Chapter 75: Contemplations
He looked over to
her side and found her staring absently out the window of the passenger side.
He couldn't take the
silence anymore. Especially because what
happened was that his mind filled in everything they didn't say to each other
with its own conjectures, which were starting to border on pathological.
He had lain awake
all night watching her sleep. She had looked
so tired… and sad…
He had wanted to ask
her so many things…
Like why she had been crying to his
mother?
Was she upset that she was pregnant with
his child just when Shashank was back?
Did she feel stuck in this marriage
now?
But he didn't ask
her any of these questions… because he wasn't sure that he wanted to know the
answers. He was more selfish than he thought. He had given her an out before and she hadn't
taken it. And now it was too late... Because he wouldn't let her go now even if
she wanted. He was selfish like
that. But if he wanted to have a remote
chance of being successful in holding onto her, there was something that he had
to do.
***
The silence was deafening…
that particular bit was not a
hyperbole, she discovered, just as a
heart that was ripped to shreds wasn't.
Both were very real… not embellished or exaggerated in the slightest...
How could he have done this to her?
Did he not feel one-tenth of what she
felt?
Had their physical intimacy been just sex
to him? Had it been that meaningless? Was she just a body that could be traded in
for another tomorrow?
Is this the life
that she wanted for herself?
If he was bored with
her after six months of marriage…? She couldn't
live like this… She couldn't do this herself… She wouldn't do this to her child… and most of all, she wouldn't stay and let
herself and her baby be an unwanted burden to him. One that he had taken on to help out his
brother…
There it was… her
heart was ripping open again when it was barely healed from the last time she
had run these same thoughts through her head.
And then she knew what she had to do…
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