what is happening to me? why ??

why is all of it happening to me ? or maybe to all of you too? but i donno, its kinda weird, this thing.
the journey of tashan e ishq has been exciting for me, falling in love with these two beautiful humans, and then going the crazy wala crazy, shipping, loving, laughing and crung with them, sobbing with the character, hiding my smile behind my hands and bllushing, all of it, plus one major thing happened to me during this while.
you guys.
this forum is literally a second home, a family extension, my closest friends, my major time traveller. and honestly, i love you guys so much, like seriosly, i remember the first post here, and then logging in and out every minute to see replies, the long long posts and the cute sidmin talks, the stories, the comments, the newest and the craziest of friends, teh feelings understood, the picture talks, the funny talks, the stalking and the laughing, the sharing of the deepest secrets, the birtdhay wishes, the small talks, the long talks.
this forum means hell lot to me, trust me.
the show means a lot too, and teh actors and the characters too. but something is changing.
i guess its cuz i havent watched teh show in a while, eventually i did not teh the gun shot at kunj wala scene, i left it the previous episode. i dont even bother looking up to see whats up with the show, i was once madly in love with.
i still love twinj, aka, our sidmin, i still love sidmin interviews, and everything, but then, the show? teh stroy ? its all, i dont know, FADING.
those endless and sleepless nights i used to spend, thinking of them and fallling asleep, thinking of new plots and stories, trying to write on them, waiting like a mad person for you guys to comment. the days in my classes when hearing a word related to the show would bring this mega watt smile to my face, and then bending down, pretending to tie my laces to hide the blush. those moments when i used to be lost in them, thinking dreaming wishing.
i dont feel them now.
nothing.
why? i dont know.
the show is still in my fav show list, sidmin still own my heart. but the feeling of attachment with everything happeing is over. its loosing its shine. its killing me.
i practically visit the forum only to meet you guys, to talk to these wonderful humans i call my friends, and then i dissapear.
this feeling of detachment from the show, its obvious, cuz i havent watched it since ages, but then why is everything loosing its shine.
why does the forum mean you guys and you guys, no tei or anything?
its wong na?
why is is all happening ??

Queen u r here ...ll be back

Sakshi i sense that u broke terribly.

Hey babes,

Honestly Sakshi, at this point, I think detachment is a blessing in disguise. It feels so good to not feel hurt or betrayed anymore. I detached a very long time ago, I'm pretty sure I was amongst one of the first to get over TEI when the news of Sid leaving first came out and tbh I couldn't be more happy right now. I still cherish Twinj and Zidmin, I even binge watch their old scenes and interviews but now it's more like reminiscing memories rather than crying over what could've, wouldve, should've been.

Sakshi with u in this. We need to overcome it soon.

I understand ur feelings sakshi..

Originally posted by: Shaveerkti

Queen u r here ...ll be back

i m back...

Originally posted by: sa86

Sakshi i sense that u broke terribly.

I just wish time will heal ur wound.

Miss u dear.

yeah, I guess I did, time to join the pieces and move on I guess
miss you too*sends hugs*

Originally posted by: neverlandspirit

Hey babes,

I understand what you mean. I was in the same boat too a while ago. But I guess this is what moving on feels like. I know now one can replace Sid as Kunj, that is completely unacceptable but what's happening with you and what happened with me is that we are moving on. We no longer care what happens in the show anymore, our hearts and minds have accepted that our Twinj's journey has ended. We have also kiddishly believed that it ended with their consummation. Everything else from that point onwards is our imagination and we are very content with this game of pretend.

The only reason we come to this forum now is for the bonds we have formed with the lovely people here. This is yet yours and my second home , without or with out Sid and with or without Tashan e ishq. Sidhant Gupta leaving or staying will never be the determinant of me staying on the forum and neither should it be yours.

We love you too much too let you go...

As far Sidhant is concerned, I have moved on. And as far Tashan e ishq is concerned I don't care what bullshit they show anymore.

wow, that has been enlightening, you always talk so sensibley that I feel like an idiot*laughs*
nevertheless, yes, I guess, you're right, maybe we are moving on, forgetthing all of it is maybe what we need, and what we want.
yuppp, I agree, I don't give a damn to wht happens on the show, im pactially concerned with you guys, and all, nothing else.
im so glad I have got you guys , like honestly, I don't feel tei feelings anymore, yes sidmin, it remains, but I guess im moving on, and from what I have read in the comments, its good that I have, and im glad that I am.