her head.
He didn't answer but started to trail the kisses
downward, driving her over the edge of insanity. She arched her back and her
head fell back, giving him more access and inviting the demon inside him to
taste the dangerous curve of her neck.
Her breathing was hitched now and the tension was
building in both of them. She didn't know what he might do but one thing was
sure that she wanted more than this.
He trailed his way upward again and rubbed his stubble
against her cheeks.
"So you didn't miss me? I want an answer Khushi."
He placed his head on her heart that was beating
violently.
"If you didn't miss me than why is your heart
beating so frantically?"
Tum
chhupa na sakogi main woh raaz hoon
I'm
the secret that you can't hide;
Tum bhoola na sakogi woh andaaz hoon
I'm
the impulse that you can't forget.
Goonjta hoon jo dil mein toh hairaan ho kyun
When
I echo in your heart, why are you surprised?
Main tumhaare hi dil ki toh awaaz hoon
I'm
your heart's very voice.
Sun sako, toh suno, dhadkanon ki zabaan
If
you can hear it, then listen to the language of your heartbeat.
They both didn't moved for a few minutes and then he
raised his head but didn't say a single word neither made a slightest move. He
kept on gazing at her face intently to see the flow of emotions before he could
continue.
She heard him chuckle and next moment his hand started
sliding off her zipper at the back of her dress. She clutched his jacket in her
fists still hugging him while he slid it off completely.
She buried her face in his shoulder and his hands started
to roam all over her back without seeking her permission.
But
when did he seek my permission? He has always touched me like
he owned every bit of me. What is the name of these feelings?
I
should stop him from proceeding but I am enjoying every second of it.
I
should atleast make a vague attempt to free myself but contrary to that I am
anticipating for more. Why it doesn't seem like a sin to be touched by him? Why
his touch seems so sacred? She questioned herself as he started to
remove her shirt, baring her to his hungry eyes.
Main yahaan hoon, yahaan hoon, yahaan hoon, yahaan
I'm
here, I'm here, I'm here, here.
Kaisi, sarhadein, kaisi majbooriyaan
What
borders are there now? What obstacles?
Main yahaan hoon, yahaan hoon, yahaan hoon, yahaan
I'm
here, I'm here, I'm here, here.
She could feel his gaze roaming freely on her body but
didn't dare to open her eyes. He started to kiss her neck and then trailed her
way down. Her hands went into his hair and she clutched them in her fists
pulling him closer to herself.
He started to go lower when a low moan floated from her
parted lips and her eyes fluttered open. She looked dazed and confused,
frightened because he was not there. She was still sitting there alone with her
shirt in her hand.
Tears started to flow from her eyes as she realized that
she had been merely imagining him to do all this.
"Why???????????????????" She questioned her
self
"Where are you? Please come back. I only want to see
you when I open my eyes.I only want to feel you. I only want to hear you."
Whole day she couldn't shove him off her mind. She was
waiting restlessly all day for him but he never came. Whole Gupta mansion was
busy in preparation and she was dying each moment.
Tomorrow
is my engagement. What will I do without you? I can't do it? She
went to her terrace stared into the dark deep sky.
Darkness reminded her of him. It was raining heavily but
still it didn't have any effect on her. She kept on standing there still
waiting for him.
"Come inside." A commanding voice reached her
ear.
Main
yahaan hoon, yahaan hoon, yahaan hoon, yahaan
I'm
here, I'm here, I'm here, here.
Main
yahaan hoon, yahaan hoon, yahaan hoon, yahaan
I'm
here, I'm here, I'm here, here.
Main
yahaan hoon, yahaan hoon, yahaan hoon, yahaan
I'm
here, I'm here, I'm here, here.
"Is it really him? Or am I again dreaming about
him?"
She looked at him in confusion and a sly smile crept on
his lips.
He was standing casually, folding his arms across his
chest.
"You will catch the cold. Let's go inside." He
ordered her again.
He paced forward and she instantly stepped backward
fearing that he will disappear again as soon as she touched him.
"No," She was almost panting while she said
those
He closed the gap and grabbed her slender waist in his
hands.
"Do you think you can escape me?" He asked,
boring his eyes in her eyes with such intensity that it his gaze was passing
sensation in her abdomen. He seemed to read her mind as he pressed her body
with his and supported her weight on him.
She gripped the edge of his jacket, lifted her face and
looked up at him.
Main
hi main ab tumhaare khayaalon mein hoon
Now
I and only I occupy your thoughts;
Main jawaabon mein hoon, main sawaalon mein hoon
I'm
in the answers you receive and the questions you ask.
Main tumhaare har ek khwaab mein hoon basa
I'm
at the center of every one of your dreams;
Main tumhaari nazar ke ujaalon mein hoon
I'm
the light that shines from your eyes.
Dekhti, ho mujhe, dekhti ho jahaan
Wherever
you look, you see me;
Main yahaan hoon, yahaan hoon, yahaan hoon, yahaan
I'm
here, I'm here, I'm here, here.
Jaanam, dekh lo, mit gayi dooriyaan
Darling,
look around; the distance between us is dispelled.
"You will find me wherever you go ,Khushi.
Because.."
He didn't complete his sentence.
But his hand started to squeeze her waist while his lips
made their way to her neck. He rubbed his warm lips on her cold trembling one
but didn't kiss her properly igniting the hidden passion in her.
He slowly made his way to her neck then to her cleavage.
She pulled him tighter pressing his mouth tasting the skin of her upper chest.
Jaanam,
dekh lo, mit gayi dooriyaan
Darling,
look around; the distance between us is dispelled.
Main yahaan hoon, yahaan hoon, yahaan hoon, yahaan
I'm
here, I'm here, I'm here, here!
Kaisi sarhadein, kaisi majbooriyaan
What
borders are there now? What obstacles?
Main yahaan hoon, yahaan hoon, yahaan hoon, yahaan
I'm
here, I'm here, I'm here, here.
Main yahaan hoon, yahaan hoon, yahaan hoon, yahaan
Why
I can only think of him? Why I feel he is somewhere deep inside me. He is a
part of me. What is this called? Is it love?????She
asked herself and realization dawned upon her.
Yes
it is. It is love. I love him.!!!!!!!!!!!I only love him.!!!!!!!!!
She thumped on the ground as she realized it was merely a
dream and tomorrow she would be engaged with someone else and she could do
nothing about it.
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